Hola lovelies! Hope you all are doing fine?

So as i asked in previous chappy regarding problem or not... So i got no complaints and all are fine with other's stories till shivika are main lead in limelight except one person I'm heartily sorry dear but decision is made on voting majority.

Thank you everyone for comment's and votes ❤❤❤❤

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A girl is seen throwing away the things of her room in anger. She's not controllable by the boy standing and trying to stop him...

" You haven't done good shivaay. You gotta pay for this..." girl at last roared breaking the mirror and boy sighed

" ragini nothing will happen if you'll keep on ranting this and breaking my things " boy held her by shoulders and she galred him

"Shut up... Just shut up... I'm already so mad siddharth don't say" she pushed him and held his face

"Are you mad? You're of no use any more... I think i need to plant someone new" he pushed her and moved his jaw...

"what did you say? I'm of no use? I'm the one because of whom we've crore's to enjoy " she rebuked

"shut up. I planted you when there were just pari and rahul. And then only pari but you couldn't do anything and now gauri pari annika and he himself is awake..." he held her hair and pulled them...

"leave me sid... It's paining! Trust me, I'll make everything fine and will not get angry" she pleaded and he pushed her on bed

" you've a week to achieve the target ragini. I want everything to be done and successful too in just a week. I'll help you whenever  needed. Like I'll be available always..." he loosened his tie and she smirked

"okay, then i need your help now..." she said unbuttoning her shirt and he smirked

"you very welly know how to make my mood" he too unbuttoned his shirt and hoverd over her... Kissing wildly they ended up making out...

huffing and  panting they laid exhausted...

" you're always good on bed but lazy ass on the real  thing"

"yeah yeah..." she rolled her eyes

"sid, tell me honestly are you behind the death of Rahul?"

"have you lost it? I won't do murder in getting money ragz" he yelled

"even that wasn't murder" she got up from bed

"honestly speaking. Even i want to know the reason behind rahul's death" he pulled her back with the smirk

"not now... We gotta plan" she pushed him but he still entered her and...

Well leave them...

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~~~ A͓̽n͓̽n͓̽i͓̽k͓̽a͓̽'s͓̽ P͓̽O͓̽V͓̽~~~

I opened my drowsy eye's as i felt some wetness in my lower part... I had no strength to move even a bit... My head was heavy and eye's drowsy... I could feel the warmness of the bed and   its comforter... Again shivaay dropped me in my room as last time i was eating and then black out... Soon the wetness increased scaring me to the Core...

'no! bad phase started?' i shut my eye's tightly... I hate this phase more than anything... Unbearable pain... Everything is going to be bad now...

I gathered myself and removed the comforter... Fearing the wrost and that's exactly what i thought... My bed sheet is ruined with blood coming out from my lower part... Cursing it for some more time i stepped off the bed as again it bleed... I slowly walked to the door and locked it.
I seriously don't want anybody to see this scenario. As if someone is being killed here...

I rolled my eyes looking at ruined trouser and hoodie... Though it'll get cleaned but the scene and image is now imprinted...

Entering the washroom i turned on the tap... It never needs gizzard... Always hot af. Dubai and it's weather...

While tub fills up i threw my clothes in the basin... I've a habit to wash them in basin... And here this bleeding is increasing... I moved to the one cabinet in washroom only.

One thing i like most in this washroom is cabinet's... 'Shit!' i cursed myself for not buying any sanitary pads. 'only 1?' i rolled my eyes and placing that with a panty on the table  i cleaned myself... I freaking hate this time of month... I relaxed in the tub filled with warm water... Pain just started and this is relaxing it...

I never did this before... I just used to shower and then get back to work... But I've studied about it. Usually people takes a warm bath to ease the pain...
At first i wondered that this will end up getting more messy... Like blood will not stop and tub will turn into pool of blood. But further studying i got to know it doesn't bleed when we are in water... A good thing!!! I still remember the day. I first got them no one was at home... I closed my eye's... I know scenes will flash like anything now...

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It was Mondays night when her so called parent's went to party given by some relatives of them... Locking her in room they left so she doesn't run away...
7'th of August year was 2006. She was crying remembering her little small parties with her colony's friends... Soon she felt something flowing down from her private part and reaching till legs... She could feel it increasing...By each passing second... Slowly she went o washroom and  pulled down her pajama she was wearing to witness the most scariest thing of her life... She was bleeding... Not knowing what it really mean or why it's happening she panicked out... She shivering badly turned on the shower and cleaned it all... But still after few seconds blood flows down... She stood under shower but it didn't helped instead the pain on her abdomen increased with her back aching badly... A step more and she is dead. She felt like that only. Gathering some more power she draped in towel shivering like hell... Thinking it as her last day... She wanted to write it in her diary...After writing it in her diary she moved back to washroom (what she wrote in diary at that time... Refer to the chapter 'Diary' )

she stood under the shower which wasn't hot or warm water but ice like water... Greedy raichand's.

Not able to bear the pain and due to load of stress... Innocent koel-annika..of eleven and half... Fainted under the shower only...

Due to constant flow of water... Tank of water got empty and thankfully she got saved from the further torture of cold water... But she wasn't conscious...

In morning her mom entered the room after returning from party... But seeing her in blood on floor of washroom she got scared... Thinking someone killed her... But later on realised... She's adult now... A kid is adult? It's menstruation... She sprinkled water but she wasn't getting conscious...They called doctor and he suggested few injections... Giving  her that they made her fine to torture her... Explaining her little about menstruation she sent her to make dinner after getting clean and using pads!!!

And since then she's crying one week of every month with unbearable  pain and working like machine and later crying till sleep... Where even sleep is difficult...

~fℓαѕнвα¢к єи∂'ѕ...•

I opened my eye's feeling  the painful cramps... I've  tears in my eyes remembering the worst phase which I'm going to witness again...

Seeing the time i drained out the water and drying myself... Adjusting everything pulling on my dress a simple red till feet's anarkali type frok with red trouser... I avoid wearing other color's dresses in these day's... Who knows when it leaks... And in my case it's often!

Washing my clothes, bed sheet & comforter i opened the  door... I had no other bed sheet to cover bed with... I walked out of room when a girl Name... Yeah merry came to me

"mam I'm here to change bed sheet" she was having a trolley...

"yeah okay... I mean I've removed the sheet and washed it. It's in washroom. You can go and change..." i smiled

"but why did you washed it? It's my duty" she was shocked...

"see merry you know menstrual days... It was ruined. It's okay don't worry... It still needs to be wash perfectly in washing machine" i patted her shoulder and she smiled and moved to the bed...

I need to get some money from shivaay... I need to buy napkins...

I moved to living room and sat down on sofa...My abdomen and everything is paining like hell...

Jess came to me for asking about breakfast...

"jess do you've hot water pad? I need it" i just can't handle it... Here it's all available and I'm resting... But back there i used to work while dying... Sometimes i used to sit in a corner and hug my knee's wanted to turn so small that no one can see me and i can rest... I used to wind up much work before the date like heavy works as of washing clothes and pressing them cleaning full house but still they never let me rest...

I looked up coming out of thoughts as jess placed the hot water pad on my abdomen

"It'll get fine soon " she smiled...Only A girl knows about a girl... I smiled and felt relaxed... a lot relaxed... Supports  also play's important role in decreasing pain's...

" I'll get the breakfast..." she moved back without asking me what I'll  like to have...

I rested my head back tightly hugging the hot pad on my lower abdomen...

"Annika" his worried voice reached my ear's... I opened my eye's still with my head back and saw him standing on stairs... He was upside down... I smiled...

He walked to me and a frown formed on his temple...

"what happened? Are you fine?" he asked getting near me...

"yeah it's normal" i nodded and he sighed...

"Still" he looked at me not much but still worried...

"You know cycle of ladies ... Ughh" i gritted my teeth as got a cramp... He closed his eyes and breathed out...

"okay i understood..." he moved back little and got easy...

Soon breakfast was served and i got a cup of hot coffee... Boiled eggs and toast...

Relishing the hot soft boiled egg's and coffee  i felt relaxed and fresh too... But not for so long...

~~~S͓̽h͓̽i͓̽v͓̽a͓̽a͓̽y͓̽'s͓̽ P͓̽O͓̽V͓̽~~~

I woke up with a little headache... It's again getting usual these headache... Getting ready as quick as possible i went down. As I'm  already late...

What i saw scared Me... She was resting her head back but it seemed like she fainted...

I called her out and she opens her eyes... Sighing little i moved and got to know the reason... Perfect breakfast for her was served to her... She seemed relaxed but soon again dull... I can never understand the pain she or any other girl goes through in this week... But i can lessen it. I've heard from pari there are some ways to enlighten the mood of a girl on menstruation...

"Annika... Do you need something???" i asked getting her attention by placing my hand on hers...

"yeah!" First time she said yes i guess...

"tell me?" i asked with  a smile to not ruin her mood...

"money a little money..." she pouted... That's not a big thing at all... I smiled and placed the black card back on her hand which she  returned me yesterday...

"shivaay money not card. I need money not card" she seemed irritated

"fine... I pushed the card back in wallet and placed few Durham's on her hand... They'll be enough??" i asked her and she chuckled

"more than enough " she looks cute while smiling not in this dull state... I wish i could stop this pain of hers...

"Shivaay if i ask you something will you answer honestly?" she asked with her closed eyes

"Depends " i stood up

"are you regretting for hurting me? You're trying to repent?" she opened her eye's fixing on me she closed  her hand's as if gathering courage...

Answer to this question isn't formed yet. Yes I've  a little regret for punishing the wrong person... But not full. As it's still not confirmed that she's koel not  annika... I'm not repenting now. No!  Not at all... But i may repent once truth reveals completely and in her favour! But for now no. It's  a big NO!

But I'm  not in the mood of annoying  her or hurting  her...

"annika... Not now" my words had hidden meaning only if she catches it... It containes double answer... Not now as i don't want to talk to her about this... And  agaun not now as I'm not repenting now!!!

She nodded and i left to office...

Getting in my Mercedes Benz i started toward office ... I love to ride different car's everyday...

On the way i got call from pari...  Idiot...

"pari you got time to talk with me?" i shouted at her and she cried

"I'm sorry pari i didn't meant to hurt you" i apologized immediately

"shivaay dadiii..." she managed to speak little...

Shit. Her dadi was ill and was in critical condition...How i forgot...

"everything will get fine... Pari don't cry. She'll get fine" idiot me i know these lines only to comfort everyone.

"she passed away last night.-duffer" she stopped crying and added thar duffer in the end making me feel that I'm really the one... I'm telling her that she'll get fine while she's already dead...

"I'm sorry." i muttered

"koi nahi. I called you to tell you that I'm not coming for a week and half now" she sniffed

That's not right... Well no worries

" I'm coming there" i told her and  she immediately refused

"no. No need you stay there and I'll come there only. Dadi died yesterday night and in sometime they'll be taking her away for final rites... So it's better you don't come..." she explained with a point

"okay then take your best care pari... Don't cry a lot. She needs your prayers now not your tears. Now bye and take care" i smiled

"Ditto. Bye" she dropped the call...

I'm fearing now. Fearing for something wrost. As if everything is going to be upside down... The delay in everything is not good...

In these thoughts i reached office and started working...

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ιndιa,мυмвaι
oвeroι мanѕιon.

~~~O̥ͦm̥ͦ's̥ͦ P̥ͦO̥ͦV̥ͦ~~~

I opened my eye's heavy eye's... I drank a lot last night... I'm on the floor by the side of bed... I remember i was on call with shivaay before falling unconscious... Running my gaze over the picture's hanging down the ceiling in thread's i smiled... My love left me... But her memories never... i still remember the fragrance of her body... I can never forget her...

"Shut up Pinky" i heard that... Oh god their daily dramma started again... freshing up i went down locking my room... Everyone is gathered in hall as usual...

"Jeth ji..." choti maa shouted and i had  enough of their non-sense...

"can't you guys just shut up??? Everyday fighting on the same topic... Don't you all get bored?" i yelled

"and don't you get tired of taking bloody drugs?" dad held my collar

"same thing again" i freed myself and walked to the couch

"om how can you be so calm. You know why these fights happen " mom came to me...

"mom. What's there in fighting? You know no one is at fault" i cupped her face

"how can you say that O. You know bhaiya is at fault and choti maa is also supporting him" rudy roared

"Shut up. No one is at fault. Shivaay just married a girl named annika. We've no right to interfere in that matter... You all know annika raichand is the reason not anyother annika then why so much fuss?" i roared back

"but what if she's annika raichand?" dad interrupted

" i've hired detective's  to know about her. When it'll be cleared then we'll take action before that just shut up." i turned away

"and if at that  time too pinky support's shivaay then?" maa asked

"i trust choti maa she loved naina more than us" i turned to her "i know you'll only act as naina's mother at that time"

And in return she just hugged me...Everyone dispersed to their room's... I moved out of mansion...

Everyone is hurt with shivaay's step... What was the need to marry a girl named annika? He could've found another girl! But no! He had to marry the girl with name annika...
Choti maa is tired of fighting for no reason... Explaining again and again that shivaay is changed and hate raichand's but with a fear what if girl turns out to be the same who turned our world upside down... I really wish she's not the one otherwise we don't know if we'll ever be able to forgive shivaay...

I still remember how much mad he turned when we completely abandoned him... For Sake of dadi and his constant apologies we forgave him. Gave him the chance to repent his mistakes...

Reaching beach i sat on the sand relaxing myself... Staring at shores  i can see the past of us... Us four... Me shivaay naina and rudra... And unfortunately annika...
We used to play here too in that sea Side... Making sand castle's... All the fucking memories are painful just because of annika... If annika wasn't our friend then we would've been so happy... To gather forever...

To Be Continued...

I'm thinking to start showing the past of everyone within flashbacks or one telling other...

I'll be posting another post for chit chat with me and characters... As soon we reach 3k votes on book. There you'll ask what ever you want to...

And after the little revealing of past I'll be posting pics of characters... All characters... And little bit information tooo... To make it clear...

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