I was always living in a lie,
Just didn't recognize it sooner,
I felt loved, like I was in my sweet haven,
But blinded by my chances.

Blinded by how much I cared,
My kindness was much too high,
Finally, I realized,
I couldn't, not anymore.

I became my own problem,
Lost myself trying to be better,
Now I can't find me, and I hate it,
Why, did I go so low?

Maybe I shouldn't be this way,
Maybe showing my vulnerability wasn't worth it,
Maybe I'm just being paranoid,
It won't change the fact that I will never belong.

I should have known,
Why would I fit in?
Suddenly make me happier,
Without life's usual price.

I never saw the lightning,
The thunder that scared me, I was deaf to,
Never smelt aura of danger,
Just came closer hoping you were better.

Maybe I was right, they always leave.