JEALOUS, A CHRIS STURNIOLO FIC.

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN.

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Matt's p.o.v

What the hell was she doing? She was sitting on Chris's lap. In front of everyone?

Okay nobody was paying attention but still.

I walked in front of her, "can I talk to you?" Her eyes snapped up to mine and I looked down. Chris still had his hands on her.

Wow. Amazing. Fantastic.

She nodded quickly and walked towards the other side of the beach with me.

What do I even say? That I'm jealous of my fake girlfriend? That's .. I can't say that. I'll say that she shouldn't be risking our contract. I don't really care what she does otherwise.

"Naelani. My brother... he just got over someone it's not smart to do.. whatever you're doing with him?" Her eyes froze in alarm. And her head jerked back a little. She was offended. But she shouldn't be it was true.

"And what am I doing with him?" She squinted her eyes. But her tone it wasn't offended. Not for what I was saying about Chris. She was upset by something else? What was it?

"You're I don't fucking know. You guys are always together and you're like- you were sitting on him I mean.. why do I have to even explain myself?" I asked rambling on as she took a deep breath.

"Okay that was wrong but you're acting like you were just having a tickle fight with Nai." She demanded. She was mad too. I didn't realize I was mad until I saw how upset she was. But it wasn't because of the contract.

It was because of us.

That's what it looked like. The way she looked at Nai, sitting on her log. Maybe I was wrong. She's so much closer to my brother anyways.

I can't. If she wants things to go further with me. I can't it has to stay a contract.

No more. No less.

"We weren't having a tickle fight." I grumbled. I pulled a hand through my hair and pushed my hood off my head. "Listen whatever your doing with Chris just fucking stop until this contract is over." I demanded and her eyes went soft.

So something was going on between them.

"Did you kiss Nai?" She asked.

What?

Why the hell would I do that to her?

Why the hell did I do that to her?

"Did you kiss Chris?" A thought passed behind her eyes and she looked away for a minute and then back.

"No." She said but I don't know if she was lying or not. It didn't matter. I knew the truth about what I did. But it didn't matter. Nai promised she wouldn't tell.

It was an accident.

She was waiting for me to say no. To say that I didn't kiss my first love back. After she cried and admitted she hated seeing me move on. She cried, breaking down telling me how hard it was for her to be happy again since we stopped speaking. Then she kissed me and I kissed her back.

And now I look like an asshole who willingly cheated on his girlfriend. But only to Nai. Which feels worst. Worst than everybody knowing. And I know that the guilt is eating at Nai.

But even if Naelani found out it wouldn't hurt her. It shouldn't. What we have isn't real. It just isn't... it's just a contract.

"Listen. Whatever is going on with you and my brother. I can't tell you to stop. But if you take it far ... break his heart or ruin our contract... I can't tell you that I'll make things look good for you." She flinched and I realized I threatened her.

"Okay.." she mumbled and walked away.

That was not what I meant to say. I just meant it wouldn't look good for either of us. Nothing good could come from whatever was going on between the two of us.

Naelani sat down next to Chris and he started rubbing her shoulder but she moved away from his touch and he frowned and continued making a s'more.

I looked to where Nai sat, by herself on the log. Her eyes were painful, staring at me until she finally just watched the fire. She was watching me and Naelani. She always had been. And I'd always watched her...

That's the way things were.

But how long before that was going to be the end of all of us?

Lanis pov

I was restless. Running over Matt's conversation again and again in my head.

I knew that everything I felt for Matt was because of Chris. Him snapping on me made me realize that. I've been trying to push my feelings for Chris onto Matt so things would make more sense.

But it didn't. It only made things worst.

I knew Nai had kissed Matt. Or that she was going too. And I knew how strong first loves were anyways. He was never going to let go of her. Whatever fantasy I was making up in my head about me and Matt wasn't worth the trouble.

I didn't hate Matt for loving Nai. We were just partners and anyways it made things easier. Things like liking Chris. I turned over to see Matt sleeping. I needed some water.

I got up, making sure the bead wouldn't shake and tiptoed out of the room. I peered back at Matt. He was sleep and sound. I walked out into the hall and my head banged against something.

"Shit." I cursed silently. I didn't hit a door i probably would've passed out. Chris. I stared up at him. His hair was messy and he was wearing blue shorts and... no shirt. Great.

Great great.

Being around Chris was much harder now because I knew for sure I wasn't going to avoid liking him. And that made things worst. It was the reason why I was just staring at him without speaking and holding my breath like an idiot.

"Lani.." he said. Only three people ever called me that. The guy I use to talk to... my best friend and my mom. Somehow the guy I use to talk to and Chris blurred together. Not just because they had the same name but because of other kind similarities.

I missed him. But I told myself I was protecting him. I don't know if that was true anymore...

"Yes?" I could feel my face getting hot. My stupid face was getting hot because of Chris. He smirked, I could see it because of the moonlight that shone lightly in the window. He stared into my eyes and then looked at my lips. I could feel my heart race and I wish I could tell it to stop.

But it wouldn't because I was thinking about that night in the hot tub. When we made this deal... that was to help me get Matt. I should've known then that's not what I wanted.

"C'mon." Chris said leading me a door down to his room but I was worried he was too perfect. Too perfect for me to be following him to his room. Too perfect for me not to catch more feelings.

But I couldn't turn down one more bad decision. So I followed him. He left the door open behind us, I feel like it was to make me feel safe. But I was surprised that my anxiety showed so obviously. He could always see it. Probably even in the dark.

I sat on the edge of his bed. I had to be honest. Right? I couldn't hide the truth? Or maybe I could. For a little longer...

He knelt down in front of me, "what's wrong? Did Matt do something? He asked politely and I shook my head lying. I was lying about a lot these days. And I wanted to go back to before when I was honest.

"I know... it's hard.. what you're doing?" What was I doing? Did he know about the deal? "But I mean.. things could be worst." He said trying to calm me.

"Chris I-" I like you. I took a deep breathe in and out. That wasn't right to say, "Chris we .. we have to call off the plan.. I-I'm with Matt and he doesn't want me to mess around you know with your feelings.." I said some sort of truth.

The look in Chris's eyes darkened and he pulled away from me for a second, "my feelings...?" He asked me and I nodded.

"He thinks.. that we're messing around and um that you'll get heartbroken." I admit and Chris makes his fingers brush his shorts off, to calm himself down. But that doesn't work so he pulls his hands through his hair.

"I don't have feelings for you.." he says and I stare at him blankly. There's a deep pain in my chest and I smile like what he said was good news but deep down I'm holding back from crying. At least he's being honest. I don't know why I thought this situation would create anything good or anything real.

"Okay. That's good... he was just worried.." I say, avoiding looking at him. That's why he left the door open. Great well I'll leave. I stand up and start walking out. My heart feels like it's out of my chest and some how pounding in my throat in my head and in my ears.

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