Saying goodbye to someone you love, is truly the hardest thing you'll ever have to face in your life. Nothing ever prepares you for it. And no words can make it all better. That's how I was feeling at this moment. And as my eyes were closed, completely shadowed in darkness, feeling as if I was swaying to the rhythm of my sounds music, I slowly opened my eyes to see water all around me, the light emanating from below startling me half to death.

I looked around and saw no one underwater with me and panic set in as I practically jumped to the surface, taking in the worlds biggest breath upon resurfacing. I looked all around to see that I was still on Cotchford grounds. But everything looked so.... different.

Like it hadn't been touched in years. Like the first time Olivia and I had shown up here the day it all began. The day I met Brian for the first time. My eyes went wide as I made my way out of the pool, looking all around the yard and didn't exactly know how to handle it.

What is happening now...? And as I felt my heart beat making soft music in the silent air, Olivia suddenly appeared from within the pool, scaring me so bad I about fell right back in from the sudden sight of her.

"Liv! Oh my gosh, what is going on??" I grabbed her hands as I helped her from the pool, her scared eyes searching mine, feeling just as confused as she looked.

"I don't know! I was at the house. And I remember dozing off. I remember our conversation before hand about Brian and what happened. And then... I awoke in the pool!" So it's not just me.... I'm not dreaming. This is real. Did we.... come back to our time? Was it really over? That thought alone made me feel terrible in the pit of my stomach.

Brian was truly gone. And there was no way I could have ever saved him. I did everything I could think of to actually make it happen. But nothing worked. It's like time didn't want me to change the events that happened. And I didn't want to accept it.

Brian meant everything to me. I didn't want to let him go. I didn't want him to think I didn't care like the rest made him feel. I wanted to do something right by him by giving him the chance he so rightfully deserved.

And I failed. I failed him so badly. And the letter he left me. He knew all along that I was there for him in key moments of his life. Even when I didn't know it, I was. It's so magical to even think about the things that have happened here that I never thought was scientifically possible.

Time travel. And I did some extreme time travel. I went to so many different points in Brian's life and it can't be explained. This pool is like a portal to his world. But am I back because I did something right? I'll never know I feel.

Olivia gazed at me with her big green doe eyes, seeming to read my mind as she threw her arms around me, our arms tightening around each other. Olivia and I lost so much of our connection in those times. And I hate that. She's my best friend and I never meant for that to happen with us.

And then I remembered.... she was pregnant! And as I looked down at her stomach, the bump was gone. And my heart felt horrible for her. But I just knew it wouldn't matter. Once we came back, it wouldn't work. The baby would be gone.

But Olivia seemed relieved from the sight. Like it was all just a dream. Maybe that's for the best. It's not the poor babies fault. But she would be alone in this much later time with some assholes baby. Although I would have helped her. But I know it would have been so hard on her.

"Liv.... was it all just a dream?" She eyed me with a little smile, suddenly laughing from most likely all the memories. And I just knew it couldn't be a dream.

"No way! Everything that happened felt too real. I know it sounds nuts. But we both were there. Here! At this house. And we talked to everyone. Brian was clear as day and Mary. And..... and Frank and Tom. The rest of the idiots."

I simply laughed, feeling a little better since resurfacing here. And as I looked over the house lit up in the halo like light from the moon shining brightly down on it like always, I smiled warmly up at this house that meant so much to me. That brought so many good memories for me to cherish for the rest of my life.

And I just knew I always would keep them right in my heart. I knew it was over. And i'd never go back. But just the memories could keep me happy for a lifetime.

"It'll be okay Jules.... Brian will always be in your heart. I know you love him. And he really loved you. I could tell. Just from the way he looked at you. I think it was fate that I brought you here. I swear I never knew that would happen though!" I grinned as I hugged her to me again, leaving a slight kiss on her forehead in thanks, feeling okay for once. I miss Brian so much and just wish he could be here with us. But I feel like he knows we're okay. And that I did everything I could. It's like I blacked out when the time came. Like that was going to happen all along.

I hate it so much. But I feel like it would have played out that way no matter what i did. And as we slowly moved from the pool side and strolled through the back yard, I looked over everything, good memories coming to my vision as I saw a smiling Brian running around with Luther close behind, Brian's happy smile lighting up everything in sight. I saw us dancing in the night air with the sounds of our breaths the melody, his soft lips landing on mine the most amazing feeling.

And I just remember everything he made me feel. Us running around the yard, taking random pictures and lounging around on the sundial and crossing the bridge to make goofy faces down into the water. His golden hair just laying perfectly on his shoulders, his smile looking right back at me with so much happiness it melted my heart.

His laugh. Oh his laugh was music to my ears. And his music! His nightly melody ringing through the beautiful air as I sat on my windowsill, looking down at him with the worlds biggest smile on my face. Just all these amazing memories coming to the surface made me stop in my tracks, my heart going a mile a minute. And then it finally hit me. My tears sprung out and I felt utter pain in my heart, like it was ripped away. I fell to the ground and practically drug Olivia with me, hearing her worried gasp fill my ears from scaring her to death.

"Jules!" And I just looked down at the ground upon her wrapping her arms around me, my sobs now filling the air that once held Brian's beautiful voice. His laughter. His everything. I couldn't believe it... he was really gone.

"Jules.... love...." My head jerked up from the voice ringing out behind me, turning to see Brian standing there in the sudden light of the yard, practically glowing in the moon light like an angel, his golden hair like the perfect halo, wearing a beautiful robe only he could make work.

Olivia looked wide eyed at me, than Brian, seeming so confused. Then she urged me to go to him as she watched in wonder from the sight we're seeing. And I practically ran to him as I threw my arms around him, not wanting to ever let go.

"I'm okay love.... I promise you. It's all okay. You did save me. You showed me love. You showed me what I'm worth. And you showed me just how life could have been. And that's okay. You may not have been able to change what happened. But in a way, you did. You made my remaining days beautiful. So yes Jules, you saved me." My eyes grew wide as I slowly pulled back to look at his oh so handsome face, his blue eyes shining brightly down at me, his handsome smile glowing, making my heart thump like the first time. And it was the most amazing feeling.

He looked like the most amazing angel. And I kissed him. The most passionate kiss I've ever given in my life. And will ever give. I never wanted to break away. And as we stood there, our lips sealed together, it felt like we were floating on a cloud from how right it felt. And as we pulled away, I softly touched his cold cheek, running my thumb gently against it, little tears escaping my eyes as he gently wiped them away, his cute little smile shining through.

"I love you so much Brian...." He grinned so big like a little kid that I couldn't help but laugh, feeling light as air.

"I love you too Jules. Don't forget me...." And with that, he was gone. His laughter filling the air around me as my hand fell softly to my side, still feeling his lips against mine, the sensation captured forever in my mind. I slowly turned to Olivia to see tears running down her cheeks, making me slightly smile.

"It's okay Liv..." And as I walked back to her and slung my arm around her shoulder, we slowly made our way down the trail that Brian and I once hid from the world so no one could find us, making our way to the front, seeing Brian and I zooming off on his scooter that we did so many times. And I simply smiled.

And as we made our way up the drive and to Olivia's still parked car along the outside road that seemed like we hadn't been gone long at all, I let Olivia go ahead and get in, while I stayed behind, looking up at Cotchford. At my home for a while.

And I suddenly saw Brian from the upstairs window. His bedroom. And he smiled down at me with his boyish charm shining through, waving at me with a wink, making me wave right back, blowing a big kiss to him, seeing him catching it to his heart. And I started to cry once he disappeared again, knowing full well that this was it. And as I walked to Olivia's car, getting in and looked to her with a nod and a smile, we rode away into the now rising sun of Sussex.

I looked in the rear view mirror, seeing the beautiful home slowly disappearing from sight as we drove past the amazing places Brian and I used to come to when we would shop and eat. And just have so much fun. And I simply smiled. We had so many good times. I'll never forget this. I may be in a different time. But it feels like my heart stayed there with Brian. And that was okay. He gave me the best time of my life. Tigger sure will miss her Pooh Bear. Forever and always. 

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And that is a wrap guys! I really do hope you enjoyed the story! I absolutely loved writing this so much and it means everything to me. Brian Jones was such an amazing guy and I loved writing about him. It was hard to write just thinking about everything.

But I absolutely loved the experience. And hope you guys did also! Thank you again so much. And who knows... maybe in the future I'll do more. I love you guys. 😘