Author's POV

The story shares a struggle of a girl.

The story changed the minds of many.

Meet Y/n

A girl who was suffering from a syndrome called Asperger's Syndrome.

Asperger Syndrome is a form of Autism Spectrum Disorder and is a developmental disorder. The person boasts a high IQ, an impressive memory, and a wonderfully creative thought process, but the person struggles with everyday interaction.

She had so many heartstring-tugging moments. Despite her pain, she ignored it in the name of "growth". In her view, it was just a stage that everyone goes through every once in a while. However, hers was more painful. Her worst experience was bullying. There were so many thoughts swirling around in her head...

Thoughts of being Overlooked

Thoughts of being a Failure

Thoughts of Depression

Thoughts of

Dying...

Countless nights passed with her crying... Until her tears dried up...

She loved looking at the dark humid cloud hovering over the starry night.

Even the sky was crying when she realized she wasn't alone. Rain pleased her. When the sky weeps those heavy tears on everyone, regardless of gender, then why should she care about what people think about her?

The role model she looked up to was her father. Her worth was known to him.

He knew she was born to be different.

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2nd August 20XX

Dear Diary 

Another heartbreaking moment...

Here's another worthless moment wasting your precious page...

Is there anything I can do to help? This was the only way for me to heal myself, to regain myself...

I looked up at the white ball hanging in the sky... Why? Just why!? Don't they realize how much pain it reflects on my heart... 

Got played again... When I take 2 steps, they force me to draw back to 4 steps...

They always prove me wrong...

It makes me wonder, How can a person like me get involved with a person like them?

Closing my eyes, I remembered the moment that lives in my mind forever

"What do you want to be in the future, my child?"

"A LAWYER LIKE YOU!" the little girl screamed and hugged him

A dream of becoming just like my father remained in my heart for a long time.

A Lawyer

I have always talked to myself in front of the mirror. I had the ambition to recover from Asd

and I will...

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Her disease slowly progressed over the years. Jae-min and her dad have been by her side all these days, and she feels lucky to have them by her side. She was grateful for the defense she used to receive from her best friend.

There was one thing she always hated about herself...

She could never defend herself...

Her worst fear came true one day... Afraid of socializing... She was accepted to a prestigious university. The first few days of her stay went well. She appreciated everyone staying out of each other's business and not interfering with their private lives. Having finally found the peace she had been seeking for so long, she was happy.

Until a call, took a twist in her life.

What could she possibly do? She sat there crying in front of the operating room.

She received a call from the hospital, informing her that her dad had been in an accident and would undergo surgery soon...

"G-god... P-please h-help my d-dad r-recover" she stuttered mumbling to herself. Jae-min was by her side as tears streamed down his cheeks...

"I will come back after filling the registrations" She nodded as he left

"Miss Y/n?" The doctor called out to her. Whipping her tears she bowed asking about her dad.

"He is fine now, resting, you can go inside", his warm smile relieved her."

"D-dad" Upon entering, she found her dad's body lying on a comfy mattress. Taking a seat next to the bed, she wiped her tears.

"He is recovering very fast," he said passing on the health report to her after looking at it

"Myself Jung Hoseok, you?"

"I'm Park Y/n, I'm a law student"

"The first thing I noticed about you was how depressed you seemed. I'm a counselor, if you are comfortable sharing, please do so."

"I-I have Asperger's Syndrome."

Taking a step back, Y/n explained her side of the story. As Hoseok patiently listened to her, he suggested many routines that could help her improve her condition.

"Are you guys done?" Someone spoke all of a sudden

"D-dad" She hugged him as happy tears rolled down her cheeks as he smiled at her shocked face

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22nd August 20XX

Dear Diary

It's been a while since I've written, but there has been a lot going on today. Dad had an accident and had to undergo immediate surgery. Despite feeling like breaking down, I kept hoping for his fast recovery. Upon speaking with the assigned doctor, I discovered that he was recovering more quickly than expected.

I knew he would be with me till the end, isn't that why I used to call him my superhero?

My friend Jae-min comforted me a lot too, and sometimes I even wonder if he is too good for me to be his friend.

As I looked at my dad covered with bandages, I felt helpless... I felt fortunate that he was taken care of by a doctor who I could trust a lot

His name was Hoseok.

In addition to being a doctor, he is also a counselor. He helped me ease my heavy heart's pain.

He was fun to be around...

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A few days later

"Dad! Common! have your food! You know you will get sick or else" Y/n scolded her father who was busy reading something on his phone, unbothered about her daughter's rant.

"Y/n...." She sensed something important was about to happen when she heard her dad's serious voice.

"You are

my replacement..."

"WHAT!?" After calming her daughter, he explained what had happened

"B-but d-dad, will I be a-able to do it?"

"I believe in you....."

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1st September 20XX

Dear Diary

The situation leaves me helpless. Was I his replacement? I wanted to conduct a court trial, but this is not a trial, but an unforeseen case. There were only a few days left until my graduation, so I began to prepare for my exams regarding the court trial. Jae-min and Dad supported me and helped me out by doing many court trials, but there was someone who listened to me, just like you do every day.

It was Hoseok...

I guess you too have a replacement now...

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13th October 20XX

Dear Diary

Just one more month and I would be standing in front of the judge. I felt like to be fully prepared and confident. In between this learning session, I had my counseling session with Hoseok who helped me to be confident enough to present myself.

Recently I have been wondering what is love. 

I mean it isn't like I don't get love from my dad, but I think about those romantic moments 

He took me out a few days ago.

I was waiting for him outside my house when a big black car stood in front. rolling down the glasses, a pair of brown eyes were already looking at my tiny figure. I followed down to look at the white t-shirt tugged in his black pants and his dark brown hair hanging down his forehead...

He came out and greeted me with a warm smile, opening the door for me. 

We went to the amusement park and enjoyed playing around many rides there. In addition to that amazing day, was the ride on Ferris Wheel in the end... The night sky was gloomed with white shiny dots all over it. That little moment of us holding hands and staying in comfortable silence was what I wish to happen every day...

My heart beat races every time he is near me

What is this feeling?

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1 month later

A spectator area, a gallery, was located at the back of the open room, separated from the rest of the courtroom by a partition. Public members, including those coming to support a family member or friend, sat in the large area filled with benches, one by one. On the right side is the plaintiff's table, and on the left side is the defendant's table.

Y/n stood beside the defendant on the judge's bench at the front of the courtroom. Her attention was caught by the judge entering from her side. Respect was shown to the Judge by everyone in the room standing up and bowing. Stabilizing herself with long breaths, she stood there confidently.

"I believe in you... I know you can do this..."

she recalled the words of her father

"All rise" The bailiff spoke, and everyone stood up except for the judge 

"Department One of the Superior Court is now in session. Judge presiding. Please be seated" Everyone settled down, The judge stood and bowed as he spoke up

"Good morning, ladies and gentlemen. Calling the case, are both sides ready?"

"Will the clerk please swear in the jury?" The clerk spoke

"Will the jury please stand and raise your right hand?" Everyone stood up once again "Do each of you swear that you will fairly try the case before this court and that you will return a true verdict according to the evidence and the instructions of the court, so help you, God? Please say "I do"

 The Jurors spoke after the clerk "I do." 

"You may be seated."

"Your Honor and ladies and gentlemen of the jury, We have a matter lined up." I confidently started when everyone settled down

"Yes go ahead. Present your case." The judge replied

"The petitioner's name is Ms. Eun-min and the defendant's name is Mr. Kang Dae. I am representing in favor of my client Mr. Kang Dae who is guilty my Lord. Mrs. Eun-min tried to hurt herself and wanted to blackmail my client my Honor."

"I OBJECT!" Ms. Eun-min's lawyer objected "I want evidence, without that, your words can't be believed"

"Well, I will decide that. To arrive at an impartial judgment, I need to hear the facts of the case from both parties. So firstly, The prosecution may call its first witness." The Judge said

"I called out our witness Ms. Shin, a co-worker of Mr. Kang who witnessed the harassment and the trap imposed on Mr. Kang by Ms. Eun"

I stood behind as the Deputy started asking questions to Ms. Shin

"I have no further questions to be asked, My Lord" The deputy backed off

"The witness is excused" The Judge announced

"I OBJECT!" Ms. Eun-min's lawyer once again objected 

"I don't believe this woman either, what if she is doing it under the pressure of Mr. Kang? I want evidence, her words can't be believed, or else"

"The evidence which my client had presented is fabricated. To prove this fabricated evidence I have the real one to present. Please my Lord allow me to show the real evidence." I showed my pen drive which was now connected to the player where the evidence played.

"Does the plaintiff's lawyer have something to say on the behalf of her client?" The judge asked

"Yes my lord," I replied "My client was harassed and was also physically assaulted by her"

"I object my lord. They just had a verbal fight on a trivial domestic issue." The other Lawyer argued 

"They just had a petty argument and she got seriously injured. Isn't that shockingly astonishing?" At this point, I was astonished instead of the judge

"No! That's absolutely not true." I objected knowing it was a lie

"Oh please! Your client is an unruly man and he belongs in prison."Ms. Eun-min's lawyer blamed

"Order! Order! Both the lawyers settle down and maintain the decorum of the court. I would hear arguments from both the sides in next hearing. By that time court is adjourned."

After a few more discussions and debates, the result of showing these documents was ordered.

The whole room was filled with silence waiting for the judgment,

Y/n stood there nervously waiting for the result.

"Listening to both sides, I state that Ms. Eun-min carries a three years prison sentence in the name of harassment" The judge asserted the order by stating that Ms. Eun-min actually fabricated the order to harass Mr. Kang Dae, which carries a three-year prison sentence.

"The jury is thanked and excused. The court is adjourned" The Judge announced

It was hard for Y/n  to believe she had won one of the most challenging cases. She clapped after she achieved success. In front of everyone present, she bowed.

As she walked out, thousands of people cheered for her. The fact that she won her first case at such a young age amazed many. Her performance was praised by many people. Her humiliators also praise her. With her ability and power, she solved the impossible case.

"I knew she could do it"

A whisper came from her father. To return to the hospital's point of view, everyone applauded, especially Hoseok. In the end, her dedication and hard work helped him win the case.

"You did it, I knew you had the dedication when I first saw you...."

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20th December 20XX

Dear Diary

OH MY GOD! YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT! I WON THE MY FIRST-EVER CASE!! Astonishing right? Same for me... As soon as I entered my office room I was greeted by my dad, his personal nurse, and obviously, Hoseok stood at the back, clapping for me...

Everyone present there congratulated me and a cake was brought to celebrate my first step to success. I was cutting the cake when I felt someone's presence was missing, It was Hoseok. My eyes searched for him and found him in the corner smiling, which made me break into a shy smile. I was distributing pieces of cake when I noticed Hoseok was not present. I searched for him when Jae-min told me that he went to the balcony. My steps followed there when I found him looking at the picturesque view. I stepped outside as the cold breeze hit my skin. 

He looked at me, and that's when our eyes met, and the time stopped...

He knelt down without breaking eye contact.

He said those beautiful words with pure sincerity in his heart.

I love you....

Be my girlfriend....

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2 years later

It's 8:00 pm and all have gathered at the beach according to the party's plan. After Y/n's first trial, she has got many more cases to solve. And that's how each day she was nearer to her success. 

"I and Y/n will bring some snacks" Hoseok spoke. The elders nodded as they headed inside their little cottage to prepare their snacks.

"It feels good here," Y/n said as their hands came together

Hoseok looked at her ocean eyes and said, "Definitely... especially when I'm with you." Smiling, they headed outside to arrange the snacks.

"Wait, lemme help you!" The elders prepared a fireplace for them to sit around as they collected wood together.

"It would be nice if you could sing Dandelions, Hoseok, and I will play the guitar" Y/n's father suggested. As well as being a lawyer, her father was also an avid guitarist.

Listen to Dandelions, Male Ver.

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Maybe, it's the way you say my name

Maybe, it's the way you play your game

But it's so good, I've never known anybody like you

But it's so good, I've never dreamed of nobody like you

And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine

'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

I think that you are the one for me

'Cause it gets so hard to breathe

When you're looking at me, I've never felt so alive and free

When you're looking at me, I've never felt so happy

And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine

'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay, when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

Dandelion, into the wind you go

Won't you let my darling know?

Dandelion, into the wind you go

Won't you let my darling know that?

I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

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"You sang amazingly Hoseok" Y/n's dad complimented as they had a fist bump.

"I think we should go and sleep. It's already very late" Hoseok's mother announced as they cleaned up the area and went inside to keep it.

Hoseok made sure to blow out the fire while Y/n went inside the room and arranged the cupboards when she found something she had never expected. Taking a seat on the bed, she stared at it. It refreshed my memories, but at the same time, she didn't feel comfortable reading about her bad past.

It was her Dear Diary

"What are you looking at?" Hoseok entered the room all of a sudden, startling her chain of thoughts...

"N-nothing," she decides to hide it from him. Hoseok did suspect something was wrong but he didn't bother her and asked her to sleep instead.

She lay down on the bed and went back into deep thinking about all the struggles she had in her past and eventually dozes off into her dreamland. She felt a light feather covering her whole body as the tip of it touched her forehead. It was Hoseok, who covered her with a blanket and kissed her forehead.

"MAMA!! WHY! WHY DO YOU NEED TO GO" The little girl screamed while her mother legs, crying helplessly

"I-I can't stay here anymore. It will hurt if I see you and your dad once more... It hurts... I never wish to leave my little piggy here alone, but I can't see you crying" Her mother cried hugging her daughter

"Aren't you making me cry already" The girl sobbed

"It's nothing compared to the tears that you're gonna have a few days later." As the mother said she forced herself to leave her daughter and ran away from the house. She locked the main door when she heard the banging of the door and the little girl crying inside asking her not to leave. She slid down on the door hearing her daughter's sobs, crying helplessly not knowing where to go.

Y/n's eyes snap open, as she was covered in a cold sweat, shaking, heart pounding, looking around the room in horror that may have followed her here. She gets up cautiously, shivering, rubs her head and eyes, and tries to fully awaken. Stumbles to the door, and looks at the mirror beside her slowly, cautiously, as if not sure of what she'll see. The moon shines bright through the sky, washing away the vestiges of the horror, leaving her relieved. She took her diary and went outside leaving the door open.

A fresh breeze struck her face as the dry tears wiped away. The horror of her childhood struck her once again. It was about her mother who ran away from her family with no say about the reason and was later found dead in the hospital. She always wondered what made her mother took this decision of running away, which was left unanswered in her heart. She slowly opened her diary as a paper fell down. She sat on the little log chair as she put on some fire and opened the paper.

Dear Y/n,

How are you doing baby? I'm sure by the time you're reading this I'm gone... far away from where you're. It's okay baby, I'm with you may be sitting next to you and looking at you.

As she read that out a cold breeze struck her body as he looked to her side to find a small tornado of sand brushing up on her. That's when she actually felt those words. 

The words about her mother sitting beside her..

Nevertheless, she continued to read the letter.

It's time for me to tell you something very serious. I am a cancer patient in the last stages of the disease. Your dad did everything to save me, and hopefully, I did survive until my assigned doctor called me up for a check-up to find that I had again contracted cancer, and this time it was the last stage. I didn't tell your dad about this because I wanted my final moments with you to be happy, not sad, but I guess I messed up everything by not telling your dad. I'm sorry that I left you alone in the house that day.

I'm sorry for leaving you both hanging there.

Unknowingly, tears flowed from her eyes as she thought about her parents' struggle... Trying to keep them safe forever... The letter was clutched to her heart as she felt warmth rush over her. All the time, Hoseok was behind her.

"It's okay, cry out" He sat beside her as she had a shoulder to cry on...

Silenced ensued them, but it was a comfortable one.

"You okay?" 

"Hmm" 

"What's that?" He asked as he pointed at the diary. A smile spread across her face as she tossed it into the flames

"Y/n! It was your childhood diary!" He screamed

"If you knew then why bother asking," She asked calmly, as he too calmed down

"It was precious to you... Why would you do that?" She smiled

"As I wrote in that diary, my galaxy seemed like a soil laced coals that burned my heart...

I want a new start, 

I want to re-write my galaxy... 

With You...."

He smiled looking at the fire... 

"I Do Believe Your Galaxy..."

Hoseok looked at her side and saw there were a few teared-up papers lying beside her. He smiled knowing she teared up her happy moments and burned the bad ones.

The night sky was gloomed with white shiny dots all over it, and the night went by with them just staring at the beautiful sky full of constellations...

4 years later

Streets were filled with cheers and claps.

"Once again! Mrs. Jung Y/n won the case!" You heard it right.

Jung Y/n has replaced Park Y/n. Once her law studies were over, she worked on many cases around the world and finally married someone who appreciated her for who she is.

It was Hoseok...

All the times it was him... Only him...

Looking back she remembered her time with her dad...

Today she is who she wished to become in the future...

"ᴅᴇꜰᴇɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ꜱᴇʟꜰ-ᴇꜱᴛᴇᴇᴍ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴘʀᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴊᴜᴅɢᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱᴜᴄᴄᴇꜱꜱꜰᴜʟ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ"

~Author Kookie

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