Note: I have committed a mistake and being an amateur learning I was always expected to do it! I'll be happy if you people consider it. In the previous chapter I had written what Omkara felt for Ishana was just infatuation but then one of my readers who is just like a sister to me made me realise that a person gets attached and starts loving even pets or animals when living with them! Then ishana was a human being therefore her importance in the life of Omkara was and will always be important though Gauri remains his love... So I just removed the infatuation line because it would be injustice to the character of ishana! I'm sorry for the blunder please do try to consider it as I never realised or though it to be that way! Thank you so much jiji for the correction ❤

Gauri : Omkara...ye aap..itni aasani se keh diya aapne sab kuch , hum inn sab ke layak nhn hai hum to insaan kehane ke layak bhi nhn hai , humne uske liye bura socha...iss pachtave main hum aage badhne ka kabhi soch bhi nhn sakte hai Omkara...Jiji thi wo humari...itne saalon baad mili thi aur humne kya kiya....apne pagalpan.. Apne junoon apni zid ke chalte......
(how easily have you said all of it? But I know I don't deserve all of it, I don't even deserve to be called a human! I can't think to move on, she was my sister and I had met her after so many years, but I let everything fail due to my madness and stubbornness!)

Chod dijiye mujhe aap ... chale jaiyee yahan se ... aapke iss pyaar ke layak hi nhi hn main .... She shouts in cracking voice.
(leave me and please go away! I don't deserve this eternal love of yours! She shouts in cracking voice.)

Omkara : Chodne ke liye tumhara haath .. tumhara saath nhn thama hai maine Gauri , Ateet ki choton ke dar se tum apne aane waale kal ko to nhn thukra sakti ho na ... Apni zindagi ke itne saal maine isiliye barbaad kar diye kyuki main itne saalon mae tumhari aankhon main chupa wo pyaar kabhi dekh hi nhi saka...Kaash...kaash maine apni dil ki aawaz suni hoti jo chikh chikh kar mujhse kehta raha ki main Gauri se kitna pyaar karta hn.... Par Maine toh jaise dil ke darwazon par taala taanga diya tha...Lekin ab sab theek hoga..main tumhe tmhari saari khoyi hui khushiyaan dunga Gauri ... He says
(I had not held your hand so that I could leave it! We cannot certainly destroy the future due to the wounds of out past! I have already wasted God knows how many years. I so much wish that I had listened to me heart which actually shouted that I love you! But I guess I had locked the doors of my heart! But now everything will be fine I'll give you all your lost happiness!)

Gauri :
Jitna aapse hum ishq krte hai usse zyada apki respect krte hai! Aapka proposal thukra kar hum aapki insult nhi kr rhe hai balki hum aapse srf kuch waqt chahte hai... humein thoda sochne smjhne ka waqt chahiye! Yeh sab ek jhatke mae sab badal gya hum itni aasani se kaise apne beetein huye woh kahi saal bhul jaaye!
(I respect you even more than I love you! I don't wish to disrespect you by not accepting your proposal but I want some time atleast to understand what is going on. Everything changed just in a shot but how can I possibly forget it... How can I forget those years in just a moment!)

O: Mai jaanta hn is dil par jo zakhm lage hai unhe bharne mae bohot waqt lagega! Aur shayad jeete ji mai unhe bhar bhi na pau lekin Gauri mai tjhe marham lagane ki puri koshish krungi! Apni beete huyi dosti ke liye, apne aaj yaani apni beinteha ishq ke liye aur apne aane waale kal ke liye... tjhe waqt lena hai na Gauri mai tjhe waqt deta hn par pls itni zyada deri mat krna ki waqt hi beet jaye!
(I know that the wounds that have been ailed to this heart will take alot of time to heal and I might be able to even tend to them and get them completely healed in my life span but I will surely try to put medicine on them... You want time na Is give you your time but please don't take so much time that we have none of it left with us!)

Tuh gaari le aur ghar ja, ghar paas mae hi hai abhi isliey tuh ja aur idhar udhar bhatakne ki zaroorat nhi hai.. ghar par sabse keh dena saari baatein! Mjhe ek zaroori kaam hai... Mai kuch der mae aajaunga...
(you take the car and return home, the house is near only without wandering here and there return home! And tell everyone everything that happened I have some important work to do!)

Gauri just nodded and drove the car away, while he began walking with slow steps as if his destination was never to come and finally with those steps he reaches a temple. He rang the bell and entered the temple putting hiss slippers aside and sat down infront of his lord helpless and teary.

O: yeh kaise khel khelte hai aap bhagwan? Matlb puri dunya mae ek mai hi milla aapko mazak krne ke liye? Rishton ke aisa kaisa jaal hai! Phans chuka hn mai jaise! Aaj Gauri ke liye apne pyar ka ehsas hote hi maine uska izhaar toh krdiya par maine Ishana se bhi kuch wade kiye the kuch kasme diye the jo mai kbhi nibha hi nhi paaya! Pls Ishana mjhe maaf krde! Tuh ek bohot achi insaan thi, meri dost! Har jgh mujhe support kiye mere kandhe se kandha milakr chali shayad isliey tmhare aage mera sar jhuk gya tha meri ankhein bandh hogyi thi aur mai bachpan ki apni muhabbat ka ehsas hi nhi kr paaya! Woh bandhan mere dil mae beshak tha par usse pehchan nhi paaya mai! Tjhe kya lgta hai ki maine Gauri se apne ishq ka izhaar kiya hai toh mai tjhe bhul gya hn? Mai kaise bhul skta hn Ishana tjhe tune mjhe meri khwaheishon apne se upar rkha, humesha mjhse bina kuch badle mae mange pyar krti rahi! Mai bhale hi Gauri ke saath aage brh jau par tuh mjhe humesha yaad rhegi.. tere saath bitaye hue lamhe kisi se haseen sapne se kam nhi the! Bohot yaad aati hai tuh mjhe.. Ek trf tuh aur dusri trf meri Gauri bachpan se hi srf aur srf mjhe bepannah muhabbat deti rahi, uksi nigahon ka woh ishq shayad mjhe dikha nhi ya mai dekhna hi nhi chahta tha! Meri wajah se woh tadapti rhi pal pal marti rhi uske baad jab Ishana tum chali gyi toh usne tmhe maarne ke ilzaam bhi apne sar le liye! Aur uske ishq ka toh mjhe pta hi nhi pgta agar us din... us din maine dadi aur Sanvi ki baatein na sunni hoti toh!..
(what kind of a game was this my lord? Did you just find me to play this joke on? What kind of a trap of relationships is this? I am trapped in it! I did confess my feelings to gauri as soon as I realized them but I did certain promises to ishana too ,you were too good as a human ishana,my friend! You supported me everywhere. You always stood giving me your shoulder and I guess it was the reason why I bowed infront of you and your love! And I couldn't even see my childhood love.. That love was there in my heart since forever but realisation was something which came too late! What do you think ishana that just because I have confessed KY feelings to Gauri I have forgotten you? It is surely not so how can I forget you! You had always put me before anything and everyone else! Without asking for anything in return you kept loving me so deeply and unconditionally! Even though I might decide to move on in life but moments spent with you weren't less than any beautiful dream! On one side it's you and on the other gauri! The one who has loved me so much since childhood. Because of me she kept on suffering all these years and dying internally and now she considers herself your murderer... And I got to know about her loving me only because of dad and dadis conversation that day!)

Flashback

Dadi: najane kya likha hai mere bachon keep naseeb mae! Mai dil se chahti rahi ki un dono ki shaadi hojaye par gauri ka rishta akhir shivay se hi pakka hua hai!
(God knows what is there in my children's fate! I wanted with my all heart that the two of them got married but now gauri has been finally hooked up with shivay!)

Sanvi : Dadi ab jo Ho Mai bas chahti hn ki gauri ki khushiyan jo na jaane kahan bhatak gayi hai usse mil jaaye! Uski shadi jisse bhi Ho woh bas khush rhe! Jo Ho jaye par Mai jaanti hn ki woh mrte dam tak srf Omkara ko chahegi! Uski chahat omkara ke liye aajtak waise hi hai jaise bachpan mae thi! Dadi Maine dekha hai usse kitni shiddat se usse pyar krti hai, Maine bhi uski muhabbat ko dekhkr maan liya hai ki muhabbat bhi ibadat jaisi hoti hai! Bhagwan Samne Ho na Ho puja Ho skti hai aur pyar aapka Ho na Ho pyar kr skte hai! Bohot tadpi hai woh Ishana aur Omkara ko saath dekhkr.. Aakir kaun insaan hai jo apni muhabbat ko kisi aur ke sath dekh sake! Lekin phr bhi woh chup rahi khud ko Andar hi Andar khtm krti rhi par apne pyar ka izhaar nhi kiya!
(0dadi whatever happens i just want that gauri gets back her happiness! To whomever does she get married I just wish she stays happy! I know that though whatever happen in life she will keep loving omkara unconditionally! Her love is same since childhood! I have learned seeing her love that love is just like worship! God ain't there in front of us but still we perform Puja the same way love is ours or not we can continue loving without any refrain! She has suffered alot seeing the duo together who can see their love being someelses! But still she never opened up to omkara! She kept on finishing herself!)

Omkara tearily listened to their conversation. And headed towards his room where he went towards the window and looked out!

Bawli ne mjhse? Apne paglu se pyar kiya hai? Aur yeh paglu pagal ka pagal hi reh gya! Smjh hi nhi paya ki uski dost ke man mae akhir chal kya rha hai! Boht ghamand tha na tjhe paglu khud par ki tjhse better Teri bawli ko koi jaanta hi nhi hai! Dekh aankhein phaad kr tuh fail hogya hai fail hogya hai.... Na hi ishana ke saath rishta nibha paaya na gauri ke saath! Tuh aakhir kr kya rha tha itne saal? Apni banai hui dhundhli zindagi jee rha tha? Wahan woh saalon saal mjhe chahte huye tadapti rahi aur Mai baithkr enjoy krta rha!
(bawli me? She has loveed her paglu? This paglu remained pagal only! Couldn't even understand what kind of emotional turmoil his friend was going through! You were so proud that no one knows your bawli better that you! Now have a look you have failed you have failed miserably! Neither could you fulfil responsibility with ishana nor with gauri! What were you doing all these years? Living in your own illusional world? You kept on enjoying while she kept on suffering and crying for you!)

Flashback ends !

Do ladkiyan behad khubsurat, nek dil aur mjhse bepannah ishq krne waali meri zindagi mae bhej di aapne bhagwaan ji aur mjhe yeh sab mae phansa diya! Ab bhi mai nhi jaanta ki aapne mere haq mae kya likha hai! Lekin mae Gauri ko ab apna sab kuch maankar aage brhne chahta hn, aur mai jaanta hn ki ab hum sabki bhalai ke liye yahi sahi hai, mai Ishana ke saath koi zyagti nhi kr rha par ab meri aur Gauri ki shaadi ho chuki,hum dono ek dusre ko chahte hai toh shayad ab dunya ki reet ke hisaab se yeh rishta nibhane mae hi akkalmandi chupi hogi!
(two girls immensely beautiful good hearted and both love me unconditionally and passionately,! And both in my fate? Where have you put me Lord? Now I simply don't know what have you planned foR me but now considering gauri my everything I have decided to move on! And I know that it's what is better for all of our good! It is not like I am being unfair to ishana but now I am married to gauri! We both love each other and now according to the world norms accepting this relationship would be something intelligent)

Ab Mai woh krunga jo mera dil kahega! Sahi aur galat ke beech ka farq nhi jaanta Mai! Bas ab sab kuch teekh krne ka waqt aagya hai!
(I'll do what my heart say s now! I don't know what is right or wrongs all I know is that now the time has come to get things right!)

Precap: Alfazon ke sheher mae
(In the city of words)

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