Okay yeah I need to vent.
If you don't care, don't read. Simple as that.

All my life, I've been a giver.
I take joy out of seeing others happy, I live for other people, and spoiling my best friend is just fun to me. I absolutely love to see other people being happy.
But it comes with a cost.
People other than myself tell me all the time that living for others isn't good, that I have to live for myself. That I'm important, too, and that I should be taking care of myself. People say that taking care of myself will make me happy.
But guys...it really doesn't. If I only feel concerned for myself, I don't feel happy. I feel guilty.
I feel like I have to devote my life to others, so that's what I do. Is it really that bad to do what I do...?
I don't feel like it is, so I want to continue doing it. I would much rather have nothing and see my friends happy than care about myself.

I'm just confused at this point. What am I supposed to feel?

~Aly