Dear Lauren,

I recently finished writing something for a competition. It was kinda meh, but I do hope the person judging will like it. It'd also be nice if people would actually read my short stories since those are kinda the only things I want to write at the moment.

I'm a little worried though because it was a romance but about two straight characters. I've never written romance before and it was a little strange. Fun, but strange especially since I have no love life myself. It probably would have been better if I did.

Also, it's a girl and a guy falling in love, so I'm worried how the judge will react to that. I think it was pretty good, but most of their work has gay couples, and it feels so weird to have straight characters when they do that. It's like, you think they'd be great together, but you also feel pressured to make them the same gender because you're worried people will think you're weird if you don't. I don't know what to do. Sometimes it feels like I can only do one or the other. Straight characters or gay ones. There's no in between.

It's like that being bisexual too. I want to tell someone about a guy or girl I'm crushing on, but if it's a guy, it feels awkward talking to most people on here about that. I want to talk about it to this one person who I know won't judge me, but they haven't responded yet. I don't blame them though; they're probably busy.

Might as well vent about it here then.

There's this guy I'm friends with and he's really nice, kinda cute too. And basically, for two days in a row, Thursday and Friday, he sat with me while we were waiting for the bus. It was nice, especially since I usually just sit alone. The conversations made me laugh and smile. He should stop calling my mask that I made for theatre a bag though. Just because it's made out of a paper bag and doesn't have any eye holes, doesn't mean-

Actually, he might have a point.

Anyways, I like him, but I'm not exactly sure if I like-like him or not. He's a great guy, but do I really like him that much? Feelings are so complicated. I kinda hate myself right now for putting myself in this situation. I really wish feelings were less complicated.

But that's all I'm frustrated at right now besides trying to get the story I published fixed because I forgot to add the word count and prompt number until after it had been published so I had to spend an hour trying to fix that because it still wouldn't show up even after I republished it.

Oh! And we might be getting a cat! Almost forgot that.