Numbness clouded my entire being from the moment I heard oncoming police sirens in the distance, my battle wounds hurting just as much as my mind and heart. Gazing into the abyss called the darkness of the night, tears stung my eyes from how much I had lost tonight. I wanted nothing more than to rewind time and change how things would end. But alas, that would never happen.

"Sabrina?! Are you okay?!" With worry and concern fully lacing his tone of voice, Tim knew this was such a horrible outcome. Bloody and bruised, I nearly met my demise on numerous occasions throughout the night. Tim being the local chief of police in this small town I'd called home my entire life, wasn't used to events like this in such a small town. Nothing like this had happened in years. One main event that rocked the town to its core. A bloody massacre of a woman found brutally slain in her home, with absolutely no evidence of who could have done it. Just past lovers, and distant relatives. And my mom.....

"I—I don't know." Was all I could muster from the mere thought of what had happened, my brain still trying to process everything. Many a secrets had come to light, bringing forth horrible consequences. I felt completely stupid. Betrayed. I felt more alone than anything in this moment. And I just wanted this nightmare, to end.
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(2 weeks earlier)
Senior year had quickly come upon us, something I'd dreamt about for most of my young life. Good grades, followed the rules, I was considered a goody two shoes. But the secret I kept on a daily basis, told a entirely different story about me. Laying naked atop the said secret, I slightly smiled down at his sleeping form. Jamie Oaks. Someone I've known since we were toddlers, being my brothers best friend. And the resident troublemaker, as he's always called. I knew he wasn't all that good for me. But, I didn't care.

"Good morning beautiful." He groggily said in a deepened tone that always does things to me when I merely hear it. I was utterly addicted to him, more than anything or anyone in my life. He was it. Every waking thought is of him, every dream is of him, everything I do, leads back to him.

"Good morning you handsome devil." I said while getting out of the comfort of his now messy bed to gather up my clothes, knowing I would have to sneak my way into my house through my bedroom window to avoid my dad, changing clothes and then heading to school.

"Instead of worrying about your good grades, how about you worry about other extracurricular activities." He suggestively said with a wink of his eye, my core immediately responding from the mere thought of what I wanted to actually do. Jamie isn't exactly into soft core sex. He's more into..... hardcore. He's my first, and only. And it just got progressively more aggressive with each session we had.

"Oh that's meant for after school, honey! Don't worry." I said just as equally suggestive, throwing on my clothes and shoes to head out his window before his mom and dad woke up to notice i was here. They had no clue their son was banging his best friends sister. And it was going to stay that way.

"I'll hold you to that. Go ahead and get out of here before I change my mind. I'll come by to pick you and Jackson up in a bit, like always." I simply smiled as a response, grabbing my phone from his bedside table before heading out said window to walk a mere block to get back home at 5:30 in the morning. Fast as ever, I made it through my own window and hopped into the shower to kickstart my day full of unknown events to come.

"Sis! Can you please get out of the bathroom? You've been in there forever!" Jackson yelled from outside the door, as usual for a school morning. Jackson and I are fraternal twins, looking nothing alike except for our hair color, eye color and almost identical smiles. We've always been close, something I've always cherished.

"One sec!" I brushed out my wet hair once drying it the best I could, brushing my teeth and applying my absolute favorite shade of red liquid lipstick to last me all day. Playfully ruffling his once styled hair, I heard his objection with a laugh escaping me once I closed my bedroom door behind me to get dressed. The knew outfit my best friend Lizzy got for me, laid perfectly against my bed that remained untouched for days on end. A note was neatly stacked atop that she had left one night while she was covering for me, being the only person that knows a thing about Jamie and I.

You're going to look hot in this! Don't forget that.

I softly smiled from her encouragement, slipping on a red dress that went slightly to my knees, with black boots to go along with it. It's definitely out of my comfort zone, but I knew this would be a good way to change. Even if it was remotely small. I couldn't always be afraid of change. I knew this. Because Jamie had sparked that change in me that everyone was quickly taking notice of.

"Alright kids! It's time to go." I rushed down the stairs with my bag in tow, seeing my dad staring out the window, directly at Jamie's running car in the driveway. He never approved of him what so ever. He actually seemed to despise him and his family. And I never understood why.

"Listen, Sabrina? Be careful around that kid. He's bad news." He said with such conviction in his tone, that I knew he wasn't joking. He knew I wouldn't listen anymore. Not like i used to. I used to be such a daddy's little girl. And apart of me still is. But, I'd grown up. I'm 18, almost done with high school, discovering who I truly am. And finding that the guy in the driveway? Is my sexual awakening, something I can't let go of.

"C'mon dad. You know I'm always careful. I love you. I'll see you tonight sometime." I softly kissed his cheek with a gentle smile to follow, Jackson leaving out the door right before me and calling shotgun before I could to occupy the front seat with Jamie, much to my dismay. But I quickly changed my whole demeanor, plastering a smile upon my lips like I didn't have a care in the world.

"So.... Did you two hear about the murder last night?" Jamie suddenly said as if it was no big deal, his eyes finding mine in the rear view mirror. Tension had built around us so thick that I never understood how anyone didn't catch on. But, it was for the best that no one did. It was sort of our agreement. Because his parents didn't want him around Jackson and i that much, and our dad didn't want us around Jamie.

"No..... who was murdered?" I quietly asked in honest fear that something like this would occur. Murder wasn't a typical subject here in South Haven, the small town where not much of anything happens to be honest.

"Alex and Sarah. Apparently it was bloody as hell. Her head was nearly cut off." From Jamie's explanation of the crime, I nearly doubled over in utter sickness. Sarah had been a friend for so long. She had just started dating Alex, and they seemed so happy. Who would want to kill them?

"They were probably getting on the neighbors nerves by banging away all night, so they offed them." Jackson jokingly said with a humored smile directed at Jamie, earning a quick slap to his back by me from the back seat. The rest of the ride to school was pretty quiet, that is until all the news vans were seen littering the school grounds, just waiting to get the latest scoop on the double murder.

"Sab! Do you see all this chaos?!" Lizzy said once she practically ran up to the car after Jamie had parked in his usual spot. I could barley manage to exit the car without my heart racing in utter shock from what was actually happening. Two people are dead in South Haven. Something that will be talked about for days on end. Whoever did this, was brutal in their crime spree.

"It's awful. Vultures....." She looped her arm through mine before I noted Jamie eyeing me with a cigarette between his fingers to get a smoke in before school started. He always kept close watch over me I noted, no matter what I was doing. Dragging me away to a now arriving Gracie and Liam, I noted how perfect she looked today, as always. Beautiful blonde hair anyone would die for, perfect red lipstick and a gorgeous outfit to match, she screamed the dream. And she, is my best friend.

"Hey Sabrina. Crazy, huh?" Liam said with a tiny, sad smile directed at me. Liam is such a sweetheart, always willing to do homework with me, lending me free movies so I wouldn't have to buy them myself. And also being my reading partner, the only one out of our circle who would even sit down and read a full book. He liked me, more than just a friend. But, I wasn't about to be a slut and sleep with two guys. Besides, Jamie took up all my attention.

"It is. I'm so sorry, Liam. I know you and Alex were close." Actually having been cousins, they spent so much time together over the course of their lives. It's actually sickening to know they're gone.

"Yeah..... I don't really understand it. He was..... practically drained of all his blood by morning." My breathing hitched in my throat from the mere details, the chaos surrounding us enough to render me useless for the day ahead. Gracie could barely speak. I just had no idea how bad this was going to get. And how much I would lose.