Chris's pov

I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks as Ricky whispered in my ear. Fuck. I pulled him into my chest more and started towards the stairs. It doesn't  feel like this is really happening. My mind was numb as I walked up the stairs. I made my way over to Ricky's bed and playfully tossed him off of me. I crawled over him and leaned down, hovering over him. His hands slid down my hips and onto my ass. I leaned in and kissed him, causing him to gasp against my mouth as my body crashed into his. I slipped my tongue into his mouth quickly. Ricky slid his hands down the back of my thighs, slipping his dainty fingers onto my inner thighs and lighly rubbed. I moaned as his teeth gripped my lebret piercing. I could feel his boner pressing into me. I slipped my hand into his jeans and started to rub him slowly. He quickly pulled away from me and yelled "SLOPE" I immediately got off of him and sat at the foot of his bed.

"I'm sorry Ricky." I murmured into my hands that were covering my face.
"Chris it's okay. I don't know what came over me that made me do that. I just don't want that to be all this relationship is about. I love you. I really hate my body and I don't want you to see me like that." Ricky said as he reached to put his hand on my shoulder. I stayed silent and I could feel the bed react to him stepping off it.

After Ricky left the room I sat there with my head in my hands, contemplating this relationship. If I didn't bring him upstairs. If he didn't get the piercing. If we didn't go to the mall. If we didn't stay at my house. If i didn't have my license. If I didn't hold him while he slept. If we didn't kiss. If I didn't find him in the bathroom. If I didn't stay at Ryans. If I wasn't such a freak. If I didn't move. If I wasn't born. Maybe then I wouldn't have hurt Ricky. Maybe then I would have a normal relationship. Maybe then I wouldn't be hated. Maybe then I wouldn't be a freak. Maybe then I could be happy. Maybe then this would have never happened.

Sorry for the short shitty chapter. Mamadestroya signing off