“Everytime I close my eyes I can still see the light in you.

You, who was shining so bright in the midst of all the stars, the brightest yet. So surreal, I thought, that if you told me that you were a heaven sent angel I would undoubtedly believe you. You were the light that kept everyone going; the smile that was worth living for, the voice that soothed the storms raging in our hearts. You were the cure to every heartache, the shoulder for tears to freely flow down our cheeks.

You were the brightest light I have ever seen.

Yet, by being so bright, you blinded us all. The beauty that you held was more than enough to mask the burning you must've felt inside. You shed blood and tears solely to make us all smile. You fought against demons and yourself, all for our sake.

I bet, that if you were still here with me, with all of us, you would be smiling as you usually would. Never in a million years, would you show us your true feelings; even if the world ended or the stars collapsed. The things that you kept us all away from, words stitched into a smile; what were they? Would you tell God?

I bet, that if you were still here with me, with all of us, you would still be as considerate as ever. No matter how hard the things you dealt with, your voice never failed to help people cope with their neverending hardships. I think you are beautiful, compassionate, kind, for doing such a thing. You truly saved a lot of people out there with your heartful words and soulful melodies. You gave people a reason to believe, a hope worth holding on to. I too, am one of those people; and on every other day when I see you up there in the sky as the brightest star, I never forget to thank you for everything. I will never forget to.

I bet, that if you were still here with me, with all of us, you would do amazing deeds just like you have always done. I bet people would love you, I would love you; as we all would always do.

Only when people are gone do they realize the beauty in the person's existence. Only when they are gone do they recognize the person's kindness. Only when they are gone do they realize that every moment in life needs to be cherished, that the things they seem to take lightly would leave the biggest empty hole in their chests when it is gone. You are gone now, but you are happy up there, and I hope you never stop singing lullabies for everyone.

Whenever the evening sky reminds me of you, I listen to your voice. Whenever my heart collapses, I am reminded of your encouraging words. Whenever I miss you, I will call for you, just like you have written for us in Jinki's favorite song. I may not reach you, but this hand that reaches up into the sky, the light that passes through the gap between my childish fingers, they will always make me feel like you are reaching down back at me, grasping my hand tight. Each and every time, my heart flutters, and I imagine walking to you with a smile on my face.

I will always call out to you. Your smile will forever remain carved in my mind and memory.

Thank you for everything.”

Though I extend my hand, though I extend it with all my strength,
(I can’t reach you baby)
I can’t reach you
It seemed like I got closer
(so I shout outloud and call you)
so I called you with a fluttering heart
(I call out to you more)
But there’s no answer,
I guess I can never reach you.

— selene 6.23, 171218.