"I promise once the concerts and tour are over i'll be the first one to visit you,you can always count on me."

Those words kept repeating inside of my head no matter what i always remember Alex and the times we shared together,many mistook us for a couple but we aren't we've just been best friends ever since his brother passed away many years ago,he's helped me through a lot of shit.

Both my parents passed away right when i ran away with Alex and i couldnt do anything,i blame myself for their deaths even though they both hated me.Before i was born my mother was pregnant with a boy until she suffered a miscarriage.

Once my mother had me i was the black sheep of the family whenever we had a family reunion everyone would talk about about me and the way i began to dress up,my parents blamed me for their sons loss and just hated me deeply. I wish i wouldve had a older brother to look up to like Alex had,i looked up to Alex like any younger brother or sister would look to their elder.

But soon i started to see Alex more than just a brother or a family member..i started to have a small crush on him which led to me liking him even more when Jack Barakat his friend asked me if i had feelings for him.

Not long when i escaped with Alex he formed All Time Low which consists of Jack,Rian,Zack and Alex himself as the leas singer. Years have passed and they were on their Back To The Future Hearts tour and i stayed home close to where they were playing their last concert for the tour.

"You've come this far,
You're all cleaned up,
You've made a mess again,
There's no more trying,
Time to sort yourself out...

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one,
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can't cover up what you've done,
Now don't lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through,
With so much left to do;
You'll be missing out, and we'll be missing you."

Missing You has to be my favourite song out of the Future Hearts album,it has a deep meaning and it makes it even special to me since Alex wrote it especially for me,the song is mine.Alex is always so kind and thoughtful to everyone including me which i disagree,i'm a burden to him and i dont deserve him.

These months have been so lonely and i rarely go out only to buy some food to live but i need someone to talk to everyday,to see everyday.I sit down on the carpet and begin to cry when my iPod switched to the song Remembering Sunday.

This song perfectly describes him..or rather us...

I pulled out my pocket knife and stared at the razor in hand and my wrists that had multiple of lines,those lines of self harm,scars...I cry even more and was about to do it when i heard the door open and Alex stared at me scared. Alex dropped his bags and ran over.

"A-Alex!?" 

"W-what are yoy doing? (Y/N)?!" 

He took the knife away from me and threw it across the room,he shook my shoulders and grabbed my face in his hands so i could meet his brown eyes, "I'm s-so sorry! I know i promised you i would never do this but-"

"Don't you dare do anything like that again..that's why i'm here and never left you...remember? You can always count in me in anything..i dont want to lose you too."

Alex let a couple of tears fall and i was fast enough to see he had a few scars as well on his wrists barely visible, he bandaged my arms as i kept apologizing till he kissed my forehed and took out a ring.

"(Y/N) this is a promise ring not a wedding ring..just yet.." wait does he mean that he tends to marry me someday?   He stares into my eyes and i couldnt help but smile just at the sight of him being back.

"I want you to really promise me that you wont self harm ever again..if you feel like then just look at this ring and think of me..i will also use one." I saw him with a similar ring,he took my hand in his and places the ring.

"You'll never be truly alone..thank you for being their for me." He said and placed his hand on my cheek,i melted under his touch and smiled at him.

"Thank you for everything Alex."

I replied and embraced him in a tight hug when he joined me on the couch.I will try to be stronger for you Alex Gaskarth..after all there might be a future for us up ahead.