My mind says I'm not enough
I'm still growing up and broken
It feels like the way the narcs have
Got into my head with their voices

My mind tricks me into thinking I'm
Wounded, I'm weak, I'm bad I don't
Deserve love, I should be tough and
Be selfless while killing my soul

I thought addressing would help
But lending a finger, it held my throat
Drowning me into darkness, keeping
Me in lies you weaved as a spider

Keeping me away from people I care
And who love me no matter what
What a punishment you gave me just
Because it always was in the past?

I thought we were partners, mind?
I know we need a focus and discipline
I forgive you, nevertheless you're me
And I'll never let you fall into the pit

Had a conversation with Divine
He says I need to free myself from the
Illusion of the past, that it gives me
Lessons, no I won't deprive again

Thought it was seasonal depression
Or transformation and purging
But with that it also was a lesson of
Taming the mind, keep it a servant

A/n:

This shit had been really worse bad! It can go suck a hoe, but dealing with self sabotage for like what 17 days and damn I don't even realise????!?!?!? Yeah, I am good enough, I'm healing, I'm becoming better and it's the truth. I just need some self confidence I've learnt and no return to the past, just keeping in lessons.
With this, I free my mind from all the ill thoughts and sadness. I release it out ✨🙏✨💐

Your grateful author,
かな恵一