dec. 14th, 2020

the places that were once lively and full of energy feel hollow these days. people flit past each other like parallel lines, never to meet again. life goes on. it always does.

but still... things weren't always like this. people had hopes and ambitions. plans for the future. goals they wished to achieve. but now, it just feels like all we can do is survive.

to live each day as if it's our last in this uncertain world of ours. to cling to the few connections we have and hope that what we're doing is enough to keep us afloat.

community, as we knew it, may be gone but for the ones who truly care, we've found new ways to connect. even if it means catching up weeks later. drifting apart but always finding our way back to each other.

it takes something big to make you question your life and maybe this is our generation's chance to take a step back and reflect. to question if this is how we want to spend our lives. to make new plans and find our way.

maybe the emptiness is necessary. to allow us to step away from technology and internet forums. to focus on ourselves, for once, instead of what everyone online is talking about. to stop comparing to others. to stop caring what other people think.

and from the destruction, i hope, that like others around me, i can grow again. that i can use this time and space to become a better version of myself. to bring life to the parts of me that i thought were dead.

renewal takes time and i've only just begun.