Liam Hemsworth plays Jay

"You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you; Well, now look at what you lost, oh; You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you; Now look at what you lost, oh." Used To Love You ~ Gwen Stefani.

Hey Jay,

I'm sure you knew you were going to be on this list. I mean, you were my first love as I was yours.

Isn't it so funny how the smallest of things can make the biggest mistake? Not funny? Fine. I thought it was.

We started dating in 7th grade, right Marisol?

I thought you were mine, and we'd get married and have babies.

Guess not.

Jay Collins, we dated for 3 years and called it off on May 7th, of freshman year.

Yes, to all you gossipers and such reading these letters, Jay Collins was my first, though I cannot say my last.

What he did had nothing to do with our 3 year relationship.

Well, I guess it would have a little bit, but that isn't really relevant.

A few days afterwards Tiana's party, Jay, you approached me.

Jay dear, what did you do to make me hate you so much?

Ready?

You got Elizabeth Palmer pregnant.

Liz was only 15 years old, and had big dreams of being a lawyer.

My sister's dream was ruined, because Jason Collins couldn't keep his dick in his pants.

So yes, Jay, pardon me if I accidentally, I don't know, stab you with a knife and watch you die?

Maybe you'll stick around, Jace, to see what happens to Liz.

I mean, after she told you she carried your child, you literally stepped out of her life. That was an asshole move, I have to break it to you.

Some have wondered why I bother writing letters like this. Well honestly, I don't know. Maybe because I want to have the last word, and maybe you'll remember your bad actions. Maybe you'll stop, and maybe... I don't know. Stop bugging me.

So, anyone, what does this have to do with my death?

Jay, Parker and Marisol, if you stick around, you'll see what happened to Liz (Hi, Liz. You already know what happens, but most people don't. Two can keep a secret if one is dead ;) )

But back to the real topic Jay.

You may have been an asshole to Liz and I want to murder you, I never, I don't think, stopped caring for you. Maybe you really just can't unlove somebody, if you have fallen in love with them.

Many people wonder about our weird relationship.

In 7th grade, Jason Collins asked me out.

Of course, I said yes. Who wouldn't turn down your first date?

We crushed on each other for awhile anyways, and eventually, Jay asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes.

We broke up in freshman year, agreeing to stay as "friends".

I'm sure even the stupidest of people could tell that it was a load of BS.

So anyways, why did we break up?

Remember Georgina's freshman party?

High school students of all types were there, at her bigass mansion.

Why was I not surprised to find Jay wasted, making out with a random senior girl? Three years of being together never really did quench your thirst for women, had it? There were rumors and claims, yes, but I wasn't the type to accuse without actual evidence. So I just sat back and allowed you to run the show.

By the looks of it, she wasn't the first girl you cheated with. Maybe the rumors and claims did hold some truth in them. And that is how Jason Collins started his path as a player.

So yes, I confronted you the next day, and you explained that maybe we should separate...take a break....

Though it was puppy love, at one point, you loved me as I loved you. Is it possible for one to fully unlove another?

You lost me when I first suspected you, when your kiss stopped taking my breath away, when the butterflies were replaced by disappointment. Was that a bit too rude? Well then, excuse my manners... seeing that you pointed out I had none?

By that point, I didn't give five shits anymore. I guess reality smacked me in the face and opened my eyes to... well, reality.

Should I be thankful, Jay? Should I really?

Maybe you'll reflect on my words at night, gazing out at the stars.

Maybe you'll remember me for a long, long time.

Yours 'forever & always',

Nat Palmer