"Let's leave this town forever and start new! I'll take care of you from now on and you'll go on tour with me and my band..we'll be together I promise..." Those were the words my boyfriend Matty Healy from the now famous band The 1975 said three years ago. I was young and stupid and I believed in every word he said...he was right at first but he doesn't seem to care anymore.

I toured with him and his band every one in a while and sometimes I wish i could go back to my once normal life,I dropped put of high school to be with him even if he was a few years older than me,I was just nineteen when I left my parents when they pleaded me to stay but I was foolish to think that my boyfriend would give me the world, how foolish I was...

Everything was like a fairytale at first we would visit new places together and be happy until that happiness went away and was replaced by parties all night,drinking,smoking and sex.

I didn't minded all of those things at first but after a couple of times I began to grow sick, Matty would later on begin to sleep all day,party all night and smoke constantly and only would sometimes remember that I was around to have his fun at night...I was surprised that i didn't turned out pregnant till today.

I sat down on the living room texting an old friend from school when Matty stepped out of the room already a bit tipsy while holding a cigar in hand,exhausted from whatever he did he laid back on the sofa and began ro take a drag out of his cigar, "(Y/N)..do you mind getting a few drinks for me love?"

I glared over to his direction even if he couldn't see me since he was in his own thoughts, "I'm sure you'd live that drink but I won't buy it." I crossed my arms,Matty confused looked over to me.

"We..we'll be needing them for the night so go right now and buy some-"

"No,Matty!" I said interrupting him, "I can't live like this anymore." I said knocking over a table with a few pills and probably cocaine. Matty stood up looking very angry at me and I just saw him raise his hand and next thing I know i was on the floor holding onto my cheek which was burning.

I laid there for a second before I began to cry and he spoke up, "(Y/N)..I'm s-sorry i didn't mean to-"

"Shut up Matty! Just leave me alone from now on,I'm tired of you."

I stood up grabbed my backpack,filled it with cash and some clothes and walked out of out messy room till he grabbed my arm making me look into his brown eyes, "P-please stay..i'm lost without you."

I couldn't help but cry some more, "You never said that before until now..guess I never mattered to you..I don't ever want to see you again am i clear?!..and I thought we could have raised our child together." I say looking at him,his eyes seemed to brightened he heard we were having a kid...

"I never want to see you again." I escaped from his grip and ran down the stairs and got into my friends car and right before we left,I saw Matry standing in front of the house staring at me as I ran away from him. I wish things wouldn't have been this hard but it's entirely my fault cause I believed his lies..but maybe someday I will forgive him..someday I will...