taehyung didn't really remember his beginning. maybe it started when he first had the ability to observe how the world moved. maybe it started somewhere when he thought he was diagnosed as having alzheimer. maybe it was in the way his name glided out of seokjin's mouth as fluidly as water flowing in a river.

seokjin was so pale under the white moonlight, almost transparent, like he could easily vanish into the air, leaving behind a few remnants of broken pieces. but his eyes were so bright, glowing as iridescent as those wandering constellations, and taehyung felt his skin grew hot wherever he glared, as if he was bathed by warm sunlight instead of the cold moon.

"taehyung ah," seokjin said softly, endearment resting on his tongue.

taehyung's body reacted before his mind could; blue flame burning inside his ribs, veins surging with contentment and warmth, and he found himself leaning in to cover seokjin's irresistibile lips with his own. oxygen was stuck between them, overwhelming desire kept oozing out of his mouth, disguised itself as soft whines and heavy breath. taehyung's fingers found their way to waltz on seokjin's tiny waist, his skin felt velvet and warm under taehyung's fingertips, with a tint of red slowly blooming all over his torso. and taehyung just couldn't help but linger on seokjin's body.

"taehyung, taehyung," seokjin's voice trembled when they separated, resonating with his unsteady breath as if they were mingled in poetry.

taehyung hadn't figured if he loved the moon or hated it. But when the moon poured some rays of light down on them, illuminating in the sea of soft features, and flesh, and skin, and everything that spriraled between taehyung and seokjin: longing, hope, fondness, a feeling that taehyung's fingers couldn't grasp, and love; it felt like taehyung was a part of the moon, and the moon melted in seokjin's warm embrace.

"please don't forget me." but seokjin whispered like those words were made of stardust, and taehyung's heart stuttered beneath its cage, all the nerves in his body reverberated a sound that turned into a explosion of a star.

seokjin was crying, taehyung couldn't understand.

and everything started falling too fast, crashed too hard, shattering all over taehyung's mind.

and maybe there was no real beginning for him.