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Omkara stood in front of a photo with garland of a girl. A girl with a cute smile, maturity as well as innocence reflecting from her eyes and her black and dense hair granting her even more beauty. Omkara folded his hands infront of her and cried bitterly.

Om: Ishana mjhe pls maaf krdo, pls mjhe maaf krdo. Maine tmhare saath dhoka kiya hai. Na tum jab zinda thi tab yh deserve krti thi na ab marne ke baad yh deserve krti ho mjhe pls maaf krdo. Maine apni zindagi mae srf paap aur gunnah hi kiye hai. Bawli aur tere dono ke saath itne zulm kiye hai. Ishana sach mere dil mae tere liye jo bhi tha usme 1% bhi fareb ya khudgarzi nhi thi. Dil se tmhari izzat krta tha aur tmhe chahta tha, tmse jo waade kiye jo kasmein khayi unhe todna nhi chahta tha. Par zindagi mjhe aise mod par le aayi ki mjhe bawli se pyar ka ehsas hua, yh ehsas hua ki uske bina shayad mera dil bhi dhakadna bandh krde.

(Ishana pls forgive me. I have betrayed you. You didnt deserve this even when u were alive nor do u deserve all this now. Pls forgive me. I have just done misdeeds in my life. I have tortured both you and bawli. Ishana honestly whatever is their within me for you was'nt fake for even 1%. It was not because of me selfishness, I actually respected you and liked you as a person from all my heart. The promises, the swears I made to you werent meant to be broken but the epiphany which struck me regarding my love for bawli caused me to do all this. I realised that without her this heart of mine will also stop beating!)

Maine bht koshish ki apne dimag ki sunni par nhi mere dil ke aage woh haar aagya aur mai bawli ke paas chala gya. Lkn mai tmhara gunnehgaar hn, tm meri patni thi, meri zimmedari thi mjhe tmhara dhyan rkhna chahiye tha, mai apne farz apne pati ke farz mae fail hogya. Mai aaj bhi jab jab Gauri ke paas jata hn mere aage tmhara woh khoon se lad pad chehra aata hai, sach kahun toh meri rooh kaanp jaati hai jab jab us din ke baare mae sochta hn.

(Ishana I tried my best to listen to my brain but it lost the battle with my heart. My heart and my live for bawli won. But yes I surely am your wronger, you were my wife, my responsibilty I was supposed to rake care of you protect you,but I failed miserably. Even today whenever I go near Gauri I can see that face of yours with blood all over it, my soul trembles out I swear whenever I think of that day.)

Mgr iska mai bawli ko pta hargiz nhi lgne de skta. Choti hai woh. Apni umar ke hisaab se aage hi uski tadpan uski taqleefein bht zyada hai. Mai chahta hn ki usse mere trf se jis pyaar ki intezaar itne salon se thi mai usse woh pyaar du, usse mai apni dil ki taqlifein bata ya dikha kr usse aur udaas nhi kar skta.

(But I cannot let bawli know about this. She is small. According to her age her sufferings have been alot more. So now I want that the love she has been waiting from my side should reach her as soon as possible. I cant surely tell her my pains and sadden her further in life.)

Ishana ho sake toh mjhe maaf krdena. Waada kiya tha tmse maine ki tmhare ilawa kisi ladki ki trf nhi dekhunga, kisi se pyaar nhi krunga. Par kya kru? Is pagal dil ko hogya pyar.. hogya pyar ya yunh kahu phle se hi tha, tmhari muhabbat mae kbhi koi kammi nhi thi haar toh mai gya hn. Har rishte ko nibhane mae.

(Ishana if possible pls forgive ne. I had promised you that except for you I wont lay down my eyes on any other girl of this world, I wont live anyone. But what to do? I fell in love. Or I was already in love. This mad heart of mine has fallen. It was your love which was so pure and flawless, It is me who has failed. I have failed in fulfilling all my duties)

He felt his knees becoming weaker and fell down on the ground crying bitterly.

Na jaane kyu meri zindagi is tarah ulajh gyi hai. Maine na kbhi kisi ka bura chaha ya kiya. Apne jazbaton par kaabu hi nhi hai mera. Aur apne dil ki baat ki aakhir kahun toh mai kahun kisse? Bata tuh?

(God knows why my life has got complicated this way. I havent wanted bad for anyone nor have I done something bad to anyone. Why cant I control ky feelings. And then whom should I convey my heart to? You only tell me?)

"Hum itne hure hai kya?" (Am I so bad?) He heard a voice from the door. He looked towards the door only find gauri standing with tears rolling down her eyes indefinitely.

G: apne dil ki baat humse nhi kahin jaati kya?
(Cant you say whatever is there in your heart to me?)

She entered and sat down on the ground near him..

G: hum maante hai ki umar mae chote hai hum. Lekin zindagi aur uski taqleefein dekhi hai humne. Srf umar hi kaafi nhi hoti brha hone ke liye. Zindagi aur situations logon ko badal deti hai. Aap baar baar pchte hai na humse ki woh purana bawli kahan kho gyi? Bawli khoyi nhi h bas zindagi ki rahein itni ulajh gyi hai ki unhe suljhane mae hum masroof the. Humara woh roop waqt ke saath hi khtm hogya. Insaan hum wahi hai bas humne zindagi se bohot kuch seekh liya hai. Omkara hum brhe ho chuke hai, hum aapki patni nhi aapki dost banna chahte hai. Woh dost jisse aap apni taqlefein bayan karre.

(I agree that I am younger to you by age. ButI have seen life and  pains. Just growing in age isnt truly growing up. Life and situations end up changing people. You keep on asking me na where that old bawli of yoir is lost? Bawli aint lost its just that the complications of life made me busy. That phase of mine ended with time. I am the same person its just that I have learned alot in life. Omkara now I have grown up, I dont want ti become ur friend I want to become ur wife. That friend with whom frankly you can open yohr heart infront of and tell me all you pains.)

Humein bilkul andaza nhi ki aapke man mae Ishana jiji ke liye humare liye kya hai. Lekin hum itna jaante hai ki aap dil ke bure nhi hai. Jis nav par aap abhi sawar hai hum bhi us hi par hai. Humein bhi har pal yahin khyal tadpata rhta hai ki jiji ki maut ki wajah hum hai aur aaj pta chala ki aapka haal-e-dil bhi aisa hi hai.

(I had seriously no idea that what you feel for ishana jiji and for me. I just know this much that you aint bad at heart. The boat in which u r sailing is the same in which even I am stuck. I had been cursing myself as the murderer of jiji and today I het to know that you feel the same about it.)

Srf aap fail nhi hue hai hum bhi hogye hai, har rishte mae. Dub gya hai humara jahaz. Aur mjhme terne ki umeed hi nhi thi lekin aaj aapko is tarah bebas dekhkr ehsas hua ki srf hum nhi hai jo tadap rha hai,  aap bhi toh issi sab se guzar rhe hai. Mgr phr bhi aapki har pal koshish rhti hai ki mere chehre par muskaan le aaye jabki dusri taraf hum smjhte rahe aap jiji ko ek jhatke mae bhul gye hai.

It iss not just you who has failed even i failed. I have failed in fulfilling each and every relationship. The ship on which we are sailing has drowned. I didnt have any zeal left within me to swim now but today seeing you suffering the same way I am. I feel I am not alone, I am not the only one who is suffering. But you all this time were wishing to make me smile. Put a smile on my face while I thoight you forgot my sister this soon.

Omkara cried nodding negatively

Om: teri jiji ko toh mai zindagi bhar kya marne ke baad bhi nhi bhulunga. Us jaisi saaf dil larki shayad hi hoti hogi dunya mae. Mere bache ki maa hai woh. Kaise bhul skta hun usse? Uske saath itne saal bitaye hai. Meri zindagi aur mere dil ka ehem hissa hai woh. Bas zindagi ki rahein itni ulajh gyi thi ki hum phrse wahi aakr khade hogye hai Gauri jahan hum phle the. Tuh aur mai saath mae khade hai dobara ek mod par.

(I wont forget your jiji eevn after I die. A pure girl like her rarely exists, she is the mother of my son. How can I forget her? All these years I have spent with her will remain a very precious part of my life and heart. But then again life is so complicated that today we both stand again face to face to each other the same way we had begun with. We both stand together on the same road of life.)

Isse maine upar waale ki marzi smjhi aur zindagi ko ek aur mauka dena ka socha. Mgr yh toh usse bhi zyada mushkil hai jitna maine socha tha.

(This is why I thought to giev life and love a chance in live. But I swear moving on isnt at easy as I thought it to be.)

Gauri pulled in Omkara into a tight hug. And carressed his hairs.
They stayed that way for sometime, then parted. Gauri wiped his tears, while even he returned the same favour.

It was when Mayan entered the room.

Mayan: No loves me :'(

He said making sad faces and started crying out loud to which Jhanvi came in rushing.

Jhanvi: yh aap kya bol rhe ho beta. Sab aapse pyaar krte hai. Sab
(What are you saying beta. All love you!)

M: No papa, no mamma, no one loves me :(

Om: nhi beta aisa nhi hai. 
(No dear ut aint that way)

M: No mamma. No papa. No love me. All only cry cry. Me also cry.

And he lied down on the floor and started throwing his hands and legs in the air, while jhanvi stood holding her head.

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Mayan is an important character of the story. Tho he is ishana's son but he cannot be neglected which he is being done since forever. So I felt some portion of this book for Mayan?😂😋
Hope its okay and yes rikara will come along with it only❤
Some expert pls can you tell me how old our Mayan is?😓😂😂

I have written an Os "Silsila Aetbar ka" . Do read it if interested.

Saru❤😌