Shivaay's Pov

Life? Hmm... people made so much sites, apps but there's no app no site where you can sell your life

If being born was in my hands than I wouldn't be on this earth, I don't want my child to suffer everything which I suffered

I don't want him to face that hatred, those sleepless nights, I don't want my child to be haunted by demons which become your friends when you have no one

Maybe I was never ment to be loved, maybe I never deserved love, maybe I don't deserve to live.

What is more painful? Dieining when you want to live or living when you want to die ?

Bepanaah Si
Mohabbat Ki Hai,

I came out of my thoughts when I heard a knock.

She's here.

Dil Ne Bhi
Yahi Chaahat Ki Hai,

My heart whispered, I turned, my heart was beating rapidly fast.

I opened the door and saw her standing there, looking at the floor.

Tere Beena
Mera Lagey Na Jiya,

"Ahemm" I coughed and she looked up

Her face had a frown, like she was kinda shocked.

"I, em, just wanted to know when will we eat lunch? Actually I'm, em, kinda hungry" she whispered the last line

I chuckled. She's just too cute when she's hungry.

Terey Liyein Hi
Dharhke Jiya,

"I'll ask the cook, don't worry" I said and turned to leave

I felt a hand stopping me, and I knew it was hers.

"Somewhere, trying to find love, I lost you Shivaay...didn't I?"  my heart said paining

Merey Dil Ko
Terey Dil Ki Zarurat Hai,

"Shivaay" she called me.

"Yes" I replied

She made me turn and started taking step forwards, with each step of her my skipped a beat.

Merey Dil Ko
Terey Dil Ki Zarurat Hai,

"She drives me carzy, sorry." my heart said

I was looking at her with wide open eyes, she had a low smile but not painful. It was beautiful.

"An.." she cutt me off in the middle by placing her index finger on my lips

Merey Dil Ko
Terey Dil Ki Zarurat Hai,

"Ssshh...don't talk just feel" she whispered

"Feel what?" I asked confused

She chuckled.

"Feel us"

Gosh. I'm gonna die.

"I..actual.." before I could complete she slammed her soft lips on mine.

She was controlling me, and of course I did kiss her back, my hands wandered to her waist. Her hands covered the back of my neck and she started playing with my hair.

"Stop" I said out of breath

"I swear I won't" she said

"Why are you doing this?" I asked hurted

"I don't know, I want to hate you but I love you that much that this bloody hatred isn't enough"  she said looking into my eyes.

Merey Dil Ko
Terey Dil Ki Zarurat Hai...

She freakin' loves you.

"So, we're good? Again?" I asked raising a eyebrow.

"I seriously don't know" she said and I could feel that uneasiness in her voice

"Anika you need to trust me" I said in a low voice

"How? You broke my trust Shivaay by not telling me my mother was dieing" tears formed in her eyea

"I was helpless" I seriously was.

"Why? What happened?" she asked and her voice raised by each word

"Anika try to understand..."

"That's the problem, you don't want to understand" she yelled

"Wait, what? I don't want to understand? No Anika it's you who's not listening to me" I shouted

"See, that's your love, you know what I shouldn't have come to your room. No not in your room but also not in your life."

Please don't say you regret loving me.

"I regret loving you Mr. Oberoi" she said

Shw just crashed my whole world into thousand pieces by saying this one line.

"Do you actually realize you just lost me?" I whispered

"I don't care" she said coldly

"Bye"

I don't like byes they scare me.

Humny pukaara
Tum ny dhudkara,
Kaisa ye tera pyar
Rulaye mujhy baar baar.
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Okay I know everyone wants to kill me for this but just wait for next chapter and yeah I won't let them fall apart. Have trust on me.

Hehehe the evil laugh

Target - 4 Followers pleajjjj. *puppy eyes*
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Take care

Amna ♥️