I still remember
The day i fled to Germany
How relieved i have felt
Or lowkey gleeful
That i have left the love of my life behind
All those ridiculous feelings
Of love ,lust, and affection
The inconvenient ones
Shoved, locked in a chest
Dropped in the ocean
Somewhere,
my plane had flown over.

I still remember
the lust
Confusing feelings
Palpable heart
Beating fast whenever you're close.
the jealousy
Made me wanted to claw into your chest.

Thousand words of love
I have written
Or maybe more
Our fleeting glance
Grazing hands
Heated press of flesh
I always know you never return.

I still remember
How liberating it was
To flee
To bury the love i have had
In you
Thousand and thousand miles apart
Knowing it would never return
That we will never meet again
(If i'll be careful enough)
That years from now on, i would hear
That you have wife and kids
And i can
Bury the love i have into you
And free to carry on my life.

Knowing that my love is there
Just not returned
Somewhere in the depth of ocean
Lost
And would not be found.