I am awake yet I pretend to be asleep
I am praying yet I feel so empty
I am there yet I'm not
I am alive yet I'm only breathing
Nothing seems to be wrong yet nothing seems to be right
I want to make things better yet I don't know what's wrong
Maybe I'm just sitting here waiting for death
Or maybe I want to live
I really don't know
Why do I feel so lost?
When will it get better?
Or will it always stay the same?
This darkness is so soothing yet it's killing me
I wonder if the Sun, my Sun will ever rise again
But I'm waiting
I'm waiting
I don't know if the spring day will ever come
But I'm waiting
I'm waiting
I'll wait till my last breath
Yet I don't know if things will ever get better
I'm trying
I'm trying I promise
I am