a/n i can't wait for this new film as i watched the johnny Depp i think it was version of it well a number two is coming out and i am really excited for it and i remembered how much i loved Alice in wonderland is. the best person being the mad hatter. he is the cool insane mad man so yeah

After the faithful day I found out who I really was. All I did was lose my mind all day. I laughed uncontrollably at the most weirdest of shit. i didn't film. i would be mad and run around at any moment. i made myself stay inside. i was starting to lose control of my life. the only thing i could control was if i went outside. i locked all my door's and windows. i didn't have control on what i did. if i laughed what i did. i wanted this jack guy back. every thing was broken in my house. nothing was good any more. i thought that being myself would be good i was wrong. but all good things have to come to an end like the bast thing

i sat in a chair the only one in the house that isn't ripped and broken in someway. i was thinking. i was hard to think straight now. i was trying to compress every thing that had happened in this past week. i looked at my surroundings and my eyes started to tear up. i hadn't cried in years because i was happy. now all i was, was a dead body that could breath and move. a single tear fell down my face and i found control of my actions for a second and i stood up shaking wanting to collapse to get my phone and call one of my friends to tell them i was alright. which i wasn't. but they probably thought i was dead. in a way i was dead

ceptiguy :hey pewds if you care any more i am alive i am not dead... sadly but i can't come out in the open for reasons and i just want to say there won't be a youtube video in a long time... well maybe never in my case

pewds:jack were coming over to Ireland now

ceptiguy: you don't want to do that no no no no no no

pewds: i found out your alive we could help

ceptiguy: you can't save me you can't come trust me

pewds: we can help jack

as he said jack i realized i was being jack this nice guy and i managed to smile and then i got a hit in my brain and i heard a voice in my head and i fell to the floor in tears as the voice

jack your not jack your sean your mad your insane your crazy jack doesn't exist

"GO AWAY. JACK IS A GUY IT ME" I shouted to myself pulling on my hair out of annoyance

oh but sean i can never go away i am stuck here

"MY NAMES JACK JACKCEPTICEYE NOT SEAN. HE'S THE NIGHTMARE"

no sean i control you i am your brain your ruler

"LEAVE MY HEAD LEAVE ME ALONE" i cried falling to the floor with the phone in my hand and texted as my last life of jack came out

cepticguy: listen to me pewds i am going insane like insane so don't come i might kill you for all i know i could kill myself i haven't been able to control myself at all so you coming might get you killed ok so while i am insane and have voice's in my head leave me alone

pewds:jack were coming right now do you want me to ring a mental hospital

i sat frozen what was i going to say to that. i wasn't up for a mental hospital i didn't want to stay in a white box for the est of my life i would rather be insane and free

ceptiguy: no i would rather be insane than live in a box for the rest of my life.

pewds: fine then do you want us to come

and then i felt it my body was being taken over by this voice in my head who was he. so i had to say my good bye to all my friends on the floor in a mess crying as i will never be the same ever

cepticguy: pewdiepie show the world this text. i am so sorry about all of this. i am going insane and i think i might die like this there is a voice in my head that is taking over me. i don't want it to but it is and there is no way to stop it and to all my friends i know this is a bit sudden and it is like i am taking my life but i am still alive i will miss all the people who made my life a thing and all i want to say to them is a i love you all and i will never forget you. to my subscribers i will let pewdiepie have my channel and control it and say goodbye and do what ever the hell he wants with it i do n't give a fuck anymore but let me tell you that i love everyone who made my life a thing and my family i love you all of you. i just have to leave as i will hurt people and i will not live a box in a mental hospital i will live in a forest away from people and die on my own it is better i die alone then kill people i love and hate so haters you got what you wanted and all the people i loved and who loved me or liked me even my haters well to them haters fuck you and if you hate then look what happens you go insane and to all the people who loved me or i loved you best fucking people in the world so bye world and who ever helped me don't look for me i won't be there i will make pewdiepie make my channel subscribe to all my followers and everyone who loved me and to all the world

bye xxxxx

ps. if there are messages then there the insane version of me so don't trust them there fake even if i say it is the real me don't believe

as i sent the message i cried and sat up and turned on the camera and said what i just said

"top of the mor- fuck the intro go to my last video to hear that shit, sorry if you couldn't tell yet i am so sorry about all of this. i am going insane and i think i might die like this there is a voice in my head that is taking over me. i don't want it to but it is and there is no way to stop it and to all my friends i know this is a bit sudden and it is like i am taking my life but i am still alive i will miss all the people who made my life a thing and all i want to say to them is a i love you all and i will never forget you. to my subscribers i will let pewdiepie have my channel and control it and say goodbye and do what ever the hell he wants with it i do n't give a fuck anymore but let me tell you that i love everyone who made my life a thing and my family i love you all of you. i just have to leave as i will hurt people and i will not live a box in a mental hospital i will live in a forest away from people and die on my own it is better i die alone then kill people i love and hate so haters you got what you wanted and all the people i loved and who loved me or liked me even my haters well to them haters fuck you and if you hate then look what happens you go insane and to all the people who loved me or i loved you best fucking people in the world so bye world and who ever helped me don't look for me i won't be there i will make pewdiepie make my channel subscribe to all my followers and everyone who loved me and to all the world

if there are messages then there the insane version of me so don't trust them there fake even if i say it is the real me don't believe and for the last time ever well and for the last time ever in the whole world alright i am going to leave this last video here before i start to cry and before this voice takes over my body THANK YOU GUYS FOR WATCHING THIS SAD VIDEO AND IF YOU LIKED IT PUNCH THAT LIKE BUTTON IN THE FAVE LIKE A BOSSSS and high fives AND I'LL SEE ALL YOU DUES WHEN I DOOOOO" i flailed my hands in the air and stopped the camera and i didn't edit it i didn't even watch it over i just pressed the publish button and i watched the video get views and i have never felt so happy to see views ever and that was the last smile that was a true happy genuine smile. i laughed because i knew this was the end. i hated that i had no control over myself but it was all i had. my insane voice in my head. "well this is the last time i will ever see these people there nice comments there comments that made me smile everyday and the comments that just kept me going that made me want to live forever. a single tear of happiness fell down my face "i will miss you i will miss you well" and then *BANG*...

i fell to the floor in deep pain i screamed and squirmed around the floor. and then i stood up with no control at all. i had one green eye a bit like sam but then i realized it was sam. the same icon you could say. i had one green pupil and one blue. my hair was all over the place it was still short and green but fully green. i had pale skin like really pale skin i looked sick. i didn't feel sick i felt powerful. i felt strong. i had a dagger in my black bloody jeans and i had a black dashing blazer on. i felt pretty good looking and the i felt

murderous

i wanted to kill i had a feeling in my head. screw my plan i was going out i was going to kill. and no one could stop me.

so sean are you ready for your new murderous life i am anti your evil side and i will be the new you

i gave a devilish grin to myself in the mirror. "yeah i am ready to kill" i put my hands together and patted my fingers together like evil villains do in the movie's. oh but this wasn't a movie this was real life. i was going to kill there was no doubt about it. you will fear me and be scared of me, this was the power i wanted what i was waiting for. this felling was the best feeling in the world. this feeling of power was the best feeling. i will never forget the feeling. that i had at that moment. then as i looked at myself a realized this was my life now and how many people i had just let down and i shed a tear but the tear vanished as the voice in my head kept shouting

STOP BEING A BABY YOUR A MAD MAN NOW GET YOURSELF TOGETHER. THERE JUST PEOPLE AND WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME YOU DID THIS GET A GRIP YOUR MAD NOT A CHILD

i cupped my ears trying to resist the voice's and maybe i would be normal but i knew it was the end there was no turning back and i knew that it would be hard to hide my new self and look normal. this was my life now. so i sucked up the tears and...

that was the last i knew of the best human in the world. he had a heart he had a soal. he was stupid he was a happy lie and everyone loved happy lies not sad truths unless you are a sad person which i was now. he made people from all over the world laugh and smile and he knew it but blew they because there thoughts had taken over. so bye all hoped the luckiest man the happiest and the most stupid in a good way. jack he was gone and so was i

what was life

did i have one

was this my destiny

was this meant to happen

or was i mistake and this is what i got

did i want this

or did i want friends

did i hate this

was this going to be me for the rest of me

or was this the end of me

who was me anymore

jack

or

sean

was i jack

was i sean

who was i born to be

i had so many questions

that could never be answered

was i going to kill myself

should i kill myself for the world

or do i want this life

did i want to kill for fun and be insane

did i want to go to a insane hospital

or should i simply kill myself so no one gets hurt

i never want to see myself anymore

i knew that all i was doing know was killing

ruining lives of people who didn't need it

i knew that, that

dashing

handsome

insane

good-looking

suited

armed

man

would turn into a murderer and that would be his life

that man was me

FUCK MY LIFE

I KNEW THAT

THAT

LIFE

WAS

MY

MESSED UP

PROBLEMATIC

LIFE

WAS

MY

FUCKING

LIFE

AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE TILL THE END

i fell to the floor having a mental breakdown

pick yourself up you child look at your new athletic dashing new body and suit in the mirror

"NO I WILL NEVER LOOK AT MYSELF AGAIN" i shouted shaking my head violently making me feel sick it was like turbulence. i felt like i was being shaken

why not your amazing

"I MAY LOOK DASHING BUT I WILL KILL PEOPLE AND HURT LOADS OF INNOCENT PEOPLE WHO I DON'T WANT TO KILL OR HURT"

GET A FUCKING GRIP MAN YOUR GOING TO STAND UP AND LOOK IN THE MIRROR OR I WILL MAKE YOU KILL YOURSELF

i wasn't going to do it at first but i did it anyway as i looked at this and i saw shame i didn't see sean or jack i saw a murderer. i hated it. i just frowned no smile no laugh no smirk no grin. no scream i didn't have any hope. i just frowned and my body was slouched.

WHEN WE WAKE UP IN THE MORNING JACK WE WILL INVITE YOUR FRIENDS OVER AND WE WILL BE AFTER THE MENTAL HOSPITAL PEOPLE JACK NOT YOUR FRIENDS BECAUSE YOU WON'T KILL THEM WE WILL ASK THEM TO SEND SOME PEOPLE FROM TH MENTAL HOSPITAL AND WE WILL HAVE SOME FUN

as i walked over to bed i started to have tears in my eyes i sucked them up and just nodded and layed on my broken bed. it was ripped and thrown about as i layed down my suit dissolved and new fancy pajama's came on my body and i just fell asleep.

bye jack

hello sean the new me

the murderous man named

sean the mad hatter

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well that took me ages to write so nest chapter will be me answering question that no body has asked but i was going to explain a few things in some way but i thought question form would be best so thanks for reading and yeah thanks bye