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I've been a loner in this unpredictable life since you left me. I'd had a lot of things but it's seem I didn't have any chance to told you because you didn't care about it. Your eyes, your lips and your heart - I didn't know when they weren't mine anymore.

I was keen on singing the lyrics and drinking some coffee. Looking at the outside, I was listening to the sound of rain and comforting myself on rainny days. Relaxing my soul, I started to think of you.

"Are you ok? Where do you live now? Is everything alright? You miss me, dont you?"

I was very good but a life without you was really boring. Instead of a bowl of rice or an egg, it was replaced by a cup of cold bitter coffee. I didn't mind of the tie was worn carelessly even the white shirt which was also creasy. I was hurry to work, crazy with all the stressful issues. At noon, while everyone was chatting excitingly, I was sitting alone with the computer. I was too busy with works, I seemed to forget the lunch. Without rest, I seriously focus on working even it's time to go home, I didn't notice it. Suddenly the lights off, I started in surprise and went home torpidly. Dinner? Maybe it's not necessary or important, carelessly took instant noodle before finding something to do. That time, I forced myself keep working with no rest. Because I was afraid that when I was alone in this house, I couldn't stop myself thinking about you...

I love you more than you think. I was a fool, right? Love you but I just let you know a half of my love. Until you're far away, I realized that I need you, which made me can't stop regreting.

That time, from the enthusiastic young guy suddenly changed to the old man with skinny cheeks. People met me always asked why I had changed so much. I just smiled at them, said nothing and continued to maltreat myself. I realize that I was such a fool. Like the 3 years old stubborn boy, listen to noone but myself. Reflecting on that time, I was both angry and pitiful.

I started to learn how to love. I did not learn how to love you but I learn how to love myself. It seemed my heart has to say sorry with this life: Maybe in this life, my heart won't beat fast because of someone anymore instead of you.

That moments without you had gone through left anything behind. I'm thirty, the age that makes people become more mature, I'm from young energetic guy to be more calm. I spent my love to you for working so the effect has increased significantly. I absolutely gained promotion and the career has fasten like a duck in water. I felt really lucky and keep on working hard, but I realized I had lost something very important.

The end of the year party with co-workers, we gathered together and chatted. Some talk about love life, some about career or their family, everyone was extremely excited. I seemed to sit in silence with saying nothing. I laughed at myself because of my boredom that I should learn how to care my own.

Breakfast with no black coffee anymore, I get up early to make a sandwich or a glass of milk. The lunch box is ready, I read newspapers comfortably when having breakfast. Dress the uniform, I take the bag and ready for work. No more hurry, I restfully walk on the street. Sometimes, I send a shop seller compliments or best wishes for good selling. In addition, I can rub a dog's head I met on way. What a peaceful morning, is it? At company, I take advantage of chatting with friends before starting working. At lunch, I take out the lunch box, which makes everyone notices it:

- What's a weird thing that you bring your lunch box. Have fell in love someone,dude?

I smack my tounge and smile: "It would be great if it's true, right?" My life passes day by day peacefully, which makes my heart no misbeat anymore.

I have learned how to love myself. It's seemed to be difficult but actually not. My love for you is unchanged, I just borrowed it for my own.

Have a long walk, I went to the coffee shop, where I usually go. Odering a cup of Americano, I drank some and then closed my eyes to comfort. It's gonna rain today but I forgot to bring an umbrella along. Looking at the dark sky, I savour my drink without worrying. I suddenly think of you, when you smile, you mad at me even you cry. I smiled slightly, looking nowhere and started to ask something, which I know noone would answer them.

Are you ok? Do you take care of yourself when I'm not beside you?

I wont ask you if you miss me anymore. Because I'm really good, everything is interesting in their own way each day.  I want you enjoy these moments very much. I know how to live myself, my heart won't beat fast because of you anymore, maybe. Learn to love myself is one type of love, isn't it?

I think it's enough, I'm afraid that I don't have anything to tell more. Haha. Please forgive me, I have to stop right here.

Love you,
Dear my love from heaven.....
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Diary on 12/12/2017 - Slight rainny day.....

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Oah~~ finally finish with the English version T^T I send my love to 100 followers and more~~ hope you guys like it ^^

Update: 12/12/2017