Cameron Dallas plays Xavier

"This is looking like a contest; Of who can act like they care less; But I liked it better when you were on my side; The battle's in your hands now; But I would lay my armor down; If you'd say you'd rather love than fight; So many things that you wish I knew; But the story of us might be ending soon." Story of Us ~Taylor Swift

Did you expect to see your name here, Xavier?

I would think so, seeing that you were my second boyfriend.

To everyone else, who probably wasn't aware of Xav, our relationship was what you would call "fairytale" and "cliché."

But the thing of perfection is that... well sometimes, the love, the feeling you have for each other stops attracting the other party and repels it instead.

You aren't to blame Xav. You played a big part in my life, and I'm so damn glad for that.

Let's start from the beginning, shall we?

We got together the summer after the camp shit with Jewel.

At first, it was a dare of course, suggested by some kid.

But after one date, everything clicked, sparks flew, butterflies erupted, and we grew attracted.

Everytime I thought about you, a smile formed. Everytime you looked at me, I felt like I was the luckiest girl in the world.

Xavier, you meant the world to me, so why did we break up?

Come to think of it Xav, you story is one of the better ones in this collection of letters.

It all started with... a kiss. I'm kidding. It really just started with a fight.

Though yes, we were a 'perfect couple', we fought.

Sometimes over ice cream flavors... and sometimes about our views of life.

You liked chocolate... I liked vanilla.

You were concerned about environmental issues... I was concerned about contemporary social issues.

I guess maybe we were too different to stay together.

We were both so damn selfish... we felt the connection diminishing and yet we forced ourselves to make a broken relationship work.

We agreed to see if we could find someone else better.

But you know, we were still pretty close at this point, and officially still dating so why did you hide it from me.

Were you afraid?

Xav, I almost had a heart attack because of that.

Why did you have to be in the janitor's closet that exact moment when Jewel spilled milk on me, and I went to get towels?

Why, on top of it all did you choose to be kissing Theodore Faye at that same moment?

I mean, it's not like I have anything against gay people.

But that's not what hurt.

It's the fact that you said I was your little experiment, as well as Theodore. You wanted to see if you truely was gay. You were.

To be fair, you did once love me... before it all faded... before our fairytale life came to an end.

What exactly do I have against you? I don't know.

But I learned one thing from this. A relationship can't survive without trust.

I don't regret our time together, Xavier, but I do regret our secrets.

For example, how were you to know that while you were lip locking with boys, I was in bars and clubs, drunk off my ass and making out with random strangers, if not hooking up. I do, as you said once, have a tendency to get crazy when I was wasted.

We were both justified in our actions. Clearly, we stopped trusting each other after we stopped our silly crush. But don't ever doubt the fact that I don't love you because I do. I love you Xavier, as I believe one cannot stop loving another. 

I'm sorry Xavier.

I've been waiting a long time to say that, but my pride would always get in the way. Now I'm dead, I have literally, nothing to lose.

Don't forget me, alright? Please?

Love, Lia.