Worth The Pain & Wait:

I noticed that he wouldn't change, but by the time I had left him his cold heart had already corrupted my brain, he had already caused me enough pain, Then one day I let my tears fall like rain, I didn't really know how to cope with my feelings, I'd lay on my bed for hours staring at the ceiling and no I couldn't sleep, my weight was up and down I didn't eat, I had lost my voice I didn't speak, no train of thought I couldn't think, was so blinded by love I couldn't see, I was so clueless to the fact that it was never meant to be you and me, but in the beginning we were connecting it was like magic, then one day u suddenly changed and I didn't know what happened, you started to act different in your every action, you started getting mad at every little thing I do, the way I walk, talk and even how I act too, it was like you suddenly didn't love me anymore, so you packed all your bags and walked right out that door, I was sad, broken, lonely and confused, then you came back months later coming to me like you had sum to prove, telling me that you know that I'm nothing without you, you cussed me out in front of your weak crew, and it hurt that deep down inside all your friends knew that you were just playing me, they all knew that you kept coming back for that one thing
we were on and off like a light, and I thought each time you would get right so yea I was fooled to tell the truth, but the real fool was you, you let a beautiful women go waste, you let a wonderful love slip away, you let a nice, sweet girl decay, when all you had to do was quit playing games, but you missed you chance with a good women, I hate the person that I'm becoming, because for some reason I'm still stressing, and although your gone now the memories are still here, and every time I try to forget you I cry tears of pain while I sit on my window pane, wishing that I had never fallen in love with somebody like you, you broke my heart into two, you manipulated my mind and used and abused it, they say all I have to do is forgive and forget, but no matter how hard I try to love someone else, you took that advantage away from me and now I can barely even love myself, but I'm getting right on my health and I'm making progress, and the more and more I realize that I'm better off without you the lower the stress, so the next time you come back, I'll have a bat ready to attack but then I'll look in your eyes and realize that the love I had for you held on the inside never died, so I'll let you back in, knowing that you'll probably just break my heart again, if you could love me back then that would be great, so yea you can say that I'm the idiot that waits on her mistakes but plot twist, I've got him trapped in, because I'm pregnant, and the kid is his, and after I told him I noticed a slight change, it's the change I've been wanting in the first place, it's like his mind, heart, and soul was all rearranged and he was finally the guy I dreamed of, now all that I receive out of him is real love, now that we are fine and I'm ok, I can utterly say you were worth the wait...