I tried to love others. 
I really did. 
I tried not to see you 
In every action they attempted, 
In every smile they flashed, 
In every syllable of love they sang, 
But all I could picture was you. 

I scared them with the affection 
I had reserved for you, 
Filling the jar with too much water
Until it commenced spilling out, 
And they backed away from me, 
Leaving me be — 
With my solitude and my overflowing affection. 
Would you be overwhelmed, too, 
If I showered you with the love I have for you? 

I don’t wish to fall in love again; 
All it has done is momentarily 
Make me feel like I was ascending toward heaven, 
And then it pushed me down to hell; 
It gave me a flimsy page of a word called ‘forever’,
And when I penned a book about it, 
It got torn into two halves. 
I don’t need this false reassurance — 
If hopeless, I remain, 
Would it take away the heartache? 

Yet, my love for you aches me 
In every part of my body. 
Can you kiss the pain away?
My devotion to you is the sole reason for my existence,
And there is no second hypothesis. 
Can you teach me how to live again? 
The adoration I harbor for you 
Is breaking me down into a thousand pieces. 
Can you make me not love you anymore? 

I have always cried in hopes of returning home,
Which never was. 
Now, it is — in you. 
And if you wish me luck 
To find contentment in someone else’s nest, 
How would I survive 
In a place so foreign? 
You are my home, love,  
Where else would I go? 

- Udeesha

(a/n: ah, the dose of deluluness that we missed)