——✰——✰——✰ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐏𝐨𝐯

The Shining played on our tv as Robin and I sat on the couch. I looked down seeing we were much closer than I had thought. Our legs were close to touching. It's like we're being pulled close by gravity or some shit.

You know she's really pretty. Like really pretty.

"You're staring," Robin said looking over to me.

"Wha- I'm not," I lied covering it up with an awkward laugh.

"Whatever dingus," she laughed before leaning back on the couch.

I moved my vision back to the tv to watch the movie. I had seen it several times so most the jump scares didn't get me, but they definitely got Robin because she kept jumping. Which made me laugh....a lot.

"Stop laughing!" Robin laughed back at me, but not moving away from me.

"You're the one who keeps getting scared. Scaredy-cat," I teased.

"I'm not scared," she looked at me holding back a smile.

"Mhm sure," I smiled sloppily before looking back towards the tv.

We finished the movie and ended up eating all of the pizza my brother had bought. I mean he left it out and went to bed so it was free rein. I then warmed up leftovers and we both headed upstairs to my room.

"So is it just you and your brother?" Robin asked unexpectedly as we sat down on my bed.

"Uh yeah. Mom died a little bit ago and step dad died last year," I gave a half smile explaining everything.

"Oh- I'm sor-" she tried to say before I cut her off.

"Don't apologize," I laughed slightly, "They -uh- weren't the best people. Well I mean my mom was ok, but my Dad," I said making air quotes around Dad, "he was a piece of shit..." I said trailing off at the end of the sentence.

Robin gave me a look of sympathy which I just gave a closed lip smile back.

"Are you doing ok?" she asked setting her hand on top of mine and looking at me.

"I am now," I smiled looking back at her.

We didn't say anything. We sat in silence but, the comfortable kind not the awkward. I was looking at her and she was looking back at me. One of the best feelings I think I've ever felt. Then the air around us felt thick as if I could barely breath anymore. I hadn't realized how close we had gotten. Her light golden brown was in her face so i took my hand and moved it behind her ear. I kept my hand on her face as we looked at each other. It wasn't like she was looking at the walls I put up but, the person I truly am.

I felt something for the first time in a long time yet I made the dumbass choice to move away and awkwardly laughed. Like what the fuck. Shortly after Robin leaned back on my wall with a laugh leaving her lips. I knew it wasn't a real one because mine wasn't. I'm so fucking dumb I swear.

"I'm gonna go take a shower...." Robin said getting off my bed and grabbing her bag.

"Ok," I told her moving some hair that had fallen in my face behind my ear.

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Did I really think something was going to happen between us? Just because we're both lesbian I thought we'd kiss. I should've known that wasn't gonna happen Charlie likes to mess around so I should've have taken it seriously. But then again she looked serious and awkwardly laughed as she moved away.

So many thoughts raced through my head as the shower was heating up. We almost kissed. Like, shit man. I cant believe that almost happened. Wow. Back in freshman year I had liked Charlie. Well more like from late eight grade to early freshman. I hadn't even talked to her then and I just had a crush. Like how weird is that? We can like someone just based on their appearance and how they come off to people. And once I heard she came out I really thought "Oh this works out perfect we can date" as if she would have interest in me.

I know I'm a cool person for the most part. I'm a little different than others but so is she. I shouldn't even be thinking of her like this. We didn't even like each other a few hours ago. And now Im here at her house. How fucking crazy.

I practically laughed at myself before checking the water to make sure it was warm. I took off my clothes and got into the shower. It was nice. The feeling of water rubbing off all the memories of the day as if they didn't happen. If you drew on your hand with a marker to remember something it disappears. Showers are great for letting you let go of the stress from the day.

I didn't want to take up to much hot water so i rinsed my hair quickly and got out rapping a towel around my body. I then put on the clothes I had brought with me and put the towel around my hair before taking my things and going back to her room.

"About time Ive gotta use the bathroom and didn't wanna go downstairs," she laughed getting up and leaving.

When she left the room I started looking around it, but only with my eyes at first. Her vinyl collection caught my eye so I started walking over there. There was Screaming Trees, Queen, Fleetwood Mac, and a whole lotta other stuff.

"Damn, she has good taste," I said quietly to myself.

"I know," Charlie laughed walking up beside me.

When did she even get in here?

I turned around and was met with her standing not so far in front of me. She was wearing an oversized shirt and her hair was messy. I swear to god she's the most beautiful girl.

"We should probably, you know, go to sleep?" she said looking at the digital clock.

"Oh yeah," I said before walking over to her bed as she did the same. I laid on the left and her on the right. "Night," I said turning on my side facing away from her. I closed my eyes and drifted off into sleep.