Toronto city~9:00 pm 

 Alex's pov 

 My heart cant take it anymore ever since i cheated on Patrick ive been depressed miserable in my apartment back in Chicago and i decided to live a few months here in Toronto with one of my cousins she doesnt spend a lot here which makes it even better so she wont see me cry i havent told her what happened to me and i expect it to stay that way. 

 I tried calling Patrick everyday but he never answered my calls and it really breaks my heart since its been a year now since i saw him.Brendan always keep on checking me to see how im going,Hayley also she's been a great friend but right now i havent seen her or the boys since they are making a new record and well Fall Out Boy nothing from them seems like they arent getting back huh?.i laid down in my bed the blankets on top of me keeping me warm. 

but it doesnt feel the same you know being with Patrick here by my side and to think that i spent all these years trying to get his attention and he did the same but it was me who broke that trust we had and i really really regret that.I never really heard of Gabe again nor his band and i really dont care about it right now. 

 I started crying even more as i looked through my phone and saw every picture Patrick and i took together from the old pictures of 2003 to this year 2011.and i just cant live like this with this pain knowing that you dont have that special person with you anymore and that your the one responsible for losing them...i hate waking up every single day without him or even knowing what he's doing,apparently my mom heard about the news and she was furious telling me 'i told you this might happen' and from that she hasnt spoken to me.no one has been there for me when i need them and it really makes me sick. I just wish for this pain to end soon and if it doesnt then that means that theres another choice to end it.

(Hey everyone again sorry for another short chapter but i promise ill try and make the next one longer and someones also gonna be in it.please vote and comment to know what else will come)