Lance laid in bed with his hand over his mouth. Ryan kissed him. He kissed him. It was real. It was...

He giggled to himself feeling like a little kid getting excited over something silly, he hugged his pillow as he turned on his side as he buried his nose in the pillow. For being so afraid of admitting he liked guys, he loved the way Ryan kissed him.

"Fuck," lance whispered in the pillow as he closed his eyes. He hoped Ryan didn't regret it.

-

"We kissed,"

"You and lance kissed?" Rizavi's jaw dropped.

Kinkade nodded slowly blushing just as much as he was the night before. He couldn't stop smiling, it was scaring his team before he told them.

"How was it? Tell me everything!" Rizavi squealed as Griffin was still in shock.

He was silent.

"He's a really good kisser," ryan whispered.

"Ahhh I knew it!" She screamed.

"Ok did you kiss him or he kiss you?" Griffin wiggled intrigued.

"I kissed him," he kept his voice quiet.

"Was it gentle and cute?" Ida asked softly.

"Uhhh yes but no... I kind of grabbed him and did it, I just kissed him and it was really really nice," kinkade rubbed the back of his neck smiling softly.

"So now you're finally dating, good," Griffin nodded proudly.

"Aha no, we're not," he shook his head.

"Nooo why?!" Rizavi whined.

"I don't know, we didn't talk about it," he mumbled.

"To much tongue in your mouth?" Ida shrugged.

Ryan yelled into the pillow to muffle his screams.

—

"Good morning guys," lance smiled getting out of the shower as he wore a garrison loose tee shirt with a towel on his head to cover the wet hair.

"Your loud," Pidge glared from her bunk woth her blanket covering her body.

"You need to get up," he smiled.

"Allura and hunk are gone, left when I was in the shower," he told her as he grabbed his phone. No texts.

"Oh speaking of which, you should talk to Allura," they yawned rubbing her eyes.

"Why?" Lance raised a brow.

"She's been acting weird, eh she'll explain it to you," they snuggled back under the covers tiredly. 

"Sure I'll talk to her," he agreed as he grabbed his shoes to leave the room.

Lance opened the door but gasped when he almost crashed into someone and stumbled to the side.

"Careful there," Ryan chuckled as lance laughed a little looking at him.

"Waiting for me or something?" Lance stabilized himself

"Yea actually," Ryan gulped rubbing the back of his head.

"So uh last night, I-I'm sorry about just kind of... grabbing you like that," he inhaled a shaky breath.

"Do you regret it?" Lance asked confused.

"No! No no no, it was amazing, your so amazing," he waved his hands frantically and relief lifted off lances shoulders.

"Good, I dont regret it either," the Cuban nodded.

"It's just, you said you didn't want to come out yet, so does that mean you don't want to be in a relationship then?" Ryan gulped.

"You want to be in a relationship?" Lance smiled a little.

"I mean eventually. I really really like you Lance, everything about you, and kissing you I felt... I've never felt that happy," Ryan took one of lances hands in his own.

"Aw you had a crush?" Lance giggled. He blushed and nodded.

"How could I not?" He leaned forward making lance smile a little.

Lance looked at him softly, Ryan couldn't get over the way he looked at him. It felt special. It felt real.

"I really like you too, but I don't know if we should be in a relationship, it's not fair to you if we have to hide, I'm not ashamed of being with you," lance gripped his hand back.

"Then why hide?" Ryan whispered holding his cheek gently.

"After the war, once we defeat the galra, we'll tell everyone, my parents, our teams, everyone," lance leaned into his touch.

"So then what are we now? Do we just not... talk about this again?" He frowned a little.

"Well what do you wanna do? We could still see each other and all," lance pursed his lips a little.

"I really want to kiss you again, but I don't want either of us kissing anyone else, maybe something like boyfriends but as a secret?" Ryan pulled him closer.

"That's not fair to you," Lance gulped. "Im the one that's to scared to tell,"

"But I'm the one that kissed you, hiding us will be easy," Ryan chuckled as he brushed his thumb against lances lips like the night before.

"Kinda seems fun," he whispered. Lance burst out laughing.

"Who knew you'd be so scandalous Ryan kinkade? Fine, happily I'll be a secret with you, not much would change anyways right?" Lance wrapped his arms around Ryan's shoulders.

"I did like how it was before, but now I'm not so nervous, I'm comfortable," Ryan held his waist with a smile.

"We're really going to do this?" Lance whispered looking into his eyes.

"I really hope so, yea," he smiled before leaning down to kiss him again, lance smiled into the kiss and pushed back.

"We're going to get caught so fast," lance laughed pushing off of him.

"I also might've told my team that we kissed," Ryan waved walking backwards away from him.

"What?" Lance looked at him wide eyes.

"At least that we kissed yea, sorry," he nodded. "Bye!"

"Oh my god Ryan what?!"