day 5
technically day 6

12:15 am

justin lay in bed, holding his hands over his eyes. what the fuck. what the shit. he rolled over onto his side to check the time, letting out a heavy grunt. "of course," he mumbled, closing his eyes again. go to sleep. go the fuck to sleep. he'd been tossing and turning for fifteen minutes now, with absolutely no luck of going to sleep.

and no luck of getting the bleach blonde haired boy out of his head.

he kicked his covers off of his feet, sweat starting to build above his upper lip. dear fucking god, please stop. he chewed on his bottom lip, his insides twisting.

alex was something else. something good. interesting, funny, fucking intoxicating. he was starting to get to justin in more ways than he should. there was only one way justin knew to stop it, and that was to cut ties with him.

but he couldn't fucking do it.

justin fucked a girl once. this made him feel nearly as bad as that did, which was horrible. he thought to himself, maybe my hormones are just fucked up. but after that night in sophmore year, at the party thrown by that one incredibly douchey senior, justin knew that he had zero interest in girls.

and he still hasn't told a single person.

he squeezed his eyes shut, tears welling slowly. he couldn't stop thinking about it. what it would be like to hold him. kiss him. he was even starting to notice the small things. like how he would tap his finger at his knee to a specific rhythm, or how he would roll his eyes nearly every time the annoying kid behind him in class spoke.

it'd only been a little over a week and justin was already madly falling for alex. gut wrenching, heart racing type falling. because alex was different and he knew it. it sounded so cliché, in fact, the thought made justin a bit sick. but this boy was genuinely funny, open minded, and he didn't give a fuck about what anyone else had to say. he was nice, yet somehow strangely intimidating. and justin couldn't get him out of his fucking head.

so he stayed up until three that morning, dreading the next day to come; because he knew he'd have to face the boy. and everytime he sees him, he grows more and more attracted to him.

which was something that scared the living shit out of justin.