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~ Blue

Last night was almost the best night of my life but it became the worst. Dad has been taken, Jake and I .. I don't know what we did. I can't do what he wants us to do.

I wasn't ready for any Jake drama cuz of family stuffs... Jake? I really can't!

Right now I'm in front of my locker. I wore black jeans and black tank top today to show the color of my heart​ right now.

I've been avoiding Jake today and so far it has been working. He can't tell me he loves me again. He just...can't.

Mom didn't go to work today. She's still upset about me bringing Jake over but most of all...dad. We really need him.

Even though he's not usually around ,I get that but in that case I'm sure he'd be back but now the fear of loosing him Is 95%. I can't stop
thinking that I'd loose him. He needs to come back.

My cousins and I decided to check the old broccoli store today,but after school because that's where we caught them once.

I'm really tired ,sick, crazy... I don't know, but I'm not well. School stuff to attend, homework to do,dad, Jake... Jake!

I looked up and found him starring at me... those eyes. I turned around to move as fast as I could to the cafeteria but of course he easily caught me.

"Blue?"

I tried to ignore it but he kept calling me.

"Blue?! Please wait! Blue?!"

"What? Jake? What is it?!"

It think said a little to harsh because his face just became paler. Oh God.

"I..um" he looked down. Is he embarrassed? No he can be. "I hope everything's okay, I mean...um... considering last night"

"Everything's okay. Thanks" I said walking away from him again

"Wait... Your mom? Was she fine? She wa-"

"She's okay. Thanks for asking"

"Blue? About what I sai-"

"Look Jake,I'm sorry for last night. Everything was a huge mistake and I'm sure you were drunk when you said those words"

"I wasn't Blue. I meant every single word"

God Jake what would I do? You're making this really hard for me. I... How will I tell.. oh gosh I can't say this. He'd hate me forever

Jake!!! Urgh!

"Blu-"

"Well what I did was a huge mistake"

"But..you kissed back. I told you I lov-"

"And I don't!!Jake I don't!!! And don't say those words to me EVER!"

And with that I left him and other witnesses as I headed to the cafeteria to regret all I just said and did.

I was angry, tired... confused. I had never felt that attached to someone like I was to Jake.

After school I didn't go home immediately because I couldn't face mom. I had my problems to deal with as well so I went to the restaurant a few minutes away from home.

I ordered just orange juice to calm my nerves and waited for my drink. My life is so complicated right now. Dad,mom, Jake?

I wished I could travel to a place where no one knew me. A different place...but someone had said "running away from your troubles isn't a way of solving it"

After I got my drinks I drank it sip by sip thinking of the night with Jake. I made a scowl to show how disgusted I was about the kiss.

As if karma knew what I was thinking of, someone entered inside the restaurant... Jake.

My day just keeps getting worse.

I tried to hide my face with the menu but I guess it just made it easier for him to spot me for he was walking towards me. He stopped

"I...I'm really sorry" he said with his head board down slightly, "and if you want, I promise I won't disturb you or talk to you again"

He didn't wait for my response before he walked out.

What was he meaning of that?

My Jake fever was over? That's not what I meant. I just....urrrggghhh!

Why does karma love me so much!

After I finished my drink I paid my bills and ran out of the restaurant towards my home.

I didn't glance at my mom cause the tears had already started strolling down my face.

I entered my room ,jumped on my bed and cried my eyes out...till I fell asleep.

I'm sooooooooo sorry I haven't posted for a long time

I had another book in mind and I'm thinking of finishing it before publishing so I guess I abandoned this one 😥

Well, I'll continue this one as fast as I can. I'm so confused right now. I don't know where to continue from in this book.

Please should I stop writing the book already? Or focus on the other one? Please I need answers​.

Thanks for your support though😗