Hey guys!

You know, I realized I haven't really been updating this book lately (I know. Shocker). Lately, I've actually been writing in an actual journal -- paper and pen -- every night before I go to bed. 

Yeah... there's a lot more hardcore stuff in that book than this one, but that's due to the fact that I'm not just gonna give away my feelings on the internet willy-nilly. We cool with that? 

Although, I am going to inform you of certain... complications that have arisen in my life. Of course, that being said, you're sadly not going to learn everything. Again, there are only certain things I am allowed to share on the internet, so I don't give away someones secrets. 

No, I will not trash talk people either. That is for my personal journal only. 

Anyway, I decided that I really wanted my readers to understand more about who I was and kinda where I come from. No, I'm not gonna give away my location or my number or anything. Only someone insane would do something like that... I have no desire to be kidnapped. 

But... because I want to connect with you guys, I decided that I want to share more. My fans are my life. I love every single one of them, and yes, I understand that my writing may not mean a lot to someone. But come on guys! Though my books maaaaay be some boring old book from a dusty shelf, that doesn't mean I can't love them. This book has, sadly, been sitting on the metaphorical shelf for a long time. 

*sigh* But enough of the introduction. Let's have fun!

Ish...

Let's start off by saying my life isn't exactly the most peachy out there. My family is near the 'not as rich as anyone else in our community', but that's okay. I have two sisters and a brother: Amanda, Zoe and Carl (and yes, those are not their real names). I am sixteen years old and I am going to be shipped off to my junior year this next school year. 

HOW SCARY IS THAT???

I am literally old enough to move out if I wanted! I could literally drive away and never return! I could go scrounge around for a job!

Do I want to? 

No, never in a million years. I could never pick up my bags and ditch my family like that. It might be a smart choice for some kids, but I am not suggesting it. K?

Anyway, I have the ACT coming up this next year -- the terrifying test! -- and I already have one (official) year of high school behind me. *sigh* yeah... that school year involved a lot of drama and sadness, but I learned a lot. 

Semi-Abusive boyfriend taught me that fairy tales really aren't very reliable in real life. 

Going through hard friend problems proved to me that "inseparable best friends" is also a made up idea to give people hope. (NOT THAT THAT'S A BAD THING)

And out of it all... I realized that one of my childhood idols -- my Grandmother -- really doesn't have the best advice for this day and age. 

Yeah yeah, I'm sorry Grandma, but don't judge me too harshly. I mean, you're really good with 90s stuff, but... sadly, this is 2015. And let's just say some points of view are a little shifted. 

For example: My ex decided my best friend was better than me and ran to her instead. My grandmother to drop my best friend, but my mom told me to hang on to her if I wanted to still be friends. And guess what? We still are! Yes yes, Ryan is being a poohead and gets in the way, but who cares! We still love each other!

Sometimes old traditions aren't exactly the right road these days... 

Haha I'm sorry, I'm totally rambling. I'm so bored and my friends are trying to make me roleplay when I'm not really in the mood to. Haha, but that's okay! 

Well, I guess I'll spurt out random facts about myself to pass the time. 

1. I love to write. (DUH)

2. I really like to do art as well. Especially if they are a character I created, and requests are fun too. :D

Well... how personal do I wanna get... 

3. I actually like some country songs, so please don't judge. 

4. I have attempted at writing a science fiction story, but it was really really complex and hard, so I put it aside. 

Hmm... anything else you guys would think is cool... 

5. I am a severe fangirl for Doctor Who (except for Peter... I'm sorry man, but you're a little hard for me to connect with...)

6. I hate foul language. I'm sorry, but I do. It annoys me that people don't even have enough creativity to come up with a better word. They're cruel and very evil... yet I don't understand why people throw them out randomly like they're candy at a parade! Ugh...

7. I used to roleplay a lot, but after a really hard experience, I don't do it much anymore...

8. I have no pets in my house, but I really like my Grandmother's dogs. They're chiwawas and they are soooo cute! And a bit yippy, but that's alright. 

9. I love tumblr's comedic culture, yet hate the language (as we have already established).

AND FINALLY

10. I have very low blood pressure, so when I get really worked up and emotional about something (like my ex boyfriend cutting himself), I have a high probability of passing out. Whiiich has happened... on more than one occasion... 

So yeah! There is my list of weird things about me! I cannot believe I have written a thousand words in one sitting... dang, I feel so accomplished in life. I haven't written this much down at one single time for months. Oh yeeeess! It's such a great feeling!

Anyway, I want to thank all of you who ever endured though this chapter. Ugh. I feel so bad for clogging up the internet with my horrible opinions, but it just feels soooo good to vent! I love all of you for everything you do for me!

Clover Brooks over and OUT!

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Advice: Don't be afraid to set time away for yourself. Beautiful things can come from it. :)