A request from the wonderful AJLover123! Hope you like, ma friend!
Song:

WARNING: SUICIDE, ALCOHOL ADDICTION, ANGST

If you tell me to jump then I'll die
In my dreams I'm there
I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly
In my dreams I'm there

Tony Stark. Billionaire. Genius. Playboy. Freaking Iron Man. The most beautiful, sweet, perfect girlfriend ever. He was on top of the world. And yet- he still had issues.  Drinking problems. Issues with commitment in his relationship with Y/N. Every time, she forgave him.

She truly loved him.

And he loved her, but his feelings swayed to and fro. He was a willow in the storm. Bending back and forth, swaying, easy-going- but also unfaithful, flimsy, sharp edges.

You can tie my hands to the walls
But you can't tie my dreams to this place
I might fall like a rock from your heart
But you won't see me fall from grace

Tony had big dreams. A genius inventor that had millions and billions of dollars in his bank account. Most of those dreams reached reality. Some did not. He wished, every day.

He wished for his drinking problem to end. He didn't want to be an alcoholic. He wanted to stay clean for Y/N.

He wished for his heart to stay fixed and loyal to Y/N. To have the bravery to stay away from other women. To keep that look of sadness and betrayal off Y/N's face every time she caught him.

Most of all, he wished for Y/N to leave him. As much as it would hurt him, he wished for her to find another man. One who would love her unconditionally, who didn't have the problems Tony did.

Fate always loses hope
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hope
Now be a good girl and do what you're told

So he told her to leave. One morning, she was watching the sunrise on the balcony. It was a week after she'd caught him in bed with another woman. Y/N had forgiven him the next day, as she always did. But that evening, she'd seemed sadder, more distant from him, like she had given up on hoping he'd finally stay loyal to her.

If you tell me to jump then I'll die
In my dreams I'm there
I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly
In my dreams I'm there

Y/N was shocked. She begged for him to rethink it. He said, again, she needed to leave. He said it was all his fault. He said she was too perfect for him, she needed to leave so she could be happy.

And he said he was sorry.

So, so sorry.

So Y/N left, in tears and pleading for him to change his mind. She said she loved him over and over, but Tony blocked out the pain in his heart and nearly pushed her out the door. When she was long gone, Tony went to his office. He stared at the gun hidden away in a small compartment in the wall.

And a single tear fell from his eye.

He had lost so much. Friends, family. He had nightmares of them disappearing, especially Peter. The kid was so young. They'd failed to stop that epitomy of evil from killing half the universe. And Peter had faded to ash in Tony's arms. The kid had been like a son to the superhero-

Hero. That's one thing Tony knew he wasn't.

He'd made too many mistakes to be a hero. Too many deaths, too much destruction, too much hurt.

Fate always loses hope
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hope
Now be a good girl and do what you're told

They found him a week later. Laying face up on the carpet stained with blood. He had a serene smile on his face, a gun clutched loosely in his right hand. There was a note beside him, explaining why he'd killed himself. Y/N was devastated. She retreated into herself, like a turtle into it's shell, never coming out into the sun again for the rest of her life. She read the suicide note for the first time on the first anniversary of his death.

"I hope you remember me.
I hope you never pretend for me.
I hope you remember me.
I hope you...

Fate always loses hope.
Like electric sparks in my heart.
Fate always loses hope."

Y/N read those lines and cried.

She cried tears of grief, heartbreak, sorrow...

And tears of love.