this might be long - mya

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HONESTY

I threw my MCM bag in the back before plopping down on jahseh's leather passenger seat. After a long ass day of stress and torture I was finally able to get away and be somewhere I felt wanted.

"Sorry I took awhile, Neva kept assuming shit." Jahseh said as he placed his hand on my thigh.

" Its fine, Isaiah wouldn't let me leave without any proof that I was going to my moms house, he deadass called her, luckily she went with it."

"Sorry."

" you don't have to say sorry every time I tell you about my shitty relationship." With my free hand I grabbed my phone from out of my pocket and synced it to the radio so I could play something's.
When I found a good song I turned the radio and sat back again.

All I wanted to do at the moment was sleep since I rarely get to do that at home.

To make a story short me and Isaiah ( yes wifisfuneral) got into a huge argument when I walked in on him and a girl, I snapped and left him, after that I went into a deep state of depression and to make things worse his little friends were clowning me all on the internet like I wasn't shit.

Anyways his ex friend jahseh dm'ed me on some positive shit and from there we became close. ( just as friends). About two months into our little friendship I cut him off because he told me he had some type of feelings for me, so basing it off of my relationship with siah I pushed him away.

Then I got back with Isaiah and jahseh got with a girl named Geneva, and that's where I realised how much I regretted everything.

Not going to lie they are a cute couple but its toxic, and he knows that but he just doesn't want to face it, he knows she's cheated but he doesn't want to be alone.

And for me, I know I'm in a toxic relationship, I know he's playing me and having me out here looking like a clown, but when you love someone its hard to give up on them until it goes all the way bad.

"What's that?" Jahseh said loudly over the music.

I turned down the music and looked over at him" what?"

" what's that shit on your finger" he said while going in a different direction somewhere off the road. "He gave that to you?" Referring to the promise ring Isaiah got for me today.

"Yeah, he told me he'd change for me I couldn't say n-" I jumped at the sound of jahseh slamming his hand down on the dashboard.

"He beats your ass almost everyday and you go back and accept that target brand ass ring? Do you see how bad he dogs you? And he fucked you over how many times? He tells you he's going to change for like to 80th time and you just kiss his ass like he really gone change. I ain't trynna sound bitter but he don't love you."

" you don't know that." I said trying to hold back the tears that were fighting to fall down, i hated how sensitive I am.

" I do, cause if he loved you he wouldn't be doing you like this, look at signs honesty!"

I turned myself towards the window as I broke down. I couldn't handle the Truth and that's what hurted the most.

" you really have some nerve telling me about my relationship, look at yours, isn't she still cheating on you with your friend while you act like its not happening?"

The car quickly stopped which caused me to look over at jahseh who was just staring ahead which scared the hell out of me. I guess I hit a spot in him.

After a few minutes of him being completely silent the sound of his seatbelt and him getting out of the car is what made me look back at him.

" get in the back."was all he said while taking off his seat belt and getting out of the car. that scared me a little because of the way he was acting but I obeyed by crawling to the back seat where he was, I sat back criss cross applesauce facing him.

"Lemme tell you something." He said while grabbing onto my neck. I pursed my lips together as he brought his lips towards my neck. " take these shits off." He said gripping on my shorts.

He let go of my neck as I started to take of my shorts along with the underwear that I was wearing.

Once I had my stuff off I was roughly pushed up against the window, I gasped when he snatched the purple ring off of my finger and threw it on the floor.

" like I was saying, you don't know shit about what I go through behind closed doors." He said before  placing hickeys all over my neck."

At that minute I forgot all about Isaiah.

He removed himself away from my neck and placed his Gucci belt around my throat tightening it to where it was secure and tight but not too tight so I could still breathe. "Face down."

I did as told and turned over putting my ass in the air with my face down turned to the side.

" me and her ain't even together no mo."

Before I was able to reply he pushed his whole inside of me which made me scream out his name and pain and pleasure.

He sent hard slaps to my ass as he went faster making my eyes roll back.

He grabbed onto the belt lifting my head up before pounding into me harder causing me to moan louder than before. His little groans made it even better.

Just when I was coming close he pulled out which caused me to whimper and look back at him.

"I left Geneva, let go of that wack ass nigga and get with me, and I'm not taking no for an answer." He sent another hard slap to my ass before placing himself back at my entrance.

- nevasativa✌