*Chasity's P.O.V.*

"You can't just leave without telling us why..." Pete said to me.

We're all at the recording studio and everyone is pissed. First, because of Patrick's actions in welcoming Winona to his house like she had done nothing to him and second because of me because I said I'm leaving the band.

"I told you...the reason is too personal!" I said.

"Chase, we can't just find another drummer and you've become a part of us too. You can't just leave," Joe said.

I don't want to...but I have no freaking choice anymore. I need to stop lying to them and move on from my feelings for Patrick and I can't do that if I stay.

"No! You're not leaving till you tell us why." Pete said and he's the one who's really pissed now. "And you! What happened to you?" He bellowed to Patrick.

"What's your problem?! I just forgave the girl, deal with it," Patrick answered, but it seems like he's also pushing himself to say that.

"You're fucking insane." I murmured. I was really angry with that decision of his. The moment I saw Winona, I knew she's not done fucking with Patrick's feelings. I know it and I can feel it! "I'm going," I said while I stand up.

I began to walk away and silence emerge between us.

"Maybe! Maybe I am...but I think that's a lot better than slowly finding out that I'm liking you more than a guy should like a guy! It's confusing as fuck, Chase! And I think this is the only way I could fix myself." He said and I felt like our breaths left our bodies.

I stared at Patrick as he walked out of the room. He said it...in front of me and the guys. He did admit it now and I know it wasn't a good thing. He's really liking me, even if I'm a guy. I really messed him up and I think I was the reason why he forgave Winona...why he's on to her again.

It's my fault.

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I haven't seen the guys for two weeks. It was a good thing we're on break now...I know we're all messed up.

I have no idea about what's happening to them, especially to Patrick. The others at least text me once in a while, but I got nothing from Patrick. Maybe he's really desperate to forget his feelings for me now.

I haven't left my apartment since that day. It's not that I'm acting dramatic and all, but I just have to be alone for a while. And now that someone is ringing my doorbell, this will be the only time I'll be opening that door.

"Chris?" I was shocked to see my brother out there.

"Chasity." He said and hugged me immediately.

I don't know what happened, but I cried like a little girl on my brother's chest. We went inside the house and my brother went super brother mode.

"I told you, you should have just come back. Let's go home, Chasity." He said and I find myself shaking my head no. "Sshh. Fine, I won't leave you here till you're okay again. Okay, little sis?" He said and I'm just thankful that I have a brother like him.

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Another three days have past and it got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. This time I'm really desperate to tell Patrick who I really am, I don't care what he'll say. Besides, its all messed up now.

"Where are you going, Chasity?" My brother asked me.

"Patrick's...telling him everything so I can go home. I had enough." I said and smiled slightly at him.

"I should go with you."

"No, I'll be fine, promise. I won't take long. Bye, bro." I said and head out.

I hopped on my motorcycle. I looked at the mirror for a while, trying to think how will I make him believe that I'm a girl. I let out a sigh...I really did make a big mess out of lying.

I started to drive towards his house, wishing that Winona isn't there anymore. I don't want to see that girl again.

I pulled over in front of his house and walked to his porch. I was about to ring the doorbell, but suddenly I heard shouts inside. I tried turning the knob and thankfully it opened. I sneaked in inside, it turns out to be that Winona is talking to someone on the phone in the kitchen. I pulled out my phone and started recording the conversation.

"Winona! What the fuck is taking you so long?! Why hadn't he fucked you yet. You have to make him believe that that baby inside you right now is his!" I heard...it was coming out from a phone.

"I know! The fucking guy is not giving in!" I heard Winona and right that moment I wanted to bitch slap her. "But I have another plan. I just found out that he's fucking in love with that drummer. He admitted it to me and I have it recorded on my phone." She said

"You bitch!" I came out of my hiding place and said that with my girl voice. Winona looked at me with full curiosity on her face. "I knew you're just going to fuck him up again!" I said with disgust as I walked towards her.

"Winona who's that?!" I heard the guy said on the phone.

"It's Chase...their drummer. He is...

"Babe! Chase is a guy, how come he has a girl's voice...

"Surprise, motherfucker. I'm a girl!" I said with a smirk. I snatched the phone from her hand and threw it hard on the ground and it broke into pieces. "I recorded your conversation with that fucking guy! You don't deserve Patrick's forgiveness!" I shouted with my girl voice. I had enough hiding now, most especially to this girl. 

"Y-You're a g-girl?" he asked dumbfounded.

"Yes! I'm a girl! I lied to them, saying I'm a guy to get in the band. Since then I've lived under this identity. Go on! Tell the world that Patrick is in love with the band drummer! There's no problem with that...most especially if they found out I'm a girl! It'll be a perfectly weird love story for all." I explained. "But I think what I did was a lot lighter compared to what you'll do with Patrick...make him believe that he had a baby with you even the father of that child is not him?! You fucking disgust me!"

"C-Chase?" I suddenly heard Patrick's voice.

I looked back and I found the four of them staring straight at me, disbelief and shock were on their eyes. This is it. They finally found out now...no more lying and no more hiding. But I'll make sure that before I go...Winona will be out of Patrick's life for good.

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*Patrick's P.O.V.*

I can't believe I let Winona stay at my house. We've been living together for two weeks now and I currently realizing what Chase doesn't want to happen.

Winona's acting like she hasn't done anything to me last three weeks...like we're okay and we're together. It goes to the point where I get irritated, there were times when she just jumps on me and does things to me. I tried talking to her, but it was no use. I also tried loving her again...but again it was no use. My mind is still racing about Chase.

I miss the guy so much, but I was trying not to talk to him. I thought this will help me to eliminate my feelings for him, but no. It's only making it worse. I have no idea how he is now, or if he's still angry with me -- well, I bet he still is.

"Patrick!" Winona suddenly jumped on me again, sitting on my lap.

"Winona, please. Leave me alone. The other side of the couch is unoccupied, can't you just sit there." I said trying to gently push her away.

"Oh come on, Trick."

"Winona, we have nothing now. We're just friends so stop acting like I'll make out with you any moment." I said harshly to her. Winona stood up in front of him.

"What's with you? I did everything so you could forgive and forget what had happened. Don't you love me anymore?" she asked and I grunted. I'm sure I don't anymore.

"Why are you asking me things like that? You fucking cheated! Are you really thinking that your sorry will make everything okay?" I told her. "I only accepted you here because I was frustrated and confused when you came here. I thought you could fix me, but I realized that you were the one who kept on breaking me and I know you won't stop! He's right...Chase is right about you."

"What did that guy had done to you? You always talk about him, you always ask him to Pete and to anyone. It's like you're in love with the guy!" she said irritably.

"What if I really am?"  I murmured silently and Winona looked at me like I admitted killing someone.

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"Yes! I'm a girl! I lied to them, saying I'm a guy to get in the band. Since then I've lived under this identity. Go on! Tell the world that Patrick is in love with the band drummer! There's no problem with that...most especially if they found out I'm a girl! It'll be a perfectly weird love story for all." 

I don't know what I'm currently feeling right now. My head is being blown with all this information. I was shocked, angry, broken and feeling betrayed.

"Y-you're a girl?" is the only thing I could say.

"Patrick...I...y-yes. I'm a g-girl." she said silently.

"WHY?! You said you wouldn't lie to me...to us! But turns out to be the whole you is a fucking lie!"

"Patrick...I was...I was desperate back then, I need to get in your band."

"For what? So you can take advantage of us? You know what! Fuck it, then. YOU'RE AS WORSE AS HER! No, you're the worst! You're a user...nothing but a user!" 

I was so angry...not to Winona, but to Chase. I never expected myself to be as angry as like this. I never meant to say those things, but the guy -- no, the girl fucking messed me up. I thought I was in love with a guy...and then he'll tell me he's a girl. And all this time, she lied to us right from the start! I felt so used and taken advantage for, and I hate it.

"Leave the band...leave us alone! I can never forgive you for lying to us." I said while gritting my teeth. "That goes for you too!" he said to Winona. "Get yourselves out of my house, right now!"

I was left alone after that, I thought this cleared everything in my mind, but this situation feels like it took my feels and then filled me up with a lot of fucking novocaine and now I'm just numb.