arabella watched silently like a young child from the corner of the drop ship as clarke gave finn the antidote of whatever poison was on the knife he was stabbed with. clarke didn't know arabella was there and the blonde girl broke down into tears.

arabella moved further away as clark's mother spoke over the radio. the girl had almost forgotten they had managed to make contact with the ark, they would most likely be coming down to earth soon. the thought made arabella want to leave the camp, just so she didn't have to see or speak to her father again.

the girl didn't even want to call him her father, he meant nothing to her and she meant nothing to him, or so arabella thought.

...

"she's alive..." marcus said to his mother and arabella's grandmother the older woman looked confused. "bella, she's alive is alive." 

"she's a strong girl, i imagine she's a leader to those children down there." vera sighed, disappointed her son never told her he sent his own daughter to the ground not knowing whether she'd die or not. 

"she's still a child herself." marcus looked at vera with confusion.

"not anymore marcus. not since you sent her to the ground."

"i didn't get much of a say. i would've rather her have a slither of a chance to live than die the next goddamn day!" he raised his voice at the older woman.

"she won't forgive you for this, you know that don't you?" vera asked.

"i know. but knowing she's alive is enough for me."

...

 the night passed slowly, arabella had barely slept but when she awoke from her short sleep, bellamy was sitting next to her.

"hey." he whispered.

arabella sat up slowly, rubbing her eyes with a yawn, bellamy chuckled quietly. "what? is there something on my face?" she asked.

bellamy shook his head, his hand reaching out to tuck a strand of hair behind the girl's ear. 

"have you come to apologize for being a dick to me?" she asked, a shit-eating grin on her face.

"i mean i was, but after that spout of attitude i don't think i will anymore." 

arabella rolled her eyes, laying back down and pulling this thin blanket over her body. "bye then." she grumbled, pulling the blanket up to her chin.

"ah, no." bellamy said, pulling the blanket off her. "you need to talk to your dad."

arabella shot up. "i don't have to do shit, bellamy."

"eh, you kinda do, sweetheart. clarke said it was quite literally chancellor's orders." he shrugged.

"i'm not speaking to him, i'm sorry bell. i can't. aren't you still refusing to talk to jaha?" she told him. "i won't be here when they get down here anyway."

"yes. but that's different, i tried to kill him." bellamy replied. "and funnily enough i'm leaving too."

"the hell you are. you need to be here for octavia." arabella stood up, throwing on her jacket and slipping on her shoes. "i can leave because nobody here gives a shit whether i'm here or not. who knows, maybe i'll find murphy out there." she ranted, praying that she could find her best friend again. she walked away from the man, tying up her hair as she walked. 

...

arabella helped monty and jasper prepare the nuts and other food for the winter, clarke walked up to the girl.

"arabella, can i talk to you for a sec?" the blonde asked.

arabella huffed. "how many times do i have to tell you i am not speaking to my-"

"i wasn't going to say that. i was going to ask if you wanted to come with me and bellamy to look for this supply depo." she told the girl. "these supplies could give us a chance to make it through winter."

arabella let out a sigh, the idea sparking in her head that this could be the time she leaves. the girl pursed her lips. "okay, i'll come."

"great!" clarke chirped. "i'm going to check on finn then we'll go." she smiled, giving arabella a quick hug before walking away.

arabella grabbed her pack and went to fill it with some of the nuts the hundred had been packing, bellamy came up next to her.

"we really do have the brightest idea don't we, gorgeous." he flirted.

the girl scoffed, nudging him slightly. "keep it in your pants, bellamy blake." she rolled her eyes, trying not to laugh. "and stop flirting with me."

"how can i when-" he was interrupted when clarke walked over to the two. 

"hey, that's a lot of rations." she said to them both. "you realize this is a day trip."

arabella glanced up at bellamy, his eyes already on her, he turned to clarke. "a lot can happen in a day." he replied, shutting the lid of the container and looking over at all the delinquents.

the three began walking, bellamy faltered for a moment wondering if his decision to leave was the best one.