Few days later :-

Riddhima will be having back to back important surgeries today for which she will be tensed.

She is tensed not only because of that but also for she needs to talk to Sid after the surgery. She thinks that she just cannot live her life like this because it is not going anywhere and nobody is happy. She need to talk to him and take decisions.

On the other hand Sid is also preparing himself to talk to riddhima. He loves her and want to keep her happy. For this he needed to talk to her first as they cannot spend their whole life just like this. He thinks to talk to her after her surgery.

Shashank also was worried for them as he doesn't understand till when their lives will go on like this. He wants her to be happy and he knows what and who makes her happy. He decided to have a talk with her.

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Sid wants to talk to riddhima and so goes on search for her but he collides with Shashank. He apologizes to Shashank who says that they needed to talk but along with riddhima and so they proceed towards riddhima.

Riddhima finishes her surgery and comes to the locker room to look for sid. But she hears some voices from locker room and stops in her tracks.

" Didi Armaan bhaiya kaha hai? " A kid from children's ward asks.

" Umm....... Armaan ab yaha nahi hai , Kyaa Kaam hai Aapko unse?" Shilpa asks the kid.

" I am going back to orphanage ,so I want to return this handicam back to him but before that I want a copy of all the videos in it to a CD so I want to ask him as he promised me to help me" that kid replies feeling disappointed.

" Ohh......don't worry I will help you to copy the contents and I will give his cam back to him.....ok?" Shilpa says and that kid nods happily.

Riddhima comes there and hands her laptop to Shilpa which she is carrying for some cases and surgery details to help them to copy the videos. Shilpa took it and starts her work by copying videos one by one. At one point she looks at a video with familiar face in it and plays it.

Riddhima comes to see the video listening to the familiar voices in it and at that time only Shashank and Sid also arrives to meet riddhima. All of them start to see the video curiously.

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( This video contains the conversation between Armaan and Rahul which is written in italics).

" Armaan, what are you doing here?" Rahul asks walking to the place where armaan is standing in the garden looking up at the sky.

" N.Nothing" saying this armaan hides a paper with his hand on his back.

Seeing Armaan and hearing his voice makes Riddhima emotional and automatically tears form in her eyes.

" Tum mujhse kuch chupa rahe ho?" Rahul asks and Armaan nods in no.

" Armaan show me what are you hiding? Armaan......" Rahul warns him.

" Rahul kuch nahi hai bas......kuch important nahi" armaan says unsure.

" Armaan tumhe Kya lagta hai ki mein tum pe yakeen karoonga? Jo kuch bhi hua hai uske baad mein tumhaare matters mein koi risk nahi le sakta " Rahul says and snatches the paper from his back for which armaan sighs.

Rahul reads the paper and looks at him shocked.

" Are you resigning? " Rahul asks him and Armaan nods looking down.

Riddhima stood rooted seeing the scene in front of her and so everyone. Shilpa sends away the kid to his ward and turns her attention to the video. While keerthi also comes there and stops seeing the video.

" Tumne Kya soch ke yeh faisla liya hai armaan? Tum aisa nahi jaa sakte ho?kis se baag rahe ho tum? Tum itna jaldi haar maan Gayya ho Kya? Kyun armaan kyun? Jis armaan ko mein jaanta Hoon woh itna jaldi haar nahi maan sakta,woh ladta tha apna pyaar ke liye, uss ke liye apne pyaar se bad Kar aur kuch bhi nahi hai. " Rahul finishes and looks at armaan whose eyes are bloodshot red.

And the next words that came from Armaan's mouth broke Riddhima,tore her heart apart and shattered into pieces.

" Mein ab woh Armaan nahi Raha. Nahi Raha mein woh Armaan. Woh armaan usi din mar chuka tha jis din use pata Chala ki uska pyaar kisi aur ki biwi hai" armaan shouts at Rahul and Rahul stays calm as he thought armaan should let out all his grief in his heart.

" Takh Gaya mein Rahul takh Gaya Hoon mein ladte ladte. Har cheez ke liye ladte ladte takh Gaya Hoon mein."
Armaan pauses and falls on his kneels while Rahul also sits on his knees listening to him.

"Kya kaha tumne ki mein haar maan Gaya Hoon,apne pyaar ke liye lad nahi Raha hoon. Yahi kaha na tumne?.........
Sach toh yahi hai ki jab se mein sanjeevani mein aaya Hoon tab se lad hi Raha Hoon.
........kabhi apne feelings se, kabhi apni pyaar ko chupaane ke liye, kabhi apni pyaar ko paane ke liye, kabhi apne pyaar ko manaane ke liye,kabhi apne pyaar ko haasil Karne ke liye,kabhi apni pyaar ki Jeet ke liye, kabhi apne pyaar ko bachaane ke liye.........hamesha se yahi toh karte aaya hoon. Maine hamesha Jo bhi Kiya hai Dil se kiya hai, apni pyaar ki kushi ke liye Kiya hai.
........par ab woh pyaar hi nahi Raha hai toh kiske liye ladu mein?
Mein takh chuka Hoon Rahul ab mujhse aur nahi hoga."
Armaan says with tears flowing from his eyes and Rahul stays calm.

Riddhima will be crying continuously.
Seeing armaan crying like that results her in more crying.

" Pata hai Rahul Mera sab se bada galthi Kya tha ? Mera waapas aana.
Mujhe kabhi waapas aana hi nahi chahiyeh tha. Mujhe teek  hona hi nahi chahiyeh tha. Aise hi bheemaar rah ke marna chahiyeh tha mujhe ,Kam se Kam riddhima toh khush rahti na.
Pata hai mera pyaar aur mein sab ke liye ek tamaasha ban ke rah Gaya tha,tamaasha bana ke rakh Diya mere pyaar ka. Aur pata hai mere pyaar ko gaali bhi Diya Gaya hai yeh kehke ki mein doosron ki biwi cheen ne ke liye aaya hoon. Mein chup Raha hamesha sirf Riddhima ke liye kyun ki mein........ mein usse aur takleef nahi de sakta ,woh pehle bhi bahut kuch sah chuki hai mere vajah se. Ab aur nahi.......aur nahi.........
" Armaan pauses unable to talk because of crying and tears spills out of Rahul's eyes also.

At this point riddhima falls on her knees sobbing and everyone stood there silently listening to their conversation.

" Aisa kyun keh Raha mere Bhai? Tumhe kuch hota toh koi kush nahi rahta. Riddhima bardaash hi nahi karpaayegi agar tujhe kuch hota toh. Aur tum apne pyaar ko paane ke liye waapas aaya tha aur kuch nahi, tumne koi galti nahi Kiya hai armaan" Rahul tries to calm him.

" Nahi Rahul mujhe waapas aana hi nahi chahiyeh tha kyun ki Riddhima ne mere Bina jeena seekh liya tha. Mujhe teek nahi hona chahiyeh tha kyun ki mujhe waapas aathe dekh Kar Riddhima khush nahi thi. Mein waapas aake uski life mein problem ban Gaya Hoon. Mera waapas aane se uske life mein dard aur aasoon waapas as Gaye hai,uske life mein problems bad gayye hai. Mere Bina jee rahi thi woh, mere Bina kush thi woh aur Maine waapas uski life mein aake sab kharaab Kar Diya ." Armaan says while crying on Rahul's shoulders.

Riddhima stiffens at his words which pierced her heart and went numb but tears flows from her eyes. Even Shilpa,keerthi and Shashank also will be crying now. Sid stood there calmly with sad JP and jiggy beside him.

" Isi liye Chala jaa Raha tu?" Rahul asks after sometime.

" Hmm. Although I am behaving as I am alright and act as being happy but inside I am dying thousand times daily. I cannot see her with anyone else. I cannot bear thinking that she is not mine anymore. I cannot be here everyday acting like normal as nothing has happened. I cannot do this anymore. I don't understand why I am still here after everything has happened maybe there was some hope in me that she will come back to me but now there is no hope. My hopes,my life,my wishes,my happiness everything has died now and I cannot be here anymore and become an obstacle in her life." Armaan says standing up with Rahul.

"Did you talk about this to riddhima?" Rahul asks him.

" There is nothing left to talk between us. Before we were one but now we are two different people living two different lives. Aur Kya bataaungi mein usse ki mein sanjeevani chod Kar jaa Raha Hoon phir se ? Kya karegi woh. Mein maanta Hoon ki use Meri fikar hoti hai par zyaada kuch farak nahi padega kyun ki already usne Mera Bina jeena seekh liya tha aur ab Meri baari hai uske Bina jeena seekhna." Armaan says with tears looking away.

" Par armaan......Kya yeh sahi hai, aisa karna? " Rahul asks unsure.

" Kya sahi hai Kya galat hum Kya jaante hai rahul. Par mujhe lagta hai yahi sahi hai. Mujhe bahut pehle jaana chahiyeh tha kyun ki yaha rahke mein sirf apne pyaar ka tamaasha bante hue dekha, par ab mein apne pyaar ka aur insult nahi Kar sakta. Infact mujhe bahut pehle karna chahiyeh tha yeh already late ho gayi hai. Shaayad yahi sahi hai riddhima ke liye aur mere liye." Armaan says rubbing his face which is wet with tears.

" So is this your final decision?" Rahul asks and Armaan nods looking away.

" When are you resigning?" Rahul asks

" Day after tomorrow after this conference is over and I don't want you to tell this to anyone " armaan says to Rahul who nods and hugs him.

" But I want a promise from you"

" What?"

" I want you to promise me that you will inform us wherever you are going after resigning and you will be updating us about your well being from time to time. And most importantly you will not disappear like before" Rahul asks him to promise and he promises him by hugging him with tears in both of their eyes.

Armaan turns to the kids playing in the garden and says them to get back to their ward. Armaan goes along with them and Rahul stood there only looking at him.

" What are you doing here?" Rahul asks Muskaan who looks at him with tears.

" Have you seen everything?" He asks and she nods with tears.

" Ok......don't say to anyone about this and don't ask anything to armaan about this ,he will not like you seeing him in that state.....ok?" Rahul says to her.

" Is there something we could do for them?" Muskaan asks with hope.

" No Muskaan,there is nothing we could do. Armaan has taken his decision already and he will not go against it." Rahul says sadly to her.

" Maybe I should talk to ridzy once" Muskaan says looking down.

" Ok talk but don't tell her anything about today. Hope everything will be ok." Rahul says looking up at the sky.

" Yeah. Maybe. Oh! God please make everything like before all together and happy" Muskaan prays to God looking up at the sky.

( Video ends here)

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Riddhima will be just sitting down staring at the blank screen with puffy red eyes,nose and face.

Shilpa tries to call her but she was numb, reaction less and distraught.

" Di..... Di aap teek toh hai?" Shilpa asks her shaking her shoulders.

Riddhima looks up at her concerned face and gets up. She turns and walks out slowly to be alone for sometime.

" Riddhima......"

" Wait......."

" Di....."

" RIDDHIMA"

She will be not in a position to hear or respond to anything,she just walks in a daze while crying. Every word armaan said and every memory they had kept repeating in her mind.

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To be continued...........

This chapter is so emotional that I cried so much while writing this.

This chapter explains about how Armaan felt since he came back to sanjeevani but never showed anything to anyone.

I just added a video of AR in the media box on the top from DMG to show their feelings.

Comment on this so I can know how you all felt about Armaan's feelings.

Love AR.