Hey its Sylvy here. Wow its been months. Hehe maybe a year I don't know. Anyways not the point. Today I'm just gonna tell u recent events in my life. I've been stressed out since like  summer for my new school. If you live in New York I'm guessing you know what specialized schools are??? Doesn't ring a bell? Well how about Stuyvesant and Bronx Science? Still don't ring a bell welp I'm just gonna explains the whole thing.

There are 8 specialized schools well technically 9 but I'm not a person of arts so I won't talk about number 9. Those 8 schools are Stuyvesant, Bronx Science, Brooklyn Technical High School, Brooklyn Latin School, Science and Engineering at City College of New York, High School of American Studies at Lehman College, Queens High School for the Sciences at York College. And to get into a specialized high school you have to take a test in the beginning of 8th grade. And on that test there is math from high school that you are expected to know, and  for ELA you need to know grammar and high level comprehension. So if you go to one of these high schools. All of NY considers you a child prodigy.

So let me tell you about 7th grade me. Well you met here I think. But anyways I was a 85-95's student. I wasn't the smartest ,but I wasn't the dumbest. I was like 2nd smartest in my grade. Only thing that messed me up was my social studies teacher. And  I will always hold that grudge. -_- Not the point though. I wanted to go to Bronx Science because I want to be a veterinarian. And veterinarian have to know Science well right??? So I was like I'm gonna go here. Than my friend said oh you have to take a test to go there. I didn't take her seriously until I was invited to the DREAM program. A program that offers free classes to prepare kids for this test called Specialized High School Admission Test or SHSAT. And I found out that I was screwed. I didn't know anything ,but the teachers were really nice and knew what they were doing. So I learned. I went with the same friend who told me you had to take a test to go there. And guess what she was the smartest in our grade. And well I kind of always had this grudge something I disliked about her ,but couldn't put my finger on it. And what is was is this. She's smarter. It's petty I know that. Originally I didn't care ,but my mom did. I hated being compared to others. I absolutely H A T E it. I told my mother time and time again ,but no. She always pointed out that my friend was smarter and my mom didn't do it to be like oh you need to be smarter. She tried using it to encourage me. And all it did was make me dislike my friend and I didn't feel like hanging out with her. And to be honest she was unaffected mostly because she was besties with the third smartest. Those two were inseparable.  So I just focused on my other friends. So now we're going to this program and stuff. We go to it during our school days and weekends to learn all of this stuff we need to master. Which made it more awkward for me and for her. Because it was just us two. Sadly when we were split up into our classes she was in mine. I hated it and loved it. And you already know why. So every time we took a test we would compare scores. And I always had a higher grade than her. I was satisfied to be honest and I know I shouldn't have been. The last test though I got the lowest grade this time. And I was so frustrated. Not because she got a higher grade well a bit of that ,but also because if I do this bad I can't even hope to get into a specialized high school. Than came the actual test. And I took it on Saturday with my one of my best friends. I didn't finish the test. 4 questions left blank. And there are 114 questions and 3 hours to do them. Ela wasn't that hard but way better than the math. Math is my mortal enemy. Nether the less the other friend one I dislike starts blowing up my phone calling asking me what was on the test so she could know what to study. Now if you ask me I think doing that is unfair to the person who just took it. Like I didn't know what was on the test why should you? But I didn't want to be rude so I just told her vague parts and that I didn't remember. Which I'm not going to lie was true. I was brain dead along with my best friend. We could barely think straight. That's how hard it was for us. It was a major pain ,but was over. Until March when we get our results.  Now here's how the test was graded. So top results get first picks obviously. The higher score the better chance of going where you want. On the scan tron you filled out the specialized school you wanted to go to like this
•Bronx Science
•Stuyvesant
• High School For American Studies
• Queens school of science
Those were my 4 choices. Now it's March results don't come in. And well I forgot about it until the end of March. Now I was doing a science project with my another one of my besties who wanted to work on me with it. And I remember getting the results and we checked them together since the email came on our phones. I was nervous because this determined my new school. Now I look at the offers basically which schools accepted me. And I had a public school offer to my second choice and none for the specialized. Only my score. And in that moment it was like I was emotionless. I wasn't as or mad or happy. I was just like okay whatever now dark blue ribbon or light blue for the top of the board??? So later next day at school we're comparing scores. And no one got in. I got the highest score in our class with a 485. My best friends were so proud of me and mad at the test. In our little group I was the smartest grade wise. And I kind of hated it a little. People always looking for answers, expecting me to know what they don't, I can't be mad or feel anything when I get a bad grade because they got worse so why am I complaining, and their parents comparing me to them and parents asking me to help my friends and tell them not to talk and all this stuff. It gets really annoying. I get it I'm grade smart so what my friends are street smart. I didn't feel defeated after the test just fine with myself. Anyways a month later I'm over the test and accepting the fact that I'm going to my second high school choice. 

When I get a call from my mom during after school. And shes blowing up my phone. The after school teacher is chill love ya Ms. Ordiz and allowed me to take the call. And I did. First thing I hear my mom say and I'm not even out of the room and she telling me I can go to a Specialized high school. So nervously I'm like wut. . . and I go outside. And she explains what a lady from the DOE tells her. I come back after she's done and I'm thinking it probably is the one in Queens cause with a score like mine no way I'm gonna go to Bronx Science.

My Best Friend now Husbando: You sounded nervous when you left what did your mom say???

Me still in shock: I have a chance to go to a specialized high school. . . 

My Child now our Child: OML RLLY MUM THATS AMAZING!!!

They both knew I wanted this. And they were so happy for me. After after school I found out I could go to Bronx Science IF I went to a summer program called Discovery. So I said sure. Than later my guidance counsler calls me in along with my friend the one I disliked and I knew it was about the high school thing. And it was. We were both gonna go. YAY!!! So the summer program was stressful at times and instead of feeling intelligent I felt like the biggest idiot there. But I made friends so no regrets. 

Time skip to when I get to the school. Its Day 1 and I'm feeling good with myself. And to sum up everything. Geometry and Chemistry are my most frustrating classes. And I have two math classes to take Algebra and Geo. And passing is considered an 80% in each class. i'm fine with everything except geo. I have a 73.65% in that class and it only gets worse. The main reason is cause 60% of my grade is exams and as a horrible test taker I don't think I'll survive ,but I'm trying!!! And that counts for something. . . right???

I was so focused on school I decided to let go of Wattpad to do so. But I'm back and I plan on staying. So for those who enjoy reading my vents and stories thanks for taking time out of your day to read this. And if you guys want me to do a Q and A or something like that let me know and I'll try to do it. No face reveal if you want that I can give you my insta but for now no face reveal.  WOW 1670 WORDS LONGEST I'VE WRITTEN UWU!!!!