someone asks me if im okay
when was i ever okay
the dark clouds that are so beautifully textured feels like death and thats the only thing i can relate to anymore
the feeling of invalidation haunts me and i choke up every time i try to actually reach out and help myself
it doesn't work. it never works.
i have always been succumbed to silence
which makes me unable to say correctly what i truly mean
who am i
my safety comes first, but ive never had respect
i am safe. they cant hurt me.
but i can hurt me. they would all be a secondhand murderer if i decide a terrible fate for myself so early
why am i talking about my early and possible fate? didnt you know that death is a synonym for end and "fate"
why are they secondhand muderers? they dont respect me as a person
i already told them to give up. because it hurts when they actually try. they had their chances.
they would never know how i think and theres so much here from my perspective that would be lost in time, but its lost in time anyway.
when i think of going over what i really mean the sigh comes back naturally because a human sigh acts as a reset button
im so fucking numb and i dont care
i want to run away from these strange feelings, i havent felt feelings before
i want to run
away
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