my smile flipped

and suddenly it

hurt too much to

think about him,

because i'll never

have him, because

i shouldn't be

near him or touch

him but i do and i

want to because i

like him. is that

selfish of me? is it

wrong? am i the

villain in this story?

his story? my own?

i just want to wrap

my arms around

him and tell him

that i'm there for

him because i know

he's fighting battles

of his own, but do

i have the right when

i could ruin the only

true sunshine in my

life (him)? him. him.

it can't be all about

him, it has to be both

of us, and he makes

me so happy but am

i ready?