Idea of You
By:Cakecat001/Cakey

Sometimes
It is just the idea of you
That has me wishing
For last year

When I knew I was loved
When I felt your arms around me:
I loved you.
I love you.

At least,
I love the idea of you.
Someone who loves me back.
Who I could be me with.

I hate how I act.
I hate the feeling of pills sitting in my stomach.
I hate being the last choice.
Always the last choice now.

Why can't I be loved again?
It feels so weird,
Knowing so little
When I used to know it all.

Why am I last?
I feel so lonely.
I miss the idea of you.
Always the idea of you.

It's the idea
That has me crying for love.
It's the idea
That makes me feel sick.

I love you.
I love the idea of you.
I loved you.
I loved you.