Isn't that true?

Whenever I do something, sometimes I have feelings at randomly some how it get there, sometimes I have crush but I don't seem myself, each time when I go some social media, lot people usually ship each other and it kinda disappointed me, I can't say who, cuz I don't wanna blame each other, sometimes I feel asexual or bisexual again, I get so so confused, I have nothing to do about it, sometimes whenever I go scroll down my old posts, and it brings back to memories how I was happy for, being bisexual, but until I don't know somehow, people get tired of me for being annoying, I get it, many people do that, either my family too, they don't seem happy to spend time with me, each time when I always check on them, they don't seem happy whenever I'm here, it kinda hurts, I have no one besides my mom, me and my best friends have stop talking, I don't feel like talking cuz my nonsense, even though I tried my best to keep it up but they usually left me behind, I feel like I don't have any friends, I don't know what happening to me, I kept changing lot, it won't be same, no wonder why I always stay in my room being so quiet, and yes I'm feeling like I'm having bad day, I felt stress, why I am always seem not happy anymore, usually people made my day better and put smile on my face, I understand that my family doesn't like me cuz I'm half deaf, which right ear is, sometimes I have to deal the trauma that is I can't remember exactly what happened before, it always eased it, I always try to move on but something is pulling me back down... I'm still not proud of myself, I always crying every day. Like never stop.. Lot things is bad happening, if you have heard blue whale is bad thing to do, they wanted you to accept the challenge to commit suicide, and I don't want any of you accept that challenge, lot people is doing that, I've been seeing it everywhere on Instagram.