Woop woop it is that time of the.... uh.... art-style development again!!

Essentially I'm just saying that my artstyle has developed/changed enough again, so my profile picture doesn't represent it anymore!

Some of you probably still know my persona/mascott Emmett, right? It all started off with me drawing this pic here as a profile picture last August.
It bore as a failed attempt at a self portrait, ending up creating a "genderbend" of myself, without glasses.

Beginning of this year, I then decided to redraw the thing in my more current style, simply because I couldn't see the old one anymore haha. It still is hella adotable and I do still like it, it just no longer represented my art or style anymore, which is why I felt the urge to move on.

And now... well, my style in itself didn't even change that much. I just grew more confident in my stylized proportions, and thus find it a lot easier to draw halfbodies, expressions and more expressive poses.
The largest change from the new to the old profile picture, probably would need to be my shading style. In April I tried cell-shading once, and never returned to soft-shading ever since >w<"

So I essentially kept the entire lineart the same, except the face, where I tweeked eyes and nose to resemble my present way of drawing them a bit more, also made the eyebrows more readable and changing the mouth to a more sarcastic smile :D

Since I recently cut my hair short and I try my hardest for Emmett to resemble me on a factual base, I decided to also give him short hair ^-^

So yeah... here's the final new thing!

And.... uh... yeah. Not done quite yet, haha!

Since it's june and june is pride month, I remembered this profilepicture I made last year around, to celebrate my identity as aromantic:

So when I remembered that thing, I couldn't help, but slap my respective flags behind the new portrait >w<

... okay so this might be some boring personal chit chat coming here, so if you're just here for the pic with flags, just scroll down until that comes along haha....

I find it incredible how my self-perception, identity and art developed since last year. Whenever I redraw things from the time, or compare pieces, the improvement and growing confidence is incredible.

Especially when I look back to myself a year ago... dang, I was a depressed little "girl" starting his way of finding himself, through discovering that being aromantic was a thing. I can see very clearly how I still was super shy, lacked all confidence, and just started to come out of my protective shell after changing schools and being in a way more accepting and friendly environment.
And look at me now! I mean... I still am depressed, but I am going to therapy now and medication is helping me deal with the struggles of life a lot more. I also figured out that I'm not only aromantic, but also asexual.... and whilst I do hate it to some degree and still struggle a lot with coming to terms with the fact, that I simply will never love a person in the romantic sense or feel attracted to someone (even though I'm thinking that I may be demisexual, but pfft... labels are overrated anyways), it is nice to know that nothing is wrong with me, and that it is totally okay to be myself. And similarily did my journey of gender discoverment come along.
Some of you who've been around for a longer time, know that I did indeed "identify" as a girl and used the she/her pronouns for my entire life.
Figuring out that I am a man and actually admitting to these feelings, definetely was a huge step in my self perception and development, as well as coming out to my friends and finally feeling the happiness of feeling like "me" and not as though I were just some person playling pretend and lying to everyone.... it's just incredible.

Anyways.... a lot of rambling, but I am confident in saying, that whilst life still sucks a lot, and whilst I still struggle, I am definetely on a way of getting better, getting help and stopping to be something I'm not, for the sake of literally noone.

And since it's pride, I just wanted to share this little snippet of my personal life and tell you, to just be yourself. You should love yourself for who you are... and even if it can be really hard at times, it simply isn't worth throwing your life away and playing pretend for society, because in the end you only have one life and you're the only one who will get to live it :)
Trusting your feelings and admitting to yourself that you may be different to what you thought you were, is really scary and it is a huge step, but it is definetely worth it in the end.

Feel cuddled my kiddos, and remember that yall are loved and valid x3

>>gives you rainbow-coloured ice cream, whilst patting you fatherly on the head<<

That's all I got for now, so farewell! Hope ya stick around for another chapter and join my on my little art journey >w<