a small group had come to check out the explosion from the exodus ship. arabella and clarke hadn't said a word, bellamy had to tell clarke what happened. arabella had spent so long hating her father, just as she was on her way to forgiving him, he dies. she felt guilty like it was her fault.

as arabella walked through the wreckage, she accidentally stepped onto a corpse, well bones that crumbled beneath her feet. she stumbled back, her hand flying to cover her mouth. she looked down at the almost black bones.

she felt a hand on her shoulder, arabella jumped slightly and turned around to see bellamy behind her. the girl let out a sigh. "at least it was quick, i'm glad he didn't feel it." she hoarsely spoke.

he planted a kiss on her head, rubbing her shoulder softly. he wasn't sure what he could say to her, because he knew nothing he said would make it better.

 arabella held the gun in her hand, her eyes only looking at the mess around her. she shrugged bellamy's hand off of her shoulder and walked away from him. she didn't want to be cold towards him, it was the last thing she wanted. but she always handled emotions differently and her way was shutting people out and pushing them away.

"stay sharp." she heard bellamy say. "grounder retaliation for what happened on the bridge is coming, just a matter of when."

"can you blame them?" finn asked.

"no, i blame you." 

"maybe if you didn't bring guns..."

raven interrupted finn. "if we didn't bring guns, we all would've been killed. arabella was inches away from being shot in the chest with an arrow." 

"i'm right here, thank you, raven." arabella snapped, rolling her eyes. 

"why they're coming doesn't matter anymore. it's our job to be ready when they do." bellamy spoke. "we're on our own now."

arabella walked over to clarke. she was looking at something dripping from a broken part of the ship. they both stepped back at the smell.

"arabella, clarke, stop!" they heard raven shout as she ran over to the two. 

"rocket fuel?" clarke asked.

"hydrazine." raven corrected. "highly unstable in its non-solid form. if this stuff meets fire, we're all pink mist." she added as she dipped a small rock into the liquid. "fire in the hole!" she yelled, throwing the rock into the distance, making an explosion happen. "we need to clear the area."

"okay, then." bellamy said. "we move in formation, no straggling, weapons hot." he ordered. "we got to get back before dark."

...

the group began to walk back to the camp, bellamy stayed at arabella's side but neither of them said a word to the other. 

it got dark by the time they made it back to camp but they were instantly met by someone telling them murphy was back. arabella lit up instantly and she sprinted into the drop ship to see murphy tied up and sitting against a wall.

"oh my, god." arabella softly cried out as she knelt next to him. his face was almost covered in blood and his arms were all cut up. "oh, murphy." 

"everyone but connor and derek out." bellamy ordered, but arabella ignored him. "now!" 

people began to leave the dropship but arabella stayed in her place, just staring at her best friend.

"he claims he was with the grounders." derek said to bellamy.

"we caught him trying to sneak back into camp." connor added on. 

"i wasn't sneaking. i was running from the grounders." murphy weakly spoke.

"anyone see grounders?" bellamy asked, his voice angry. 

"mm-hm." connor shook his head.

"well, in that case..." bellamy raised his gun at murphy, making arabella move in front of him.

"don't you fucking dare." arabella seethed. 

"what the hell is wrong with you?" finn moved the gun away from murphy and arabella.

"we were clear what would happen if he ever came back." he raised his gun once again. "arabella move." he ordered.

the girl didn't look at him. "fuck you, bellamy."

"no! if he was with the grounders, he could know things that can help us." finn stepped in front of bellamy again.

"help us? we hanged him, we banished him, and now we're gonna kill him." bellamy yelled. "get the hell out of my way."

arabella snapped, she grabbed a gun from the ground, spun around, and aimed it at bellamy. "you gotta kill me first if you wanna kill him." 

"he tried to kill you, arabella!"

"i don't care." she seethed, still aiming the gun at bellamy. 

"stop it!" clarke came between arabella and bellamy. "finn's right." she made her way over to murphy.

"like hell, he is! clarke, think about charlotte." bellamy yelled.

"i am thinking about her." clarke said to him. "but what happened to charlotte was as much our fault as his."

arabella watched as clarke inspected murphy. 

"he's not lying. his fingernails were torn off. they tortured him."

"you and the grounders should compare notes." finn told bellamy.

"the grounders know we're at war. what did you tell them about us?" bellamy shouted.

murphy took a quick breath. "everything."

arabella glared at bellamy as she went back to murphy.

"once he's better, we find out what he knows, and then he's out of here, okay?" clarke told bellamy. 

"what if he refuses to leave?" he asked as clarke walked away. "what do we do with him then?"

there was a moment of silence. "then we kill him."

arabella clenched her jaw. "he'll leave."

"and how do you know that?" bellamy snapped.

"because i'll leave with him." arabella replied, her eyes not leaving murphy's.

...

arabella had to quickly leave murphy to grab them both some water, but she bumped into bellamy. 

"bella-"

"go away." she filled up two bottles with water, and the girl turned around and almost walked into bellamy. "move."

"no." he stood his ground.

"bellamy, i swear to-"

her words were interrupted by bellamy smashing his lips onto hers, she dropped the bottles and pulled him in closer. they moved back so they were more hidden away. bellamy picked arabella up by the backs of her thighs like she weighed nothing and backed her up into a tree.

he pulled away to kiss her neck. "bell-" she softly moaned. his hands squeezed her thighs making her let out a gasp. 

her hands made their way into his hair, she pulled gently on it, making him groan. "you're mine, arabella." 

she pulled harder on his hair. "you've pissed me off." arabella said, a tone of anger in her voice. "i'm not yours."

"you will be though." he went back to kissing her neck, and slowly put her back on her feet.

the girl scoffed but it mixed in with a moan instead. he softly nipped at her neck, making the girl shiver. "god, i don't know if i hate you or like you." she groaned, running her hands under his shirt and around the waistband of his jeans.

they were both angry in general and at each other, and yet they couldn't stay away from one another. "please, bella. let me have you."

"in your dreams, bellamy blake." she whispered in his ear as she slipped away from him.