A/N: So I'm back with a new chapter. Sorry for making you wait for more than a year. But now here's a new chapter.

I've re-read this fic many times just to feel it again and remembered that I really love Izaya and Shizuo to the point it hurts and I just can't let this fic be abandoned. After all I pour everything just to make it and I hope you appreciate it. Don't worry no matter what I wil going to finish it and will probably edit it because so many typo to the point it hurts my eyes so without further ado

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"Flea. You want to talk with me, right? Then we'll talk." Izaya whipped his head at Shizuo, his mouth were wide agape as his eyes were staring widely at Shizuo. Did he just heard it right? Shizu-chan's willing to talk to him. Izaya wasted no time and answer quickly.

"Yes, Shizu-cha.. Ah, I mean Shizuo." Izaya corrected himself when his nickname for the blond almost slipped from his mouth. He still remember that Shizuo doesn't want to call him that anymore and even though it hurts to not call him Shizu-chan, he will endure it until Shizuo let him. Izaya frown when he remember something. "How about Psyche-chan? It's going late."

"Psyche-kun can come with me. Right, Psyche-kun?" Kyoko offered as she gave her grandson a small smile.

"That's right, Papa." Psyche added. Shizuo frown and look at Kyoko-san but before he could protest, Psyche beat him to it. "Papa, It's fine. You don't need to worry and besides Daddy and you need to talk right? I'm fine with Grandma." Psyche said with a smile.

"It's alright, Psyche-chan." Izaya pipe in then turn to look at Shizuo. "Don't push yourself, Shizuo. We can talk later when it's not an inconvenience anymore." He said with a slight sadness on his voice. Shizuo frown when he heard what Izaya said.

"Why are you making this hard for the both of us?" Shizuo questioned in a slight anger in his voice, making Izaya flinched. "I'm giving you what you want." He let out a defeated sigh when Izaya doesn't even counter him as he just stared in the ground. "I just wanted to know the truth. Is it too hard to ask? Damn it!" Shizuo cursed as he shoved his tinted sunglasses up to press his palm on his eyes as felt the familiar burning feeling starting up as his only answer is silence, no one dared to speak. Bit by bit he was feeling enough. Enough of this, he doesn't want to talk to Izaya anymore, doesn't want to know the truth. He was tired. And when he decided to voice this Izaya broke the silence.

"You're right. I'm sorry Shizuo." Izaya apologized and turn to his mother. "We're leaving Psyche-chan to you, Mom. Please take care of him." With that he dragged Shizuo away from them. He could hear Psyche's voice bidding them goodbye. He chuckled inwardly before his face turn serious again. His mind thought back at what Shizuo said on how he practically giving him a chance to talk with him. When Izaya heard the defeated tone from Shizuo, he knows that this will be his last chance to fix everything and if he let it slipped away he will going to regret it for the rest of his life.

"Oi, Izaya where are you dragging me?" Shizuo's annoyed voice cut him off on his train of thoughts. He stopped in his track and look at Shizuo sheepishly.

"Now that you mention it, My place is a no go now that my mom is here." Izaya said ducking his head. Shizuo said almost annoyed.

"Fine, my place then." Shizuo growled as he swat Izaya's grip to walk ahead.

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The two arrived at Shizuo's place. Upon opening the door Izaya immediately scan the room where his son and Shizuo lives, seeing how homey it was, Izaya could imagine the two having breakfast at their dining table, watching some cartoons on their living room and sleeping together in their bed and he couldn't help but feel disheartened at the fact that he didn't become part of their routine but he didn't let that feeling affect him because he will going to fix it now. Talking to his son made him realize how stupid he was for making such decision. He hurt many people, his family, his friend, especially his son and Shizuo. Now that Shizuo presented him a chance he will not going to waste it anymore. He will tell everything to Shizuo. Everything.

"Here, have a tea." Shizuo said, placing down the cup of tea in front of Izaya and taking a seat beside Izaya in their living room.

Silence reign in the room as Shizuo watch Izaya fidget in his place, nervous and his eyes darting everywhere aside from him.

And for the first time since Izaya came back, Shizuo looks at Izaya properly. His heart clench at the sight. The man he knows ten years ago is now looks different. The once healthy looking body replace by a thin and frail body as if by one touch it could break, his cheeks are hollow and the shine from his rusty red eyes are no longer there even his skin are paler than his usual skin tone.

Why didn't he notice it back then? That there's something wrong on his lover, -ex lover now Why didn't he trust Izaya back then? Why did he let his judgement be clouded that time. He loves Izaya dearly but why? But why did he let his stubbornness be the better of him. Why did he already assumed that Izaya's only playing with him Why? Why? Why?

What happened to him 10 years ago? He wants to know. He wants to make it right. H..he. He wants Izaya back in his life again. Dammit!

"Shizu-chan?" Izaya called to Shizuo as he place his hand on top of Shizuo's clench hand. Shizuo looks up, he didn't notice that he looked down as well as the tight grip he had on both of his hand. Izaya let go of Shizuo's hand immidiately.

"I mean Shizuo, sorry. Are you alright?" Izaya asked worriedly as he noticed Shizuo got quiet all of a sudden.

He's so nervous. He didn't know what to tell first, where to start. Scared of what will be Shizuo-chan's reaction very scared that his mind went blank. He was fidgeting on his seat, wringing his finger out of nervousness and there's the familiar constructing feeling on his chest.

No. No Izaya. Calm down. Deep breaths. Don't let this chance slip up. Don't let yourself screw up again and lost Shizuo and your son forever.

Izaya took a deep breath, calming his self then turn to Shizuo, noticing that the blond is looking down and gripping his hand tightly making his knuckles go white. Izaya got worried and called for the blond as he stretch his hand to place it on top of Shizuo's hand.

"Shizu-chan?" He winced at his slip up. He's not suppose to call him on that nickname until he is forgiven. He flinched and retracts his hand when Shizuo looks up.

"I mean Shizuo, sorry. Are you alright?" He asked again. Izaya frowned when Shizuo reached for his retreating hand.

Shizuo only stares straightly at Izaya. He wants to know everything. Shizuo open his mouth and finally let out the question his mind keep asking.

"What happened 10 years ago, Izaya?" He finally asked.

And done 2 more chapter to go I guess. I know it's short but next chapter will be the revelation and so so hehe.

So here's a question. Who wants a 2nd installation where Psyche and Tsugaru is the focus?