I become a different person when I'm stressed or frustrated. I can't handle it very well and those around me suffer. I don't know why I can't just handle it, that being said I really don't have a solution for this chapter. Currently I'm taking an online class, basically I have to do an entire years worth of work in a fraction of the time. Yeah so that builds huge amounts of stress. I also don't like it when people point things out. Or more accurately when my parents point things out. I'm sure we've all been there when we want our parents to get off our backs. Yeah well I've tried to hint out that I want them to lay up a little bit. Totally didn't catch on, so maybe I should just tell them. They made a promise a little whiles ago they lay up on the pressure, yeah well this class has brought the pressure back. I hate it so much, I just want to scream and cry. BUT I CAN'T, I need to work through this and get it though my brain I need to work harder and this will eventually go away. Not only that but I'll be done with this class for ever. I just gotta endure it and try not to make the people around me suffer. So far I've had a plate full of problems I need to fix for the summer. Yay... I feel so much more flawed than others. My parents are stressed and are trying to push me to do better which is making me even more stressed. It's a hard test of strength and maturity to try and not blow up in their faces. However I think I've failed that test many times. I just can't seem to calm down, I tried everything. From listening to music to trying to discuss why I'm so stressed. Nothing is calming me down and it's getting worse. I know that taking breaks helps a lot but I tend to procrastinate. It's almost as if I know what my problems are I'm just searching for answers on how to deal with them. Kind of flips the title of the story over on it's head. I also know running helps to take stress off, you know that whole exercise clears you mind thing. Here's something people tend to forget, I'm a teenager I have the right to have emotional breakdowns some times. If I keep it bottled inside, things just go south. I write and draw out my feelings I suck at talking with other people. Social issues I guess. Anyway I encourage you to comment below and tell me how do you deal with stress and relieving you feelings.

Until next time (hope there isn't one though)