For once In my life..I feel..happy..happy for having..friends..it's been a good month now, and the girl I like talks to me. And I've made another great friend named Sarah , i finally know what the word best friend means..like there's finally hope for me..we tell each other everything..but earlier today..was the worst day of my life..why did I have to lie..it was just a mistake.. Ok..here's what happened..long story short..she figured out I liked her..and because I lied for so long...because I was crying and begging..she started to call me names..than I started calling her names..I could tell we both didn't mean it..but she won't forgive me..of course I still miss out friendship..but even if we become friends again..it wouldn't be the same...I couldn't move on from the fact I lost my very closest friend..I thought my life was over..so I wanted to end it..but my friend..Mars..she helped me..she stopped me from ending my life that I thought had no meaning, but she thought my life meant something..and that made me happy..so I think as long as she's in my life..i won't be dead..

(P.s.     I don't like Mars, she is my CLOSEST friend that I couldn't bare to lose, she's more of a sister..to me atleast, and if you are wondering, yes this is my real life, so that makes it more interesting..right?)