I look at the woman in front of me sternly, she knows I'm angry and her explanations won't make me feel better..
" Didn't I said to you? Or you purposely didn't hear what I said?" I ask her gritting my teeth..
" Arnav.. I don't want to wear such clothes.. I'm not comfortable with it.. Why are you forcing me now?" she tries to explain me for the second time now..
I left the comfortable chair I was leaning on, and went near her.. Pulling her near me " You're mine.. And you have to do what I say.. Am I clear?" I give her the last warning..
" Don't do this Arnav... Why you are always trying to find her in me? " she caress my shoulder making me remember my pain.. How much I hate when someone does that..
" Shut up... I'm not trying anything.. I already forgot everything about her.. She is nothing to me.." I look away trying to control the angriness that is soon going out of my control..
" Get out of here" I said before I kill her with my hands.. I wouldn't kill her.. I know, only hurt her which is enough for me to say that I'm taking her life away day by day.. But its her fault only, why does she make me remember things I don't want to? Why doesn't she listen to me?
" Good morning ASR.." oh Aman, my PA.. Who comes to wish me everyday, he knows my life doesn't have the so called "Good morning", still he has the patience to wish me all day, so sweet of him but even this kind of care I hate now..
" Morning.. Aman give Akira some new clothes.. Make sure its the way I want.." I look at him, and he understood the message I want to convey to him..

Let's go Akira.." Aman took Akira to change the dress..
And I was left alone in my cabin.. I went to sit in my chair and open my laptop before someone memories come in my mind again..
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" Aman I'm tired of all this... I don't want to be her in his life.. " Akira explains Aman almost crying and why not? No one hears her..
" Akira you know very well how ASR is, for God sake forget her and don't make him remember also.. He really loves you.. " Aman hold Akira firmly trying to make understand the situation of ASR..
" He doesn't love me, if he loved he would let me wear the modern clothes I like, but no... He wants me to wear this salwar kameez just the way she used to wear.. Are you blind Aman? Can't you see he wants her? " Akira said getting out of Aman hold..
" No, he is just trying to forget her.. Now tell me if he doesn't love you, why did he saved your life, why does he care for you, why doesn't he let any man come near you, keep doing surprises for you.. If this isn't love, then what is this Akira?" Aman drank the water placed in the table in frustration now..
" He is only obsessed with me.." Akira said taking the salwar kameez Aman gave her..
Aman looked at the disappearing figure of Akira...
* ASR's cabin:
Dammit.. Now who placed this coffee here.
" Aman.. Aman.." I shouted calling Aman.. I know he will come here running..
" Yes ASR" Aman opened the door almost sweating.. I knew he ran to reach here..
" Throw the coffee away from here.. Don't you know I hate it?" I look frowning at him and at the same time confused, why Aman placed this coffee here, when he knows I never drink it now..
" Sorry ASR, actually it was for Akira, the servant left it here because she was with you here... Let me take it out.." oh it was for Akira..
" Is she angry now?" I asked Aman, hoping that she is not, otherwise it will be tough handling her..
" She will calm down" Aman answer me and I sigh, still angry...
Aman left the cabin, but this time I couldn't run away from my thoughts... This stupid coffee made me travel to my horrible past again..
Flashback..
2 years ago...
" Haan di, I'm fine don't worry.. I reached well..." I tried to console my Di, who was extra worried for me, as I came to Delhi to handle a project.. First time in India, but I wouldn't get lost here, I know very well how to handle myself in places I don't know about..
" Di I will do my work, then will find some restaurant to eat something okay.." I did my best to convince but she didn't hear me, at last I had to agree with what she wanted.. I looked around to spot some restaurant or something like that..
Humm coffee shop, not bad.. " Di I'm going to eat, don't eat my head now.." I said fuming in anger, because of her I had to go to this kind of normal coffee shop.. Instead of a five star restaurant..
It was so full of people, man.. I don't believe this.. No class at all.. I quickly sit in table at the corner and ordered a black coffee...
Waiting for a while, looking at people discussing about their daily lifes..
I turned rolling my eyes seeing the way they are speaking so loudly.. Do they want all of us to listen to their talks?
As I turned my attention went to a girl coming near my table..
She was counting the tables with the help of a stick..
" One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.. Yes.. Here is your coffee sir.." I didn't even realized when she reached to me and placed the coffee in my table... I was surprised..
" Khushi how many times I told you to sit inside, I'm here na I will do this... You don't have to take trouble.." another girl came near her patting her shoulders..
" Jiji how many times I have to tell you that I love helping you all? Just because I'm blind doesn't mean I can't do normal things. .. Right sir?
Now I was kind of shocked, she is so young and beautiful, I felt sad seeing her condition..
I quickly nodded to make her feel better.. Fool..she can't see you.. Talk something...
" Yes you're right.. Being blind doesn't stop you from doing the things we all do.." I said giving her a half-smile..
" Okay but be careful.." her sister seemed convinced and left her do this job..
" Enjoy your coffee sir..." she said smiling and went away..
She went leaving my heart restless now...
Flashback ends..
" No Arnav, you have to forget her once and for all..." I typed angrily at myself for getting lost in those memories again... I hate you Khushi.. I hate you...
" ASR your clients are here.." Aman comes in and I look at him nodding seriously...
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I'm inside my car looking at the house in front of me.. I breathe in and out, and got out of my car heading to this beautiful house..
Where my Akira lives, I rang the bell waiting for someone to open the door, I know her lovely mother would open it as usual..
" Hi aunty.." I greet her as she opened the door looking at me with a not so good smile, her husband must be home now.. I guess.
" Hi Arnav beta.. Come in.." she makes space for me to enter, indicating the way with her hands, sometime I think people are really fool, it's really not the first time I'm coming here, I know the way... Anyways let it be..
" What the hell are you doing here?" ohhh and I guessed right, Akira's father is really here.
" I came to see your daughter, not you.." I answer him as if challenging him..
" Akira is sleeping.. Get out of here.." he answers me angrily, if he wasn't Akira's father.. I swear I would give him a tight slap..
" Arnav what are you doing here?" Akira comes descending the stairs..
I go near her " This is for you" I handle her a bouquet of red roses..
" Thank you" she replies to me smiling..
I see her father sighing, then went back to his room and her mother went back to the kitchen...
" So.. Let's go out.." I said playing with her hair which is so soft..
Hair.. Soft hair.. Urghh I so much hate myself... Why do I keep thinking things related to her?
Flashback..
There was sound of laughter from a beautiful small house..
Although small, the people living inside had a big heart..
Khushi was sitting with her sister Payal..
" OMG I can't believe this.." Payal looked at the TV screen with big eyes..
" What happened jiji?" Khushi asked sipping her juice..
" You know that man that came in our coffee shop.. He is..he is the big business man, fashion king in London, he came here to handle a project.. I can't believe he came in our shop.. He is so rich, why would he come to our place??" Payal asked lost in her thoughts
" Really? Wow.. Fashion king.. " Khushi said smiling brightly, how she wishes to have such kind of lifestyle.. Being rich, so that her mother and Payal don't suffer everyday.. They have so much bills to pay, and she feels so bad that she can't help them as she is blind.. And no one accept her..
" Come to eat dears.." Garima called them..
The next day, Arnav went again to the coffee shop just to see Khushi, he really doesn't know what this girl made to him..
Aman, his PA was shocked seeing the place his boss also best friend chose to drink a coffee...
" ASR are you sure? Is this the place you came yesterday?" Aman said while wiping the sweat beads that were forming in his forehead..
" I'm sure... I don't suffer from amnesia Aman.." Arnav said while walking to the coffee shop, Aman came running behind him..
Arnav walked in and went to sit, Aman also settled himself ..
He didn't see anyone there except her sister..
" Where is she?" Arnav frowned muttering to himself..
Khushi came in with kids that were helping her climbing the stairs to enter the coffee shop...
" Thank you kids..." Khushi smiled..
" Didi you don't have to say thank you... You're the best..." the kids shouted happily..
Khushi knelt down: Now give me your sweet kisses..
Kids came running to kiss her, some started playing with her hair: Didi you have such a soft hair... I love playing with your hair...
Khushi started laughing and playing with the kids, she let them play with hair while chatting with the kids..
Arnav was lost looking at the sight in front of him, he also now wanted to play with her hair like the kids..
Flashback ends..
" Arnav where are you lost?" Akira said waving at me, and I came back to the present... I hate this present.. Can't I go back and live in the past itself? I swear if that was possible I would go..
I took Akira out of her house, and we headed to NK house, my friend he works with me in AR as a photographer.. I met him in college like Aman.. I must say both never left my side, they always support me..
" Arnav is Lav also there?" Akira asks me smiling, Lavanya her best friend and also work in AR, not my friend but is also in the group because she is NK's girlfriend...
" Hmm.. " I curtly replied..
We reached there... Aman, NK and Lav were already waiting for us..
" Thank god you both came.. I was going to sleep now.." NK said approaching me to hug me..
I reciprocated and sat near Aman while Akira went to talk with Lav..
Aman switched on the TV and we started watching the movie together.. I'm just looking at the screen, my attention isn't in the movie..
Akira comes to sit beside me resting her head on my chest, I wrapped my arms around her..
Suddenly her phone rings, I grabbed it from her hand and looked at the screen to see who is calling her... " Arjun?" I looked angrily at her..
" Who is he?" I ask her gritting my teeth..
" He is my friend, he works in AR.." Akira answers me normally as if she didn't do anything wrong..
" I said clearly for you that I don't like your closeness with boys.." I said looking at her in disbelief, seriously this girl just do things opposite of what I say, maybe that's why I let her be the woman of my life.. She is just like her.. Except her face and ways of dressing..Dammit.. Arnav forget Khushi..
" I can't live my life without friends, and by the way I work with men, so you can't except me to not be their friends.. You're seriously mad, if you ask me something like that.. Because even you talk with girls and I have no problem with that.." she said..
I look at her without any emotion, and she already knows who will lose his job tomorrow..
Akira looked away and continued watching the movie...
Khushi also used to stay angry with me like that, after making me hear her long lecture, she would look away cutely..
Tu safar mera..Hai tuhi meri manzil
Tere bina guzara ae dil hai mushkil,
(You're my journey...And you're my destination also
O my heart, It's hard to survive without you...)