Its 6 a.m., and the weather is freaking cold. Its snow, and getting worst since last night. I wear so many layers of sweater, to prevent me to catch some cold, but for my bad, I already got cough.

Cough. Cough.

See, it already introduce itself.

I am shivering walking toward the main gate, whistling to forget how the cold weather nearly killing me. Head spinning and coughing so hard. Hyungs and noonas scolding me for my habit to come to this place every morning even after I got typhus.

Everyone scold me for not taking care of myself. Lacking on eat and sleep. I don't even gave much attention to sleep and eat lately. All I can think was, only her.

Some girls walk pass me, looking at me in a very sad eyes but I don't need their pity. So I put on mask and put on my bucket hat to hide my expression. I sigh when I see her door. I almost there.

Its already the 100th days.

And I hope her heart slowly melted like a hard stone cracked by the water. I wont stop.

I reach the door step, step to the front and touch the door with my left hand. I really miss to entering this place. I touch the texture of the wood and then sniffing on it like an idiot but I just hope that I can smell her scent from here. I miss her.

The pain reaching my heart again and I shake my head, I cant break down. She likes a hero, a strong man, a dependable man.

I cant be weak.

Take a step back I put the Lilies on the carpet, smiling at the thought of her taking it. Finally. She save the flower he gave. Touching the little yellow card tagged on the flower, then I standing up.

And right at the same time my face reaching its usual height, the door suddenly opened. Make me freeze and shocked.

Did I miss her?

Why I feel like my heart squeezed when I see her eyes right now, brown and warm like a hot chocolate in the rainy day.

She stand there while looking at me, emotionless and then looking at the flower on the carpet.

I was expecting her to shoo me away, but she bend down to take the flower and turning around to entering her room, and its enough for me.

Or not.

"Wont you come in?" She spoke from the inside make my stomach churn in a strange way. The butterflies just bombarding my system make me stand there like a lost rabbit. She look at me from inside her room while holding the door wide open.

Please, talk Jeon Jungkook. Don't act freak.

"Yes?" I dumbfoundedly saying the words as I want to slap my face.

"Its cold outside." She then responded and then leaving inside her room while the door still wide open.

She wont ask for break up right?

"Here." She said and hand me a mug of hot chocolate after I let my self comfortable sitting on her sofa. The room filled with her scent, filling my nostril like a fucking oxygen. I took the mug and tasting the chocolate.

Its really god and my body relaxing a bit.

I was expecting her to talk again, waiting for her intro but we end up drinking in silence with her watching the tv without even disturbing by my existence. So I make a move.

"Doll." I said and I correct it quickly afraid that she will be mad. "I mean Lisa." And it makes her turning her gaze completely on me.

"Thank you for-" letting me in. "For the chocolate." She nods and then back to the tv while running man played. "Ehem..." I clear my throat to take her attention back and she look at me again with a questioning look. "I am sorry, Lalice."

"For what?" She asked and I really missed her voice, I just realized it now. "To who?"

"For everything." I said scratching my nape shyly. "For my womanizer inner self. I- I can explain everything had happen the night when I was with-" she frowns waiting. "Her."

"Like I said." She then put the remote on the table in front of us. "Its okay. I don't mind it. I used to it." She then easily squeeze my heart. "Its not like I am someone important for you."

"You are." I cut her words. "You will always be the most important person to me." And she chuckled. And fuck, I just want to kiss her. How dare she chuckled when I am on my edge.

"Right." She snort. "And fortunately its over." No.

"I never break up on you."

"But I did." She then sternly said reaching for the chocolate bar on the table. "And thank you, I am being healthy by visiting my therapist weekly." She mocked.

"I don't know that you are-"

"Its not important if I had issue about the things or not." She said munching on her chocolate make stain on her lips. I wanna lick it. "Even if I have no issue, its not how a gentleman treat their lady." She looks at my eyes. "Oh I forget something, you are still a boy, who pretend to be a man."

"Lisa, what should I do to make you forgive me? I will do it. I promise you."

"Its funny how I count every words coming from your mouth as a bullshit." She giggled. "Trash."

"Please."

"You know, drink the chocolate quickly and put the mug on table and please leave."

"Lisa I mean it. I-"

"And stop tailing me, stop hoping because I have nothing for you, stop send me those disgusting flower. Stop looking for me. Even if its not your intention to meet me, one day when we meet please just please let me living as a stranger."

"No."

"Stop chasing a woman like me. Because we will hurt each other. We wont ever make it. Please, erase me. Please, hate this nun."

"How can I do that?" He then shouts loudly make her stopping her words. He looks so emotional and she hates it. She hates to see his eyes glistening with tears, she hates the trembling lips of him every time he nervous, she hates to make him this way.

"I do want to leave you living a peaceful life. I really do. But I cant." He states again. "I am sorry that I am being such an egoist bastard, you can ask me anything but don't leave me. Don't leave me please. I don't think I can be sobber if you leave." He then reaches for her hand and took it quickly.

And she on the other hand still had shocked face forcefully buried inside his hug. How she miss it.

"I don't know how to unlove you after I learn to love you." He desperately said, his hand slowly down to her hips, where he usually put it every time they hug. "Please forgive me. I will be a good guy for you."

"You are a liar." She spoke but circling her hand on his hips too make the boy smiling while crying.

"I know."

"You are a jerk."

"Exactly."

"Bastard."

"That's me."

"I hate you, Jeon." She then pressing her face on his hard chest.

"I love you too, doll." He then releasing her from the hug to look at her face, her eyes, cheeks, nose and those freaking delicious lips.

"So we make up, huh?" He asked caressing her cheeks. And then pressing his thumb on her lips. The said girl playfully sucking on his thumb with a piercing look make him gasp and turn on. "Can I kiss you?" He asked cupping her face before crashing their lips without her permission but she gave in as soon as he kiss her open mouthed, warm, wet, hungry and including tongue trusting.

"Eummmm." She moans when his hand groping her ass before sliding up for her hips again.

"Just to make sure, do you have class?" He was alarming her, praying that she will say no. But she nods.

"But they can wait." She hungrily kiss him again make them laying flat on the sofa.

"Fuck, doll." He cursed when she positioning herself on too of him, grinding their crouch with such an innocent look. She them humped. She is hungry. "Slowly. Fuck you gonna make me cum like this baby." He protested and then in a mere of second he switch their position, him on top now.

"You know what you just start right?" He looks at her with his dark stare and she smiles, a naughty kind of smile. "I am glad you know. Tell me if you want me to stop." He assures and she hungrily attacking her lips on him again make him chuckled.

Their kiss are sloppy, too sloppy because they were both too busy to smile, too happy because they can feel each other existence again.

Only this time.
Only this time.
Forgive me, Yuqi.

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"Hey girls." Greet Jisoo happily earning some stares of peoples among them. Its not secret that the four of them aren't get along together anymore. But today, Jisoo being clueless bitch, dragging Lisa to eat with them.

Rosé seems fine even thought she looks a little nervous and don't ask about Jennie. She looks like ready to kill Lisa.

"I have invitation for my birthday. You should come. No but." She pointed at the two girls while smiling. Giving them the invitation card.

"You never use invitation card, a lame bitch." Jennie snort mocking at how Jisoo trick them to gather along together today.

"You are an old school, Jisoo unnie." Rosé chuckled.

"Only Lisa know my feeling." She then faking her cry while hugging Lisa make Jennie for a bit smiling and Rosé chuckled. For a while, it seems that they never had war.

"I told you, its old fashioned." Lisa then attacking Jisoo make the girl release the hug immediately and beat her head.

"Bad girl." Then they all chuckled. It feels right.

"How's your health?" Rosé opened their conversation. Lisa was ready to answer when the boys coming to the cafeteria, earning all of the attention including  from the girls.

"What's with Jungkook?" Immediately Jennie ask when she sees a bright smile from Jungkook flashing like a light.

"Don't know." And there is Jisoo doesn't give a fuck make Jennie cursed under her breath.

"Fuck." Cursed Rosé when Jungkook looking at their direction and make a move. Looking at Lisa worriedly, afraid that Lisa will spit her venom when she sees Jungkook approaching them.

Lisa was playing with her phone when Jungkook arrived by her side and then without saying anything he pecks her cheeks. The three of them was shocked, while Lisa only sighing in desperation.

She hates PDA.

"Good morning, doll." He greets with his signature bunny smile before caressing her hair gently.

"What the fuck!"