Silver's POV:

I'm awake? *sigh* I guess I fell asleep crying again..... I don't know why but I'm always in pain...I constantly blame myself for everything bad that ever happened, even if has nothing to do with me. Under my gloves I have cuts, but they're no accident....I put them there cuz I hate myself. The only thing that's keeping me from just jumping off a cliff or hang myself, is my best friend/roommate Blaze. I know she loves me, but I don't love her....well I do but, she's more like a sister to me. I tried to die from blood loss last night, I cut my hands, feet and lower calves. But it didn't work, so I began to cry. No one truly understands me...I'm an orphan, but I wasn't always like this....I never knew my father but my mother was vary deer to me. When I was 5 she got sick, really sick I tried my best to help her, but she always insisted I take all the food I managed to find, and to hold onto all the medicine. She died in my arms one night after telling me, "Never be cruel, never be cowardly, but if you can, always be kind. Do not let fear control you, for fear is the mind killer. I love you son. I'm proud of you Silver Tetsuo Hammond. Goodbye my sweet baby boy." That night broke me....that night gave me depression. But I have to hide my pain now, I have to put on a mask of happiness, I have to go to work.....those cars aren't going to wash themselves.